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There is a kind of pain that teaches you to stop knocking on closed doors.

I lost parts of myself trying to be understood by the wrong hearts.

I hate talking to someone and realising what a lonely, pathetic life I’m living

I feel like being constantly, not necessarily ignored but, never approached/interacted with is doing tonnes more damage to my psyche than if I was actively picked on or something. People just never talk to me and I don’t know if it’s my fault or theirs or God’s

chronic loneliness is so weird I wish it wasn’t intrinsically like impossible to talk about lol

Times like these make me realize just how friendless amd single i am lol /neg

I don't know when this near lifelong sense of profound loneliness and estrangement will leave me. When will I have even just one friend that I can be close to? Have conversations with? Sit with? Feel safe and welcome with? Just one person to make this empty void more bearable. When will I be able to form normal human connections?

i'm struggling with the loneliness and the fact that there hasn't been a single day without it since i was 13.

I bet it feels good as fuck to have someone real to talk to and maybe even touch you gently

I can’t believe that nothing has changed. How does anyone deal with chronic loneliness without using distractions. Or how to use the distractions effectively because once I know I’m doing something to avoid feeling lonely, it because moot.

I need to be held... but like in a way that makes my heart stop hurting.