34. Recovering Everyday

Although it has been a strange 24 hours, starting with a police chase into my townhome complex at two in the morning, getting three hours of sleep, and getting a flat tire from a nail, I have a couple of wins!

The AAA man who helped me put on my spare was incredibly kind and, when I asked him where to put the jack so I could do it myself next time, he was very patient and showed me. I also told him that I am replacing the serpentine belt in my car, and he was super kind to check the belt and let me know if I could replace it myself (and I am!). Having a problem with my car would have sent me into OCD spiral but I was able to stay cool, calm, and collected 😎

I was able to do a barbell RDL with 125 lbs 🦵 that’s not terrible for getting three hours of sleep and not eating lunch! (I’m not proud of the sleep or the not eating, but the strength training)

Over the last four months, I have been awful at getting back to people. I’ve just been incredibly burnt out and don’t have the mental energy or emotional capacity to engage in small talk. I finally got my unread text messages down from 250 to ZERO! I can’t tell you the last time I had all of my text messages read!

I’m making a lot of progress! Although my new diagnosis of ADHD and OCD is not ideal, it’s been life-changing to have a therapist who actually works on the things that affect me day-to-day. Additionally, knowing these diagnoses has really helped me do research to understand my brain better and be able to recognize when I’m falling into an OCD pattern.