nowhere man.

A: abusive, accident-prone, addicted, afraid to take risks, affected, affected by peer pressure, afraid of change, aggressive, aloof, annoying, anti-social, anxious, argumentative, arrogant, artless, attention seeker, authoritarian, avaricious, awkward

B: backstabbing, badgering, barks orders, base, belligerent, belittling, blames everyone else, boorish, boring, bossy, bovine, brags, brutal, bully, bumbling

C: callous, catty, caustic, chauvinistic, cheap, cheats, cheerless, childish, clumsy, cocky, cold, cold-hearted, combative, competitive, complacent, complainer, conceited, confrontational, confused, conniving, controlling, corrects others constantly, corrupt, covetous, coward, critical, cruel, cynic

D:  deceitful, defeating, delusional, demanding, denial, deranged, destructive, directed by externals, directionless, disagreeable, discourteous, dishonest, disorganized, disrespectful, dissatisfied, distant, does everything by the book, does what is convenient, doesn’t listen, doesn’t think things through, dogmatic, dominating, domineering, doubtful, dour, downer, draconian, drags people down, drama queen, drinker, drugs, dull, dysfunctional

E: easily aggravated, easily fooled, easily offended, easily threatened, egoist, embarrassing, emotionless, envious, erratic, evasive, exacting, excessive, exhibitionistic, extravagant

F: facetious, faded, false, false bravado, fanatical, fawning, fearful, feels superior to others, fickle, fidgety, finicky, finishes sentences for others, flippant, follower, foolish, forgetful, frantic, fraudulent, furtive, fussy

G: gives up easily, glares often, glib, gold-digging, goody-goody, gossiper, greedy, grim, grumpy, guarded, gullible

H: harasses, hard, harsh, hateful, heartless, high-handed, hogs spotlight, holier-than-thou, hostile, hot-tempered, humorous, hyper

I: ignorant, ill-behaved, ill-bred, ill-will, immature, immodest, impatient, imperious, impolite, impractical, impulsive, inactive, inarticulate, inconsiderate, inconsistent, indecisive, indifferent, indulgent, inefficient, infantile, inflexible, inhibited, insane, insecure, insensitive, insincere, inspires guilt, interrupts, irresponsible, intimidator, intolerant, irritable, isolated

J: jealous, jittery, judgmental

K: kept-back, killjoy, know-it-all

L: lacking conscience, lack of effort, lack of self-confidence, lack of stamina, lazy, liar, life stinks attitude, lonely, low energy, lordly, loud, low drive, low self-esteem

M: macho, mad, makes fun of people, makes others uneasy, malicious, manipulative, martyr attitude, materialistic, mean, meek, melodramatic, merciless, messianic, messy, misanthropic, miserable, miserly, mistrusting, monosyllabic, moody, mopey, morbid

N: nagging, naïve, narcissistic, narrow-minded, naughty, needling, negative, negligent, never happy unless miserable, non engaging, noisy, nosy

O: oblivious, obnoxious, one-dimensional, opinionated, ostentatious, outrageous, outspoken, overbearing, overly emotional/excitable, overly flirtatious, overly polite, overly proper, overly sensitive, overly serious, over wrought

P: panicky, paranoid, passive, pathetic, pessimist, petty, petulant, phony, pigheaded, pitiful, plotting, pompous, poor judgment, posturing, power-hungry, predatory, predictable, prejudiced, pretentious, prim, prissy, procrastinate, promiscuous, proud, prudish, puritanical

Q: quarrelsome, quixotic, quitter, quick tempered

R: racist, radical, random, rash, rebellious, recalcitrant, reckless, rejects change, reluctant, remote, repressed, repulsive, reserved, rigid, rude, ruled by peer pressure, rules with an iron fist, ruthless

S: sanctimonious, sarcastic, sardonic, scathing, scatterbrained, schemer, scornful, sadistic, second-guessing, secretive, sees bad in everything, self-centered, self-conscious, selfish, self-righteous, self-satisfied, self-serving, severe, sexist, shallow, shameless, shifty, short-sighted, show off, shy, short-fused, slanderer, sloppy, slovenly, small goals, smug, sneaky, snobby, social approval required, sociopathic, soft, somber, sophomoric behavior, speaks in monotone, spendthrift, spiteful, squeamish, static, stalker, starchy, stick-in-the-mud, stingy, stoic, stony-faced, stubborn, stuck up, sullen, suspicious, swaggering

T:  taciturn, tacky, taker, take over, talker, talks over people, tattletale, temper, temperamental, terse, thinks everyone is stupid, thin-skinned, thoughtless, timid, tiresome, touchy, trivial, troubled, two-faced, typical

U: unable to relax, unappreciative, uncaring, uncompassionate, uncommitted, uncommunicative, uncooperative, uncouth, uncreative, undemonstrative, undependable, undisciplined, unethical, unexpressive, unfeeling, unfocused, unforgiving, unfriendly, ungrateful, unhappy, unhelpful, unkempt, unimaginative, unmotivated, underhanded, unorganized, unpolished, unprincipled, unproductive, unrealistic, unreceptive, unreliable, unresourceful, unresponsive, unrestrained, unruly, unscrupulous, unsmiling, unsophisticated, unsure, unsympathetic, uptight, untrustworthy, user

V: vacant, vague, vain, vengeful, venomous, vindictive, violent, visionless, volatile, vulgar, vicious 

W: wary, wasteful, weak, wears drab clothes, weird, weary, wet blanket, whimsical, whines, willful, wily, wise-assed, wishy-washy,  womanizing, worrier, wretched

X: xenophobic

Y: yellow-bellied

Z:  zealot

Send one (or more) for my character’s reaction.

“Lay down.”

“Stay here.”

“Stay inside.”

“I love you.”

“Eat something.”

“Are you leaving?”

“I’ll help.”

“Rest now.”

“Get some sleep.”

“Are you awake?”

“I’ll do it.”

“What is it?

“Sleep well.”

“Are you okay?”

“I’ll be okay.”

“You’re safe.”

“I’m a friend.”

“I don’t like it.”

“I can’t sleep.”

“You’re amazing.”

“You’re comfortable.”

“You’re warm.”

“You’re soft.”

“You are shaking.”

“You are wet.”

“You are tall.”

“I am freezing.”

“I am hungry.”

“I’m tired.”

“I know you.”

“I’m too short.”

“I’m frightened.”

“Where were you?”

“Why me?”

“Why there?”

“Come here.”

“Walk with me?”

“Kiss me.”

“Hug me.”

“Hold me.”

send a symbol. | no longer accepting.

     She could almost make a home out of her coat and the crook of Grian’s arm, the cool evening breeze on her cheeks, a thermos of tea between them. A catlike yawn crawls up her throat, tired eyes flitting from patch of sky to patch of sky, painted silver with starlight. “This is what it looked like in Colorado.” The first words of home – home-home – she’s spoken in years feel like pine-beetles gnawing her ribs to hollows. “Way up in the mountains.”

     Unmentioned: that the first and last time she went, she was ten.

     Unmentioned: that her father was the one to take her.

     Unmentioned: she feels like she could be with him now.

     Grian is not her father. Millie has to remind herself of that frequently – he’s not her father, and she is not his child, and she should not impose herself as such. (Do not be his daughter, a voice chants to the beat of her heart, scrapping, snarling, good girl gone sour.)

     But like this, it’s hard not to feel like she could be. He smells the way Christopher did and his shoulders stretch just as wide. Her place at his side feels like it could have been made for her, the way she fits into it, a middle piece of a jigsaw puzzle. They understand one another in their own secret language where neither speaks but entire conversations fill the room, floor to ceiling.

hands on her hips,

       “The kind of person that would also want         to be told the same? If there was?”

             Curiosity killed the cat …

                                                           and satisfaction murder brought it back.

                                                     Independent  🐾 Selective

“Never saw a rich man that didn’t wind up with a guilty conscience.”

“I already got a guilty conscience, might as well have the money too.”

“I’d know that sour face anywhere.”

“Isn’t that a daisy?”

“Does this mean we’re not friends anymore? You know, ____, if I thought you weren’t my friend, I just don’t think I could bear it.”

“You gonna do something or just stand there and bleed?”

“Don’t you always say that gambling’s an honest trade?”

“Oh, ____, I forgot you were there. You may go now.”

“Forgive me if I don’t shake hands.”

“What kinda town is this?”

“Well, an enchanted moment.”

“Prettiest man I ever saw.”

“Is your soul for sale, dear?”

“I’ll be damned.”

“You may indeed, if you get lucky.”

“Would you look at all those stars? You look up and think, God made all of that and still remembered to make a little speck like me.”

“What about Hell? They got a sign there?”

“And what a maiden. Pure as the driven snow, I’m sure.”

“Tell me, friend, I’m curious. Do you actually consider yourself a married man, forsaking all others?”

“People can change, _____. Sooner or later, you gotta grow up.”

“I stand corrected, ____. You’re an oak.”

“What do you say, darling? Should I hate him?”

“I don’t know, there’s just something about him. Something ‘round the eyes.”

“No, I’m sure of it. I hate him.”

“We don’t want any trouble in here. Not in any language.”

“Apparently ____ is an educated man. Now I really hate him.”

“Yeah, I’m an oak, alright.”

“Lovely? You could have been killed back there.”

“You’d die for fun?”

“I’m always happy. Unless I’m bored.”

“I want to move and go places and never look back.”

“Well then why are you with him?”

“Oh, I know, don’t say it. I’m rotten. I try to be good but it’s so boring.”

“I don’t have time to be proper. I want to live.”

“I’m a woman, I like men. If that means I’m not ladylike then I guess I’m not a lady.”

“You’re different, there’s no arguing that. But you’re a lady alright. I’d take my oath on it.”

“You die first, you get it? Your friends might get me in a rush but not before I turn your head into a canoe.”

“You’re not as stupid as you look, _____.”

“You’re so drunk, you can’t hit nothing. In fact, you’re probably seein’ double.”

“I have two guns. One for each of ya.”

“Nonsense, I’ve not yet begun to defile myself.”

“_____ can go all day and night and then some.”

“Why _____, whatever do you mean?”

“Maybe poker’s just not your game. I know, let’s have a spelling contest!”

“Come on, darling, let’s seek our entertainment elsewhere.”

“Yes, it’s true, you are a good woman. Then again, you may be the Antichrist.“

“You’re a daisy if you do.”

“I’m your huckleberry.”

“Remember what I said about seeing a light when you’re dying? Ain’t true, I can’t see a damn thing.”

“And so she walked out of our lives forever.”

“He’s down by the creek, walkin’ on water.”

“Make no mistake, it’s not revenge he’s after. It’s a reckoning.“

“I forgave you the moment you said it.”

“I spent my whole life not knowing what I wanted out of life, just chasing my tail.”

“A man like _____, what makes him do the things that he does?”

“A man like _____ has a great, empty hole right through the middle of him. He can never kill enough or steal enough or inflict enough pain to ever fill it.”

“I can’t beat him, can I?”

“What’s it like to wear one of those?”

“Well, I didn’t think you had it in ya.”

“Why, ______. You look like somebody just walked over your grave.”

“We started a game that we never got to finish. Play for blood, remember?”

“I was just foolin’ about.”

“You’re no daisy, you’re no daisy at all.”

“Poor soul, you were just too high-strung.”

“I’m afraid the strain was more than he could bear.”

“I wasn’t quite as sick as I made out.”

“My hypocrisy only goes so far.”

“It appears my hypocrisy knows no bounds.”

“You’re no hypocrite, ____, you just like to sound like one.”

“You’re the most fallible, stubborn, self-deluded, bullheaded man I have ever known in my entire life.”

“You’re the only human being in my entire life that gave me hope.”

“There’s no normal life. There’s just life, you get on with it.”

“Take that beauty and run, don’t look back.”

“_____, if you were ever my friend, if you ever had the slightest feeling for me, leave now. Leave, please.”

“Thanks for always being there, _____.”

“I’ll be damned, this is funny.”

“I have nothing left, nothing to give you.”

“I have no pride, no dignity.”

“I promise, I’ll love you the rest of your life.”