unloved

there are still movies to be watched, new songs to be listened to, books to be read, unexplored places to be discovered, conversations to be had, people to be met. there are still countless things for you, and they’re just waiting for you.

“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

the version of you from five years ago would be genuinely amazed by what you’ve handled since then. sit with that for a second

I promise you things will get so much better when you start processing people’s behavior as information rather than a verdict on your self-worth. If someone doesn’t text back, suddenly pulls away, whatever it may be, the solution isn’t to put on a tap dance for them and try to regain their approval. It’s not to crash out on them and try to force them to react a certain way. It’s just to take a step back, take a deep breath, and assess what this tells you. What’s this saying about them? What’s this saying about you??

Reminder for tonight: you are allowed to be a work in progress and a masterpiece at the same time. Growth doesn't cancel out worth. You don't have to finish becoming who you're meant to be before you're allowed to be proud of how far you've come.

In another universe, I wouldn’t have let it get this far. I would have realized my worth a long time ago and not spent years of my life thinking about you. I would have stopped talking to you after the first sign of disrespect.

At the end of the day, you can’t delay joy until life looks a certain way. You deserve to enjoy your life now.

and then suddenly everything worked out in your favor.

everything is changing and maybe that’s okay

as you get older you realise that anything that helps you stop feeling stuck is welcome even if it hurts at first