Jul 22
A couple posts. First, I wonโt be checking my accounts for much longer. If you need to reach out, Iโll still be occasionally checking my email, so you can ask for that, though Iโm not sure Iโll have much left to offer tbh
ETA: Actually, honestly, I think this may be the last time I'm online. Sorry about that.
#I probably go into too many personal details in the tags feel free to skip#But I'm sorry to pull the rug out on this#I really wanted to try#It's just#This account is so upsetting for me#The absolutely horrible shit I went through and witnessed in fandom just#And to know how much time and effort and love I tried to put into this account#To realize I'm so bad at peopling that I don't know if I made any friends#Maybe one or two#Or I managed to lose them#I didn't put myself out there#Or if I did I did it in a bad way#And yet I managed to meet some of the worst people and get into really traumatizing situations#I don't say this to guilt anyone; if you don't know me you don't#I'm not exactly good with people#I'm just#Very sad and apathetic to begin with#I don't want this life enough already#So this account has got to go#I'm off to live in quieter and more solitary spaces where I can pretend things are ok until I can't anymore#I don't think I'm up for proper peopling anymore anyway haha#Previous tags are still accurate if you need me for anything I might have forgotten tho#And there's one DM I want to get to before I go#...Idk if I can get to it tonight but I'll try to at least get back to that one#But I can't promise any more than that person#Yadda yadda#Anyway learn from my mistakes kids#Don't pull away from people#Give people second chances (within reason)#And build your community first and foremost
