GRIM

I moved out to the middle of nowhere because I've really really been thinking about killing myself, like almost non stop. But also that getting away from a stale life style may be what I need to sew together my broken seems. I've spent most of my time looking up at the sky. The idea of infinity is something I find very beautiful. In another place there is a version of myself that did everything right running on stage with a arena full of lights pointed only at him. A version of me who took care of the family and made everyone proud. A version of me who will live out his day in pursuit of adventure and only that. I hope to meet him. I'm just the version of me about to turn 20 without having done any of that. My youth is really almost gone and I don't think any of that is coming anytime soon haha. Hopefully I can deal with it. If not I mean I have no problem with a complete stranger finding my body. Just so Long as it isn't my own parents.

I'm super scared about the clothing drop on the 30th