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In the realm of behavior, one of the best interventions for unworthiness is to just act worthy. Start to move like you’re worthy and speak like you’re worthy. And when you encounter a situation that reflects anything other than that you are here to be good and well, say no to it. Not with words—I deserve better!—though words may certainly be involved. But with actions—walk away, block a number, leave a job. Do any action that directly states “I deserve better and will have it.” It is not enough to say that you deserve better, you have to prove it. Even if you don’t believe it all the way. Act like you do, and see what happens. Sometimes, to do a behavior that you don’t feel like doing is like doing magic. Try it.

“The hardest thing about moving forward is leaving something behind - and usually it’s a part of ourselves.”

“Just because you took longer than others doesn’t mean you failed. Remember that.”

“I want to live. I want to come to life again.”

The thoughts in my head are sometimes so clear and so sharp and my feelings so deep, but writing about them comes hard. The main difficulty, I think, is a sense of shame. So many inhibitions, so much fear of letting go, of allowing things to pour out of me, and yet that is what I must do if I am ever to give my life a reasonable and satisfactory purpose.