freak of nature

i think im really beginning to understand how mac feels. like i get it. im so sorry if i wver judged u mac its rough out here

finally losing my battle against mental illness and falling into a life of insanity and hysteria (writing macdennis character study fanfiction)

hello all took some time away to stay humble and process the psychological effects of fame (my macdennis rantings got 100 notes and im a little giddy about it)

ive read a lot of interesting macdennis meta analysis post season 16 and i think the one consistent thing im seeing between all of them that i vehemently disagree with is the idea that dennis is innocent when it comes to macs obsession/insistence in pursuing him. because. its quite literally the opposite imo ??? throughout the show we see dennis manipulate mac and actively damage his self image and confidence simply to exert control and get whatever petty bullshit he wants that day (e.x. ass kickers united). slowly but surely we see mac get more and more dependent on dennis' praise and approval BECAUSE dennis has purposefully made him so dependent on it by breaking him down and building him back up over and over again. this worked for dennis while mac was "straight" because now he had a best friend who was virtually an obedient manservant whenever needed, no strings attached. but, when mac comes out, it no longer works for him. now mac realizes that that blind devotion and reverence hes had for dennis for years is actually plain and simple attraction (mixed with a ton of manipulation and old man yaoi mind poison) and now its not just a give and take relationship. mac now also wants something, and hes gonna try and get it by using the one tactic hes been TAUGHT will make dennis happy and hopefully love him back: blind devotion and servitude. admittedly he's not going about it in a healthy or normal way whatsoever and my empathy for him kinda drops off at recognizing hes been manipulated and that's WHY hes doing the things he does, but it still needs to be recognized that mac isn't just acting the way he is cluelessly and without reason. this is what hes been TAUGHT, but now that there's implications attached to the actions dennis no longer has the control that he had before, thus the beginning of rejecting the servitude instead of instigating it.

just watched 3 episodes of heartstoppers i need to read some abusive codependent macdennis fanfiction QUICKLY or im ending it all

i need to be dennis reynolds now or i will do things that will change the fabric of history forever

dennis doesn't think that any of his friends would be there for him if he wasn't useful or needed help. if you even care.

dennis reynolds is soooo the smiths coded its actually making me sick .i think im forming a blood clot in my brain that will soon kill me if i continuously reread the lyrics of how soon is now? and think about how much it relates to his developments in season 16.

ive come to the conclusion that people who didn't like dtamhd and thought it was "surface level" and didn't develop dennis as a character need to be behind bars. perhaps even put on a separate island away from intelligent society for the greater good of humanity.