self-imposed isolation most of the time i want to fly back to the farm immediately and throw myself down and beg forgiveness for being so foolish and silly and ask to cook and clean for room and board. but i've never been alone. i was with my husbandnot from 14 to just about 21! that's a long time to be with someone. i rushed too fast to get into it with someone else and then i got scared of going back to the same old life. i've sworn off going out now after this missing persons report and i don't talk to half the symbols really and the man's about to go to jail so it'll be 1/4 just the spirit who is as fleeting as you would think. out of balance. but it needs to be so i must learn to manage myself without other containers. i want to focus on sewing and making music and getting a job and saving money for a while i need to drive again and take classes again. june won't take me unawares! maybe i can go back one day but i can't go back as how i am now

google photos won't let you search by slur which makes it really hard to find images i'm looking for sometimes