ARRA KARAMINA

Heyheyyy Last Thursday we ate steak for lunch!!!

Haihaaaaaai Aaaaaa gue seneng banget! So let me share something to you gaiiiisss!!!

6 days ago... We went to jogja. Lebih tepatnya SA26.

Nonono 1 months ago...gue deket sama seseorang. Yeah he's on that picts with me.

2 weeks ago I told him that I love him. I dont know why i have that feelings. Sooo we're a besties actually... And he said he loved me too! Oh god I don't know why I'm kinda shock and hahaha ok this is funny I can't even sleep because I'm soooo happy. I can't stop smiling.

And then, 6 days ago we went on a field trip to jogja for 4 days... And... Miracle happens... Butttt The night before he and I decided to take a walk at night(yea we stayed in a village called pentingsari) Im so happy that he said he will pick me up but unfortunately rainhard is coming so..:( ya you know.

We don't meet often in there so we only talked in whatsapp.

And the nextday.. We went to UNY and UGM. He said that we have to take a pict in there. I'm so happy because we took a pict for the second time...after took a pict in da crazy Jakarta traffic when we want to go to sency. But we 're havin fun.

And...we went to Borobudur temple ok this is crazy I think I love this temple so much I don't know hahahaha!!!

We walking together to borobudur, having fun and took a pictures and...he ask me to be his girlfriend. Im freezing don't know what to do I'm a lil bit shock nononono. I'M SHOCK! My heartbeats goes faster...seriously.... And then the rain is come we run through the downstairs and finally I said YES OF COURSE.

And we rent an umbrella but deboy disturbing us ok thats kinda annoying.

I dont know.. December bring happiness to many people.. Thank god for letting me know him. Accept me the way I am, thankyou for understand me, thankyou for being such a nice bestfriend. After being dumped twice...now I know how it feels.

I even crying at my friends house because he said that he want to hangout with me because I'm kinda messed up that day, not such in a good mood and felt angry. Thankyou for always be there. I feel honoured.

hey.

It's been a looong time. gue tau in the last post gue nulis sesuatu yang bisa membuat gue moveon, dan juga membuat gue seneng banget.

yeah.

tapi cowok itu, alias si A sama aja :( he dumped me too. i don't know why. 2 kali diginiin, itu sakit banget. gue sayang banget sama si A even though he's not my boyf.

" ara udah terlupakan dalam hidup gue " itu yang dia bilang ketemen gue

sebenernya,

gue belom bisa moveon walau udah ga sayang tapi gue masih suka. gue gatau kalo dia tau soal ini respon dia bakal gimana,

btw,

i feel sad i d k why

pengen nangisss :"

besok seleksi ekonomi dan dadakan. wtf?

Yeppp! 

im so happy tonight! ketawa ketiwi sendiri nulis ini. Thank god.... semoga gue moveon ke orang yang bener. Amin ya Allah

We already bbm ing sekitar 4 hari. today's very special night haha

And yep we finally bilang suka each other haha and suddenly he ask me "ra boleh nanya ga?" and then "boleeh. lo kalo mau nanya ya nanya aja" haha yeah he said"Ra gue sayang sama lo!! haha"

seperti ada fireworks!!!

Alhamdulillah....even though ya belom official im so happy lah ya

Hey! Back to school again wufff

Anyway...

I just got dumped and that rly make me hurt. he just treat me like shit i rly hate him but what can i do? 

i found someone bette than him. His name is.....A

We already know each other, kadang nyapa juga^^

and then...one day my bbm friend promote him. and ya gue add~

besoknya

dia bilang, "Kita udah contactan niiihh ko kita ga bbman? haha" yea i d k itu joke or not but yea gue sama dia emg suka bercanda

and then... about 2 weeks later we starting bbman haha, yaa baru berjalan 3 hari emang but we sering kode mengkode each other lol

i dont know i just feel like, i like him, he's really nice. even though he is not handsome but he can make me smile. 

Yeah, if you read my previous post i'm having a hard time right now T_T im so pathetic :( 

I can't be like this anymore, i should have moving on to someone who really LOVE me. because...Love is not something like you can buy it in grocery stores

DICAMPAKKAN//Dumped.

Bukanlah suatu hal yang mudah dilupakan rasa sakitnya, i actually never feeling selebay ini or se dramatic ini. jadi ya.... i should share it?

for the boys who ::

1. YANG NGERASA GANTENG

Go fuck yourself seriously.

2. YANG NGERASA PENYAYANG TAPI DOYANG LIRIK

What do you want deh? situ ok?

3. YANG NGAJAK SERIUS BUT CAN'T FORGET HIS PAST

Duh...bersihin dulu deh otaklo.

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So...

Cewek ini bener-bener udah in love banget then look what he's doing with her heart? lo pikir hati maenan?

i actually...i dont like this words "Cowok ga mainan barbie" yeah i hate that words...

but that's the fact. or you....a ladyboy. i dont know. MAYBE YOU ARE?

Perasaan bukanlah sesuatu yang bisa dimainin. just...give you and advice

kalo diginiin, or...yea you get dumped...

1. CARI YANG BARU! YANG SAYANG SAMA LO

Q : tapi kan ga semuanya cowok baik-baik

A : Liat lo nya dulu deh, cowok kaya gimana yang menurut lo baik? kalo demen anak punk sih yah...emang lo nya ga bener

2. CARI YANG NYAMAN

Q : tapi kan kadang-kadang cowo yang kaya gini overprotective

A : lo nya...genit kali? kasih pengertian lah..kalo yang kaya gitu berarti dia belum bisa dipercaya. buat cowok lo percaya kalo lo emang ga perlu dikhawatirin

3. CARI YANG BISA MEMBAWA LO KEJALAN YANG LURUS

Q : gue ga suka cowok alim...nanti gamau ngumbar kalo kita pacaran

A : lah? lo maunya dia ngumbar-ngumbar kemesraan gitu? ga harus alim, dia bisa membimbing lu ke jalan yang bener. YA GA PERLU GUA JELASIN KAN.

Sekian dan terimakasih, jangan langsung percaya kalo cowok mau ngajak lo serius. ya gatau sih kalo lo emang udah kebelet nikah sono deh^^

the reason why...gue namain judulnya itu soalnya gue akhir-akhir ini suka dengerin lagu ini. BEST TRACK BUAT GALAU LAH

The road to me - Sung Si Kyung

Trap - Henry

Growl - EXO

" You're walking right behind me, lost in other thoughts,

getting butterflies in my stomatch,

I look at you sneakily and put you in my heart,

It must be LOVE, i can't explain it in other words,

This road that we're walking together

in order not to end up just a memory again

i'll watch over you just like today

The words, I LOVE YOU , i should've wit a little more

Now how should i express my feelings?

even if everything changes, with this hear i'll love you

  Is it still hard to accept me?

Don't force yourself to forget the person who left you

I'll wait until then...

The words "I love you" i should've saved it

  Can you love me as i approached you?

Now please...come to me, your heart leaning on me

even if it isn't love, It's all right

because i can still see you, 

it's all right, because i love you "

- The road to me by Sung Si Kyung

Hi guys. so here's the story.

recently, because of this 'story' i felt like sad and yep always GALAU.

So there's a person just called him P. no...not mr.P 

he's asking a girl to have a serious relationship with him but now...he doesn't even confession his feeling to her and kiss her. KISS WITHOUT A RELATIONSHIP WTF

she's crying all day long.

My day is just messed up recently..

I feel like terrorist...

I feel like a swindler :(

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gue harus mengganti uang sebesar 3 juta.

Uang segitu bukan uang yang kecil tentunya... tapi kenapa harus tertimpa ke gue? ini masalah buku kenangan... well... gue adalah panitianya. but panitia nya cuma 3 orang. i think? sisanya cabutan..

"The one who" bertanggung jawab atas percetakan adalah guru sd gue. sebut aja F.

Dia main minjemin uang 3 juta aja buat percetakan ini...

50% anak angkatan gue gamau beli buku tahunan...well sebut aja BUTA.

Otomatis uangnya kurang dong?

and si F ini gamautau gimana caranya gue harus mengganti uang itu. udah setahun emang itu uang belom kelar...

sadly...

gue melibatkan orang tersayang gue buat bantu gue. well.. he wont eat then. if u kno what i mean.... dia menyisihkan uang jajannya more than i am. mungkin gue cuma 5-10rb. but dia bisa 30rb dia harus naik kendaraan umum/ beli bensin. i can imagine how hungry he is. sorry honey :(

gue mencoba untuk berdagang dan meminta pertolongan.

i even menjadi calo untuk tiket javajazz 2013. i actually got it for free... i even minta keuntungan ke nyokap. im sorry... gue mendapatkan keuntungan sekitar 1 juta. dan gue meminta 500ribu dengan alasan modal dagang gue buat onlineshop...actually buat nutupin biaya tanggungan gue.

gue mencoba dagang onlineshop yang keuntungannya ga seberapa... gue jualan berdua with someone who i trusted the most. 

15.000/2 jadi 7500. krg lebih itu keuntungan gue dr per pc barang yang gue jual. 

itu kurang. kurang banget.

gue ga berani nyentuh uang hasil dagang gue buat kepentingan lain.. but if i want to hangout with my friends.. i asking my mom for money. im really sorry mom..

you know how hard it is?

si F udah nagih2 buat bayar anaknya sekolah. im really sorry pak... im trying.

gue selalu minta undur...undur...

inikah sulitnya mencari uang?

kemana sahabat yang ada didalam suka dan duka?

gue selalu ingin minta pertolongan...

i know... lo lo pada yg udah pd bayar mungkin ngerasa ga adil. but...can you see what i feel right now.

dia yang udah ikut proses dari awal... ga ada yang mau bayar.

can u imagine? jadi gue gimana rasanya? menanggung 3 juta sendirian??

guys... seriously? im tired. im trying not to eat. but if i do that.. that will kill myself.

apa gue yang harus bertanggung jawab?

i always hiding this feel...this pain.

gue gamau ngemis.

but sometimes, i have to.

i even minta temen gue yang baru gue kenal untuk kerjaan. tapi gue tau gue ga bakal punya waktu buat itu. salah satu cara ialah eat or not.

dibalik sifat periang gue.. gue nyimpen perasaan takut.

gue selalu mikirin gimana caranya bayar itu uang 3 juta.

gue berharap ada yang sadar gue gimana mikirin hak si F sbg manusia.

gue berharap semua yang gue kenal...yang emang terlibat disini mikirin apa yang gue rasa.

gue ga akan mencuri.

apapun yang terjadi.

walau sometimes ada perasaan yang bilang gue harus ngelakuin hal itu, gue tau dampaknya bakal sama aja.

malah akan dipersulit.

apa yang harus gue lakuin?

kalau bunuh diri ga dosa, i've done it in days ago.

trying to care with someone around you. im your partner.

A-YO!!!! Mau ngeshare soal U-kiss showcase kemaren! yaaaa~ many minus than plus :( sorry u-kiss :(

Ini bukan salah U-Kiss! mereka salah bertemu promotor. i think?

Ini dia beberapa plus minus nya.

(-) 

Satpamnya galak-galak

Paramedik (sejenis pmr) genit parah! (they even ask me about my bb pin!)

Security yang bertugas ngegeledah tas. nah ini nih....mereka cuman ngeliat doang ngecekin gue bawa makanan/gak. 

ga ketat pemeriksaan, yg bawa dslr lolos!

lagi konser, diadain penggeledahan? seriously? tadi kemana aja? :)

daaaan, menurut survey. dari tweet para KissmeOppa ticket holder, mereka kecewa. Haha, you know why? Kue lapis dan aqua gelas? 

apalagi...para pemegang kissme hi5&fansign. temen gue ada yang kissme hi5, you know what? mereka ga hi5. ga boleh bersalaman kalo u-kiss ga nyodorin tangan duluan....errrrr????? where's their benefit??

bakalan ada collaboration with s4. where is it? 

masuk kevenue, ngaret?

2 jam konser? GAPUAS!!!

(+)

gue pemegang tribun silver, and dipindah ke festival karena festival terlalu kosong.

ngeliat u-kiss lebih deket!<3

(?)

apa perasaan mereka melihat konser yang ga terlalu rame ini ya? :( U-kiss<3333

story.

(1) Gue salah satu penonton yang membawa dslr. awalnya ga ketawan, and then... pas lagi dikonser salah satu security nyolek "mau ikut saya gak?" gue tau pasti kamera gue mau diambil, dan dia blg "mana baterenya?" dan gue langsung ngasih batere gue, dia bilang "catet nomor saya, sehabis konser samper saya ambil batere kamu" dan gue blg "hp saya mati pak, maaf ya pak" terus dia blg "yaudah nanti cari saya, nama saya *beep*" terus gue blg "yaudah pak saya catet nomer bapak" *nyari-nyari spidol* dan dia blg "yaudah ini saya balikin, sekali lagi foto kamera kamu saya ambil"

(2) Banyak ahjumma2 dr jepang >.<

(3) ini dia yang menarik....

Jadi gue sama temen gue mau foto di banner ukiss gede (semacam photobooth) pas gue nengok keatas, tiba2 ada cowok kaya bule gitu dr bawah dadah-dadah ke gue sama temen gue. gue bilang "dih tuh anak songong banget dadah-dadah" karena gue kira dia itu kls KMoppa yang mau dinner. terus temen gue teriak "DONGHOOOOOO" dan gue sontak langsung ngeh! ITU DONGHO! temen gue langsung meluk gue dan nangis.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

DONGHO CUMA NGEH KE GUE DAN TEMEN GUE. DAN SAAT ITU YANG NGEH JUGA CUMAN GUE DAN TEMEN GUE BAHWA ITU DONGHO!!!!!

YANG LAINNYA MALAH KEBINGUNGAN!

PLIS.

Post ini ga offensive ya, sebagai penonton boleh kan ngeshare? mungkin untuk post yang minus (kayak pemegang tiket kmoppa&fansign,hi5) gue ga terlalu akurat.. tp itu yang mereka blg&tweet.

selama ga menyebarkan nama yang jelek, it'll be ok.

Sabtu 20 April 2013

Gue, fany, fanissa dan sofia ke UI (Universitas Indonesia) buat dateng ke event KCD atau Korean Culture day. Here's the pict of us!

When your boyfriend get mad at you.. :( 

When you are telling him something and then it's just a joke but he got very very angry... because he's not in a good mood...

I'm sorry, but it's painful to hear that 'words' from you

if you want our relationship end.. please..don't end this relationship with that kind of expression...

i will fulfill what you want...

i need you.