js real number one fan

i guess its time i made this.

yes, its me, redhotj, the person who has been spewing transphobic bullshit in the drdt fandom the past week and had overall been ridiculous and saying stuff that was weird at best and outright harmful at worst so its time i apologised. and no, i dont want anyone trying to defend my actions (not that you would, ive rightfully been called out)

im sorry to anyone i had sent threats too. i plan to send in a proper apology to the main person who i downright sent rape threats too (i don't know what i was thinking, that was disgusting.) and had overall been a huge asshole too as well.

im really sorry for my offensive tier lists, such as the n word tier list and the "who is transphobic" tier list. i did the former at the time because i thought it was funny but seeing as im not black, i shouldn't have been making that list (and it later came to my attention that charles is latin, not black, so i have no idea why i put him in "can say the word").

im really sorry to all the transphobic bullshit ive been spouting. im still trying to understand trans people now and ive been overreacting and being downright hurtful. especially towards nonbinary people. im not going to defend myself or try to explain myself because why i did it doesn't matter. i hurt people. end of. what i said is inexcusable and i did actual damage to real people who have lives.

im sorry for completely misunderstanding the cast and not putting my biases aside when making posts. i dont know why i thought eden, the nicest character to ever character, would be anywhere close to what i used to be. i guess i just wanted to be spiteful.

like i said before, im not deleting any of the posts i made. not because i dont regret them, but because i dont want to sweep what i did under the rug and pretend it never happened. because it did, and people got hurt because of me.

im sorry for everything. i truly am. i dont expect forgiveness and its okay if you don't forgive me for what i did, but i am willing to learn and change. if there is anything i can do, let me know.

apart from killing myself because... id rather not sorry

are you still racist and transphobic or not. im not tryna be wird, just dont know what to think abt u rn. again sorry just want to know.

Your an amazing person even if your opinion on things arent what most agree with. Everyone is intitled to their own opinions and they should be respected. This whole situration just got out of hand and I feel things were said on both sides, things that never should have been said.

I think you apologizing is admirable most people dont have the guts to admit when they are wrong. I may not agree with what was said on both sides but I think you taking the step to try and make it right is respectable.

Have a great day!

my wife died yesterday. i dont know what to do anymore