I imagine death so much it feels like a memory

having a body causes me so much agony i wish i was just a floating entity with no physical form

it’s unbelievably embarrassing to have a body

God its so exhausting to wake up every morning with a body and mind that you absolutely fucking hate

I dont want to do anything bc I am embarrassed. Im embarrassed of everything. The way I look. The way I talk. The things I say. What my eyes are doing. The clothes im wearing. Even my thoughts are embarrassing. It doesnt matter whether or not people can tell what im thinking, they do and im embarrassed of it.

I hate when people tell me I need to ‘get out of my comfort zone’ I don’t even have a comfort zone. I am literally always uncomfortable

Everyone be like "their body, their choice" until suicide comes up smh

BREAK ONE’S SELF. KILL IT. BE FLUID. DON’T TOUCH. FLOW. MOVE. MOVE. MOVE. BREATHE. DECONSTRUCT. BECOME. BE.

Tomorrow????? ANOTHER day?????!!!!?,?!????????????((??(?!)))!(;;()$$$;::?)$&,:;??‘mlnfdsjkkmfdxsbnkgdssaavytesvjjhrefghjjjkjtfghj im good thNks

no matter where i go or who i interact with on this vast planet, i always have this feeling like i don’t belong, like i’ll never belong. it doesn’t matter how tightly knitted the bond i have with another person is because i’m wired to believe that alone i will live and alone i shall die.

I don’t even want any of this, but I have to deal with all this failure which is a result of me being alive. And that just makes it a million times worse. I fail at everything, I can’t do one thing right. Yeah I failed but I don’t have the motivation or the will to work. I’m not being lazy. I just don’t know how to work towards anything when my end goal is to be dead