I'm so desperate 😂

People ask if I'm afraid of dying

Yes I'm afraid,

I'm afraid because I don't know anything

I don't know what's on the other side

But the biggest thing I'm afraid of,

Is living

Of waking up every morning as empty as this bed

Afraid of knowing that I can never feel better

I'm afraid of going through the day,

feeling as if I'm alone

As if everything is out of my reach

But knowing that everyone is waiting for me

So yeah, I'm afraid of dying

Just like everyone else

But I fear of dying by my own hands

Just to avoid living another day

With nothing but pain

And the urges to make everything go away

So the. i ask myself,

"Am I really afraid of dying?"

And the voices in my head only give

One answer,

I have no artistic talent what so ever but I am trying to get images of my OCs but I have like zero money for commissions.

So would somebody be interested in drawing two of my female OCs out of pure boredom?

Newest Idea for Billdip Fanfic.

Mason 'Dipper' Pines is a member of the royal family of sirens who are connected to olden magic. They are currently having a war with another breed of siren, who depend on violence and chaos. Dipper is the last siren of his bloodline that has any connection to magic.

The two kingdoms are in the middle of a war to expand their territory. Dippers kingdom is located in the Pacific ocean located near California. Bill's kingdom is in the Atlantic Ocean near Alaska.

Confrontation comes to Dippers door step and it is up to him and his magic to protect his family. Unknowingly he peaked Bill's interest during the fight and the two began an unlikely friendship which turns into something more.

Gearsntea_illustrations

Or human art