kidult

i wish you kinder, softer days that put your heart at ease

you don’t have to wait for your life to start. you don’t have to wait until you’re at your best to enjoy things. every day you’re growing and changing and experiencing things, and every day that’s part of the journey.

One of the most dangerous things in the world is not being able to say no to people because you don't want to upset them or dissapoint them. This will completely ruin your life in every way possible, at work, in your private life, your sex life and your friendships. It's a way of removing your own consent in your own decisions and go against your wishes, it is always a crime against yourself. Let yourself have a say. Upsetting people is better than traumatizing yourself.

i want to be loved like the women i read about. like i’m the person they would do anything for. the person they look for in everyone else and everywhere they go because they can’t get her out of their heads. the person their entire being burns for. the person they are patient with, even when she’s rambling, being emotional or sick. the person they go out of their way for, over and over again, because it’s her. the person they love. the person they… love and keep loving.

it’s ok to feel sadness, anger and unhappiness. i know a lot of people make it seem as though optimism and positivity are the only ways to get through life but that’s not true. you can’t always feel happy. sadness is normal. anger is normal. your emotions are valid. you do not have to supress your emotions so you can be positive. let out your emotions. feel your feelings. although it is important to grow from your emotions, that doesn’t mean you must be positive all the time. it’s unrealistic.

it’s okay to depend on others. it’s okay to need or want help. it’s okay to let people add to your life. it’s all okay and good - for the small things and the big things. you don’t have to do it alone. you don’t have to be alone. there is nothing wrong about you. you are doing nothing wrong. 

Its okay if you're not who you thought you would be, take all the time to grieve the person you tried so hard to become when you wanted to better yourself and learn from your past mistakes. But its also okay to just love the person you are now and learn to get to know that person better. There is no shame in being who you are, even if you still have a lot to learn. You don't always have to upgrade yourself, sometimes there is peace in appreciating who you are and what you have right now.

ai weiwei: never sorry

healing is hard but it’s worth it. you’re brave and good; you deserve the healing you’ve set your mind to achieving

There is a place for me, people who will connect with me, more healing to do, peace to be found, cats to be petted and huge oceans to see. I will be comfortable, I will be at peace, I will get to build a life that makes me content and where I feel safe. I am starting to work on making the life I want become the life I have. I won't have to suffer through life. I can go through it with a smile of confidence, comfort and hope.

please know you are doing your best. if you feel like you’re struggling, like you’re not doing enough, not being enough, not getting anywhere. if you feel unhappy, unmotivated, unproductive.  it’s hard. and that is ok. you are doing your best. it’ll look different to what everyone else is doing but that doesn’t matter. you are doing amazing because you are being you.