Secrets Of My Heart

If I could describe your smile, I'd say it's the kiss of sunlight. It floods the coldest, darkest night with a bright light. If i could describe your voice, I'd liken it to the ocean, Wave after wave rolling in, soothing me like a magic potion. If I could describe your smell, I'd say it's the smell of serenity, To my soul, it is sweet, aromatic therapy. If I could describe your touch I'd tell you it is a glowing ember, warm and inviting, your arms are strong and yet tender. If I could describe the way I feel about you, I'd say I love you. With every fiber in my being, I love you. Trying to describe you is impossible 6.5.16

I love the way sunsets fade into the evening sky, I love cities and how they never sleep, I love how the rain sounds like a gentle lullaby. I love full moons and how they light up the dark night sky And gazing up at the bright shining stars. I love watching clouds in the sky slowly pass me by. But most of all, I love you. Out of all these things I love you the most. I love you most 5.4.16

It's 12 a.m. and I'm wearing your shorts and laying in bed Thinking about how I could get used to this. Can't get this smile off my lips as visions of us dance in my head, I think I'm falling in love with you. I'm free falling through the air and I forgot a parachute It's going to hurt when I collide with the ground, There's nothing to soften the blow, and these feelings have taken root. I know I'm falling in love with you. My heart is singing but my head is sounding off alarm bells. I swore I wouldn't let myself fall again. But here I am, completely mesmerised, I'm caught under your spell. I know I've fallen in love with you. Falling in love 2.16.16

Hello, is anybody out there? Feels like I'm all alone. This weight is becoming more than I can bear I'm stuck in a war zone. My mind is my own worst enemy It never lets me be. I try to fight off these thoughts and break free I struggle endlessly. Hello, can anybody hear me? The darkness closes in. I can't hold on much longer, can't you see, This pain's about to win. I'm crying out, I can't do this on my own. I need someone To help me carry on, we're not meant to be alone. Hello....is anybody out there? Can anybody hear me? Feels like I'm all alone. Hello. 12.17.15 Swallowed by darkness. . . .

You chew people up just to spit them out You act so innocent but I know what you're about. You're spewing out venom but I'll cut you down. If you're not careful, I'll burn you to the ground! You're so toxic! I'll rip your throat out with my teeth and leave you to bleed out on the pavement beneath. You're so toxic! I am not a pawn and I won't play your little game. Your time is running out and you have no one else to blame! You seem to think the world's your own puppet show Lining your puppets all up in a row. Did you think I'd just lie down on the ground Put a chain on my neck, let you pull me around? I'll rise out of this bloody mess And I'll use your back as a stepping stone to success You made your bed out of lies, Now I'll light them on fire, watch you go down in flames! You're so toxic! 7.26.15 Toxic. . . . I was a little angry when I wrote this....

It's been two years Since I faced my biggest fear And watched you disappear. And even though You left me so long ago These memories won't go. I've tried to flee From all your ghosts' company But they won't let me be. A phantom limb, I guess I'll just live with them At least they don't condemn. 6.12.15 Your ghosts. . .

You are a hot cup of tea on a cold winter day, You're the gentle glow from the milky way. You are a strong oak tree, standing firm against life's storms, A ray of light in its purest of forms. You are a safe harbor amidst the vast, raging seas You are the soft kiss of a summer breeze. You are a mountain in all its grandeur and might, You are a warm sweater that fits just right. You feel like home to me. 1.31.16 Who you are....

They say that love is electric, reckless, intoxicating. It's full of risk, its complicating. But, to me, love is safety. Love is being held by strong yet gentle arms that pull you close, Through all of life's joys and bitter throes. To me, love is safety. Love is building each other up to be the best both can be, And wading through each other's debris. To me, love is safety. 2.1.16 To me love is safety....

Do I like you Or do I just like the thought of you? Strong, steady, constant. You're a lighthouse, firm and sustaining, I am the ocean, unpredictable, dark, ever changing. Do I like you Or do I just like the idea of you? Quiet, thoughtful, wise. Your warm, dark eyes meet mine of flashing green, But your soul is a shining star and mine is a dark ravine. Do I dare like you Or do I just like the thought of you? 1.3.16 You're a lighthouse, I am the ocean I haven't written in forever....just can't seem to find the words anymore. Guess that's what happens when you're no longer pining over lost love or in love. Finally jotted down some rubbish today.

I'm on the bathroom floor, Crying over old wounds that just won't heal. And you're in your bed, sleeping soundly with her in your arms. Seems funny that I used to think that'd be me some day, But now I'm the one drinking my sorrows away And you're the one living in the moment. March 19th, 2015

You lost him. The moment slipped away and you lost him. He's gone and he's not coming back. So, stop pining away and crying your eyes out. Stop walking around listlessly, with empty eyes and a wilting heart and just accept it. What you two had was amazing; What you two had could have been beautiful.... but now it's drifted away. That ship has sailed far away, never to return. But, it's not all bad. Lost opportunities prove to be rich soil for roots to grow. You can learn from your loss. So, move on. Next time, you will know not to waste your time on doubt's and what if's. Now you know not to hesitate, but to seize the opportunity in both hands and follow where it leads. Next time, fear won't make your decisions for you, you'll let love be the compass. And maybe, just maybe, next time won't be an 'almost', but instead, a 'forever'. C.B.S 5.17.15

Your Gentle words Assured me of Your forever consistent stay. Yet, when it came down To making a choice, you chose To walk away from me with her. You were the last person I've ever trusted Fully and you may very well be the last. You shattered every ounce of trust I had that day. C.B.S. 1.11.15 You made promises only to break them....