RandomFijianGirl

So I arrive back HOME. Keep myself from attending the party scene for around a week, because it doesn't look so good, to go out PARTYING right after arriving. 

So the first day I end up clubbing, my friend loses her phone, and she loses mine as well. She actually lost mine, by losing her whole bag and not remembering where she left any of it because she was so out of it. 

Last night was a night to remember. So much shit happened I can't even begin to explain. 

I think I just need time off to recover from all that drinking and partying.

R.I.P S3

31/08/2012-12/06/2014

Having my bottle of juice being discarded into the classroom sink, because the kindergarten had a policy that stated kids could only drink water. That was the first and last time I attended that kindergarten.

Al Green - How Can You Mend a Broken Heart Cover by Ironmanny and Lazy J <3

First of All!

Happy New Year

Supposedly this new year, meant changing and becoming a better person.

Closer to God. 

But, I fell into drinking like a fool and ending up sleeping with this guy who I use to like ages ago. He has a girfriend -.-

In my defense, I was told they broke up by one of my stupid "modri" friend.

Anyways so, they are still together.

I'm just ashamed I even slept with him in the first place with no protection. So, now I'm worried I'm probably going to get pregnant "OH SHIT".

That is why I hate drinking. Seriously it has done no Good for me at all!

*What drinking has done for me in the past 3 years.

1) meet my ex-bf

2) lose my virginity to my ex-bf (not on the same night as 1).

3) slept with my ex-bf (during the time that we had supposedly broken up)

4) Brought me closer to the "drug life" (which I been staying a way from at the moment --> best decision i've made <--

5) slept with the guy I used to like (who has a gf).

So, I'm basically the person I've been trying not to be.

A complete SLUT

So, thanks to this New Year, I have recently come to the realization that my journey with alcohol must come to an end. But slowly...because NOTHING that ends instantly stays done...it always creeps its way back.

So taking it slow! Till it's done for good.

Yes, I do listen to songs that have bad words in them.

I understand some people may refer to them as music of the devil.

I do swear every now and then and I'm not proud of it.

I have made my mistakes, and I do continue making mistakes,

I repent, ask for Gods forgiveness for my sins

and that is the most I can do, I can change back time, although i am

aware that I need to control my urges to spit out obscene diction. It's not 

an easy task but I will try my best.

I believe that I will always remain a Christian. Devote my life to God, and

strengthen my relationship with him.

I'm taking it a step at a time.

People may criticize me, but I will not take that to heart, for it is not their

judgments I am worried about rather the judgement of our Savior God

Almighty.

It's ALREADY December :D Christmas is right around the corner! I can not wait! Being with family celebrating the day that our Lord Jesus Christ was born. 

One of my favorite Christian songs!

Lord I know I am not worthy of your love,

You are the Prince Of Peace, the Mighty God

I will love, adore and praise your name!

I've gone off track lately, and I know

that through it all you have always been there for me

guiding, protecting and watching over me throughout all the

constant mistakes I make in this life of mine that you have given me.

After every event in my life I know that one thing has stayed constant and never changine ==> YOUR LOVE <==

Jhene Aiko ft. Childish Gambino - Bed Peace

J.King - Talk About It (Cover)

This song is my jam at the moment...it's originally sung by Rod Stewart, but this version really hits me...Probably because of my ISLAND ROOTS.

Dear "Whoever the Fcuk is reading this"

        Yes, I did just switch the letters above.

If you're reading this, then you've gone past the point of thinking this page is useless since the "owner" who is OBVIOUSLY me won't properly say the "F" word. Although I do say it outloud but only in times of extreme anger [which I try to avoid, because "YOU WON'T LIKE ME WHEN I'M MAD"].

I just hope you enjoy reading my page!

N.B. This is my first post!