— young ambition.

“My sense of humour is a permanent feature, you’ll be glad to know. Although, I’m not sure which part you think I’m joking about. The grapes and the luck are both definitely real.”

“Telling me to stop drinking is like telling a fish to breathe above water. Not possible.” Ryder joked. “Don’t pretend that you don’t love hearing about how great you are.”

noah: unfortunately not but if I was a superhero, what do you think my powers would be?

noah: nah, I don't think those worry lines exist

noah: your beautiful face is worry line free, I'm sure of it

noah: I pinky promise. you can even tell me all about your dinosaurs when I come over

rj: probably xray vision or being invisible tbh

rj: i sure do!! i'll send pics

Allison had been sitting alone at the bar, attempting to drown out her sorrows, or at least distract herself for a bit. “I never understood the hype of drinking. This shit’s nasty.” Allison stated half-drunkenly when seeing someone approach her from her peripheral vision. She immediately downed the drink in her hand, the bitter taste causing her to make a funny face.

“Did you know, in Tenerife on New Year’s Eve, when it gets to midnight you have to eat a grape every time a bell rings, and if you eat them all by the last one you have good luck for the year? I’m pretty sure it works. Aside from being stuck back here, this year’s been fucking lucky.”

Lola: 

[Unsent] I feel like once i comes to you..I don’t think I’ll be enough for Ezra. I think you’re for that one “great eternal love” 

[Unsent]  I’ve apologized a million times..and I’m sorry I’m such a shitty person. 

[Unsent] Do you ever wander what would have happened if we never fought? 

[Unsent] You’re so happy, and I’m so jealous of you..my life so fucking pathetic. 

[Delivered at 4:02 PM]  I think coach said he wanted us at the field at 8:30 tomorrow morning right? Want to catch breakfast before? My treat xx 

Noah 

[Unsent] You know since Ezra cheated on me..are you down to return the favor? 

[Unsent] Do you know where I can buy some weed from? 

[Unsent] Okay but forreal..how BIG is it? I’ve heard stories, Fynn. 

[Unsent] You, Ryder, and Keegan are by far the biggest dumbasses I’ve ever met. 

[Unsent] Do you ever regret sleeping with me? I mean..especially since it was our virginities. 

[Unsent] Sometimes I wonder “what if”, y’know? 

[Unsent] Things have gotten soo messy with Lola being pissed at me..and now Ryan? I just miss us..not like as in “us” but like being able to hang out and just be goofy selves. 

[Unsent] Am I just a natural disaster or what? 

[Unsent] I’m so sorry for sleeping with Alec in the first place..I feel like shit. 

[Unsent] I can’t believe you let Eggnog out of his kennel..there is TOILET PAPER EVERYWHERE! Sometimes you frustrate me!!

[Unsent] I’m seriously a dumb bitch for falling in love with a guy who can give less than two shits about me right..but I guess it serves me right, right?

[Unsent] Why didn’t you tell me about Alec leaving? I’m going to kick his ass! 

[Unsent] Could you please come back? I don’t how much longer I can handle without you.

[Unsent]: Hadley decided to start drama with me..and I need advice with how to deal with it. 

[Unsent] Ezra is being an asshole to you, and I’m so sorry about him. 

[Unsent] If I tried cocaine, would it hurt 

“No!”

'sometimes I forget how innocent you are, ry. '

Noah: I would like you to make me a trophy or medal declaring that for my next birthday

Noah: he’s good with his tongue, too. maybe the tongue + the jawline makes up for the grinch-like personality

Noah: I know for a fact that he’s a threesome kind of guy, you’ve just never struck me as a threesome kind of gal

RJ: would you like a gold plated one so you can show off to ryder? i’ll even sign it if you’d like!

RJ: sometimes honestly I forget that you’ve hooked up with him. personally, although..you tell him i told you this, i’ll deny it..but grinch-like personality adds to him charm. i find it very cute. 

noah: you don't need to worry, I'm basically invincible

noah: bloody liar, I've spent a lot of time looking at your face and I have seen no evidence of these worry lines

noah: I promise that I'll come over the next time that Ryan goes out for the night, okay? I'll pretend to be impressed by your jurassic park setup even though I have no real idea about dinosaurs

rj: are you a superhero or something?

rj: i could really good about covering it up with makeup!!! you don't know!

The idea of studying was gone from his head now that he was face to face with RJ. He felt at complete odds; leaving her alone because of the pain he’d caused her, telling himself that she deserved better, and him wanting to fight for their relationship because nothing else in this world mattered to him but her –– even though he had an extremely fucked up way of showing it. At her reaching out to him, he quickly connected their hands and intertwined their fingers. “I love you. I know you don’t forgive me for the shit that I did, and I can’t come back from any of it, but I do love you and I’m sorry. And I’ll keep trying to prove that to you for as long I can.”

RJ was feeling at different odds but her mind was completely distracted from her studies. She was a master at running away from her problems by now. But as much as these two had such a complicated history, they always seemed to be fighting for each other. The brunette had never felt a love like this--regardless of how toxic or not. But Ezra was it for her. Even though her brain was logically telling her to escape, that she was going to get hurt once again. She couldn’t help but think about all the time she’d caused him rain. As he intertwined their fingers, she smiled a little, trying to hold back a few tears. ‘I love you too more than you will ever know, but it’s just..I understand that you mad at me..but why? I can’t wrapped my mind around. Everybody tells me to run, yet I’m here..I’m so conflicted..but all I think is about how much I’m crazy about you. ’