Another Strange Creature. I feel like I'm forcing it a bit at this point, but here we are.
This is Sheila!
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Another Strange Creature. I feel like I'm forcing it a bit at this point, but here we are.
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Thoughts up in the air
I sold a sticker on Redbubble! Of my own designs! WOW! Thank you, whoever you are! You've made my day!
So, yeah, today is Tuesday, not Monday. My mind was too much in the air yesterday. But I'm here today!
I'd like to say it's been another good week, but truth be told it was very meh, with the exception of Sunday. I went back to that same place I went to the previous week, this time for a brand new crochet club gathering. I've met some cool and interesting people and I really want to go back, whenever the next meeting will be. I really like that place and the people there. I'm considering going again this Friday. This time for a journaling thing. I don't know. Maybe I'll go, maybe I won't. I guess you'll find out next week!
I have started a new Strange Creature. Only need to color it now. So that's something else you can see next week.
I may be entering a new phase, a more social phase. Or maybe it's just wishful thinking. Only time will tell.
I'd love to have more to say, but I don't. My mind is still up in the air, can't settle down enough for more coherent thoughts, sorry. See you next week!
I sold a sticker on Redbubble! Of my own designs! WOW! Thank you, whoever you are! You've made my day!
So, yeah, today is Tuesday, not Monday. My mind was too much in the air yesterday. But I'm here today!
I'd like to say it's been another good week, but truth be told it was very meh, with the exception of Sunday. I went back to that same place I went to the previous week, this time for a brand new crochet club gathering. I've met some cool and interesting people and I really want to go back, whenever the next meeting will be. I really like that place and the people there. I'm considering going again this Friday. This time for a journaling thing. I don't know. Maybe I'll go, maybe I won't. I guess you'll find out next week!
I have started a new Strange Creature. Only need to color it now. So that's something else you can see next week.
I may be entering a new phase, a more social phase. Or maybe it's just wishful thinking. Only time will tell.
I'd love to have more to say, but I don't. My mind is still up in the air, can't settle down enough for more coherent thoughts, sorry. See you next week!
In high spirits
You know what? This was a good week! Isn't that great?
I made a new collage! I had the title The Cosmic Soup of Knowledge tucked away in my head for ages. In the end I called it just The Cosmic Soup, cause I wasn't able to fully realize my vison. But I still got a good collage out of it, so it's ok! Here! Look at it (again)!
I like it more now that it's been a few days and I've let go of the frustration of not being able to recreate what I had in my head.
And then.... AND THEN!! The next day I made another one of my Strange Creatures! And I'm writing that capitalized which means it's now an intentional name. It has become a series!
Meet Albert (again)! He's just a tiny little bit awkward, but a very reliable fellow.
By the end of the week I went out and had some fun, met some new people, played board games and stayed up late (all of which are rare these days). I'd love to do that again! Even though the place I went to is a bit far (in small country terms, at least) and it ends up being a little costly, it was worth it. I felt great throughout the weekend from all the good vibes I accumulated from Friday night!
So yes, overall a good week that really lifted my spirits! Yay!
Albert
Meet Albert!
I don't know how many more I'll be able to make, but with 3 of them now (and a brand new folder on my computer) this is now a series.
A series of Strange Creatures!
(the preview looks like crap, click the image for better definition)
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The Cosmic Soup
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Of course. Of course that would be the post to get all the notes. lol
(I'm not complaining, I'm just amused)
I feel like I've been getting dumber.
I have lots of ideas and almost zero execution power. Like there's this... filter, this static noise. A thick fog I have to wade through.
It's exhausting.
It feels like I'm disconnected, out of synch with myself, out of synch with time. I'm never really present in the present. I don't know where I'm going and I need constant reminders of where I've been, where I came from.
Feeling like I'm losing my ability to think past beyond surface level, though, that's scary.
Another Monday Ramble
I'd really like to not lose the habit or writing here every week. Cause I know if I let myself loosen the schedule, I'll never get it back on track.
So here I am. On a Monday, as usual. And... with not much to say.
The projects keep piling up in the corner, one after the other. I don't even remember what's at the bottom of the pile anymore.
It's been SO LONG since I've collaged with paper. But my hands go for the yarn first, so the papers never get their turn. My desk is a mess. Both my desks, in fact. I should take care of that. ...I really don't wanna.
I've been embracing the inner nerd and created a new tumblr page, dedicated to my thoughts and headcanons and stuff for my favourite Tales games (other games or stories might make an appearance at some point). I called it Chewing on Tales and had fun making that profile picture. Then dropped the ball on the page design, because I didn't get it all done on the first day, so it became another project on the pile that I forget about.
I haven't posted much yet, and it's taking me forever to write my next post. While I have been in a writing mood lately, but it takes me forever, cause I need to make sure what I'm saying is right so I lose myself in the research. I think I might like the research more than the writing, ahah. Looking up the scenes, noting down the dialogue, analyzing what's said and what isn't, hunting down side materials... It's like going on a treasure hunt, I love it! Writing though... I also like it, but it's frequently hard to find the focus and manage to not be interrupted.
It frustrates me that it takes me so long to write something! Even these posts take me all morning, it's ridiculous!
Anyway.
I guess I have a market to do in September again. I'm not as excited as usual. I'd like to make new things for it - crochet things, I mean. I still have a lot from last year and the year before that, but it bothers me to not have anything new.
I also have a bunch of new stickers I'd like to print. But I didn't really sell any last year, so should I even waste my time with that? Also, I'm not sure I have enough sticker paper for all of them. And I don't want to buy more at the moment. Money is... really tight. It probably will be for a while. And it's the same for everyone, which is why I'm not that excited about the market. I'm already expecting disappointment. Oof.
Ok, I'm done rambling for now. See you next week, I guess.
Schedule? What schedule?
I started something new! Well, not entirely new, it's crochet, but a technique I hadn't tried yet. Corner to corner. Or C2C for short. It's simple enough, more fun and interesting looking that the boring granny stitch, but grows just as fast, which is nice.
I started with a simple square just to get the hang of it (the cats can always use another mini blanket), and have now started a huge and much more complicated project, with lots of color changes. If I want it to look neat, I have to cut the yarn at every change. I'm sewing in the ends at the end of every row, cause otherwise it will be a pain. I don't even dislike sewing in ends (like many people do), but I'd still prefer to do it gradually than all at once.
I now have 3 large blanket WIPs... The first one is maybe 7 years old by now? Will I ever finish it? I've put so much into it already, I have to! I just need to make a few more triangles. A few... maybe somewhere around 40... -_-' Should also do a border in the end, to make it pretty and even, but that I don't think I'll ever do. I want to be done with it! It will probably take a few more years, let's be honest.
I also finally made a new collage with the underwater pictures I found the other day and wanted to use!
I called it Secret Garden, but the name might change in the future, if I manage to come up with a better one. I may or may not also add something more to the image. Or make another version, maybe.
I like it a lot, but I'm not totally satisfied. I think it's because I ended up making it a square cause the full format wasn't working well. So it feels - to me - that there's something missing.
Hmm.... you know what? The more I look at it, the more I like it. It's perfect the way it is, actually! That portal could be a nice sticker too.
Oh, right. Redbubble. I want to give up on that and find other places like it. Guess what, I totally forgot about it. Baaaahhhhh.
Also Substack... I will continue to not post there. I gave it a try, it seemed interesting at first, but after a few months she novelty has withered away and it there's nothing left in it for me. I really wanted to like it, but I don't. Kinda like Bluesky, too. But I'm keeping my presence on that one.
Honestly, the only places I actually like hanging around are Cara and Tumblr. And Cara is the only one where I even feel seen.
Oh. And I wanted to remake my website too! Yeah, also forgot about that. *rolls eyes*
Now I don't want to anymore. I had *ideas* but ended up keeping Carrd, which doesn't allow for those *ideas*, so I gave up on the whole renovation. That wasn't the only reason, though. It was also that I no longer know how to make those *ideas* happen with today's software options.
Ok, enough blah blah blah. See ya next time! \o
Secret Garden
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This year, for me, was supposed to be about experimenting. And I feel like I haven't been doing anything at all.
Well, there's one thing I experimented with. I turned off my YouTube history.
I spend way too much time on Youtube. There's always something playing in the background. Sometimes music, sometimes someone playing something, sometimes someone making something. And sometimes I'm just wasting time looking for something to watch without even know what to look for.
So I turned off the history, so that I don't get tempting suggestions on the side, but also to see different things cause Youtube won't remember what I like so it won't suggest more of the same.
I figured, if Youtube became less interesting for me, I'd waste less time there. And if it stopped suggesting the same kind of things over and over, I'd might actually find something new to watch.
Turns out having the history off is even worse. Cause the suggestions are so off from my interests that I get annoyed just looking at them. And now I don't know what I've already watched or not. If I was walking around in big circles around my interests before, now I'm walking in tighter circles that I don't even care about.
As I'm writing this, I've turned history back on. I never thought I'd be praising the algorithm, but there's something to be said about curating your experience. The algorithm isn't so bad when you can make good use of it.
Another experiment I want to try is posting on some day that isn't Monday. Maybe Wednesdays? I think Mondays aren't ideal and I've said that from the start, but I ended up falling into that schedule and getting used to it.
Then again, it will probably make no difference at all. I've been feeling like everything is pointless, lately. Like I'm just screaming into the void. Bahhhhh.
Also considering if I should keep trying Substack or just give up on it. I kinda like Blogger more, to be honest. I guess that's another thing I can experiment with - put Substack on a break and see how I feel about it.
Do you know what time it is?
Taking a break from the Vesperia spells for some fun pancake time with Genis =D
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I'm not quite here
Oh Hi! Did you miss me?
I've been in a mood. Not a bad one, just not in a writing mood. Interestingly though, I've been pretty social online, very blah blah blah. But chatting and writing something down are different things.
Anyway.
Since I don't have much to say or the ability to be eloquent at the moment, I'll just share some pages of my journal. When I don't know what to write, I draw and decorate the pages. I never know what to draw but always come up with something. Sometimes more simple, sometimes more messy... and sometimes I really don't like the result! Thankfully it doesn't happen much. Here are some of the most recent.
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I just spent some time vectorizing these spell circles from Tales of Symphonia, that show up when the spell is released. It was fun! I quite like this kind of work.
A lot more work would be trying to recreate the circles that show up on the floor for the bigger spells. Cause those are harder to see with the characters standing on top of them. Also, the perspective doesn't help.
I wonder if those designs are retrievable from the game files. Probably not, right? But the design has got to be somewhere! I just love those kinds of details and wish there was an archive or gallery with them.
Anyway, if anyone want to use them, go for it!
(How do I turn vectorizing graphics into paid work? I'd love to know)
Crimson Flare!
I'll admit, I've lost my steam. But I'll see these through! Just not as fast as I'd like, probably. (And I want to make more, from other games too? Am I crazy?)
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Bits and Bobs of scrambled thoughts
I've been having fun putting bits and bobs together. No, really!
Here's Bits!
And here's Bobs!
They're so weird, I love them!
I have so many pictures in my hard drive to play with. SO MANY. I'll never use them all, I don't know why I *have* to keep them all. But I keep them all. Cause I don't trust the internet to always have them there for me. I don't trust the internet to always work. Not that I have much reason for that these days. It's an old habit, if I see something I like, I keep it. Who knows if I'll ever find it again! (I mean, even if it's in my own archive, I might never find it again, let's be honest)
And just the other day I've collected some more. Some underwater stuff. I'm yet unsure what to make with them, but my next big collage might be an underwater scene.
I also want to make...notebooks?? You know, design the pages, make them into printables, actually print them and assemble some notebooks myself. Maybe make some fun pockets here and there. And then the hard part. Selling them. *shudders*
I need a sales person. Someone who can be excited about selling my stuff. Then I just have to make them! That's the dream of every artist, I'll bet.
Ok, I'm rambling now. I didn't have much to say today, I'll admit.
So I'll leave you with some music. It's a place I've been hanging around lately.
Video Game Music Radio
Video game music has ruined me. I no longer enjoy "normal" music. Ok, that's an exaggeration, I still like some stuff, but most of it is what I already know from years ago. I'm much more resistant to new music if there's a voice singing.
I'm here thinking, oh, I could turn this into a thing and always finish my weekly post by sharing some music, that could be fun! ...Watch me completely forget about it next week. I just know how it goes. lol So, no promises, but this might become a thing.
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Bits & Bobs
Yup. One is called Bits and the other is called Bobs. They always show up together. Cause I'm sooooo funny. lol
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