ive realized
no one has ever wanted me. everyone has been stuck with me. i got pregnant the first time, so he felt like he had to marry me. same with the second. its all been obligations and what society says/wants/does. no one has ever been excited to propose to me, or has been elated that im pregnant. its always been oops im pregnant. not weβre pregnant.
its one of the emptiest feelings ive had. i think i will honestly be alone forever.
















