𝒟𝒶𝓅𝒽𝓃𝑒

The truth is that I’m not someone that is easy to box into digestible labels. I’m in many ways a contradiction of things. My life path has exposed me to a multitude of experiences and perspectives that have shaped me into a multilayered and complex being. This is something that I regard as a strength, not a weakness. To be able to move through the world as someone that has a lot of to share with others and enrich their lives in the process is a huge honour, even if it means not easily fitting in with the crowds at times.

Pay close attention to the people who try to make you feel insecure about the effort you put towards presenting yourself in a curated and intentional manner. Whether it be your social media profiles, the way you dress and carry yourself, how you communicate, or simply who you allow yourself to be seen with. When you cultivate a presence and aura that is refined and polished, you will awaken the insecurities in many people who refuse to do the work out of a lack of belief in themselves, or simply outright laziness, and for them, being envious is inevitably the path of least resistance.

One of the most effective ways to deal with FOMO is realizing that the highlight reals of other people’s lives aren’t necessarily going to be yours if you traded places with them.

I pray that one day you’ll wake up and realize you’re no longer at war with yourself.

Realizing I thrive when I’m around people who mirror back to me my lifestyle, hobbies, ambitions, education, and even aesthetic has been one of the most freeing experience I’ve had lately. Being mindful of the places you frequent is key to be in close proximity with your peers.

Some of you are not introverted, you’ve just been forced to shrink yourself and second-guess your existence in the context of groups, forcing you into isolation, social anxiety, and a visceral rejection of the very thing that ignites your soul: meaningful relations with other human beings.

There are parts of you that will only come alive around the right people and circumstances. Parts that you had no idea existed within your personality and that can give you a lot of clarity as to the things you truly want out of life and reshuffle what matters most to you.

6 years ago I lost my spark and went through immeasurable hardship and trauma trying to return to the version of me who used to command rooms with her aura alone and had unwavering faith in God and her own abilities to reach even her wildest dreams. There were many moments where all I wanted was to give up and where I didn’t see any light at the end of the tunnel. Moments that allowed fear and desperation to torment me to no end.