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Growing up I never had anything luxurious .

But I can’t complaint , I have nothing to complain .

I had a roof over my head , but no walls of my own

A car that did it job , transporting from point A to point B , but there was no comfort , nothing to enjoy about

Maybe I’m being ungrateful

Maybe I’m over pressuring myself

As I grew older , I manage to own a few stuff of my own , but never the things I actually wanted ..

I got a laptop , a phone , but not the kind that I wanted . I’m not saying the laptop/phone is not great , they are ,,, but it’s just not the one I wanted .

Is that why I don’t have a personality of my own , because I compromise with everything.

At the end of the day , I’m not happy .

Maybe I’m just ungrateful.

I’m trying to be more understanding, but I just can’t see where he is coming from .

I don’t want to depend on people . I try not to depend on my own parents ,what more yours .

I feel vulnerable . Loss . Helpless .

Call us Gen Z or Strawberry generation ,

It’s not going to change the fact that we are slaves . Slave to the system , slaves to the workforce

Being a house officer , we go through tonnes of scrutiny. We are called lazy , careless , irresponsible

But let’s take a look at where you ( specialist ) have started from ..

You had a secured career ,

While My career is being held by string

When you made a mistake , you could still go home and have a goodnight sleep

While I make a mistake , i go home , overthink and suffocate myself .

I would be place on a pedestal, I would be given bad remarks , fear of having poor skt, explanation letter , getting extended . And where does all of this leads to .. getting kicked out

you can go around calling out every mistake I do , I’m glad you care enough to point it out . I’m happy to learn from my mistake

There’s no wrong in that , but judging me based on one silly mistake ,that is wrong .

You know what . I’m scared . I feel helpless .

I didn’t choose this profession to earn money or the fame that comes with it .

Because honestly I was earning much more while I was a part time tutor with less working hours and less stress .

To be honest this career chose me .

I don’t want to break , not now . Not when I’m in my fourth posting . It’s a little too late .

I want to be strong . And sometimes all I need is some encouragement , some kind words .

Is that too much

I work to help . And I know , no matter how far in life I reach , I’ll always be working for humanity .

my mistake for the day !!

I didn’t get specialist sign for an investigation that is required to be sent out of the hospital.

In my defence , I was informed about it after the ship has sailed

Let me just point out , it’s a monitoring investigation .