Saudade

I shouldn't be thinking about ending my life before it even starts.

I love you all. Every time I feel alone or things get bad, I'm able to come back to Refretable and see that I'm not the only one going through it. I love the positive messages you send me and I enjoy talking about my problems and being a place where you can talk about yours. My messages are always open if you'd like to vent. Since music helps me get through the day,I've made a few playlists of different genres on SoundCloud linked in my bio for you. I hope you enjoy 🖤

The Town Without Me by Kayo Hinazuki:
When I get bigger, big enough to go somewhere by myself,I want to go to a land that’s far way.I want to go to a faraway island.I want to go to an island that has no people.I want to go to an island that has no pain or sadness.On that island, I can climb a tree when I want to climb, swim in the sea when I want to swim, and sleep when I want to sleep.When I think about the town without me, I feel a sense of relief.I want to go far, far away.

There is so much pain,and I don't know how to not notice it. It never stops.

I'm exhausted trying to be stronger than I feel

Ever since you're gone...

One day,I hope you have the courage to run away from everything that makes you miserable

"Her eyes reminded me of tinted windows,she could see out,but we couldn't see in.

"I don't know why everybody hates me so much. But,maybe I do-because now I hate me too."

A smile is all you'll see

Don't get attached to moments. Good or bad,they all pass

The point is,there's no place for me

"She still loves me"