Your Sword Versus My Dagger
Summary: Â In the hustle of the Crown City, you suddenly find yourself in a situation you never thought you would be in, caught between two worlds with an impossible choice lying before you. You quickly learn how much grey is in between the black and white life you thought you once knew. Some AU I suppose. Still bad at summaries. Gladio x OC, Ignis x OC, Gladio x OC x Ignis. femreader. smut.
The Best Ones Lie
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Gladiolus and Ignis both sat across from each other at the booth where they happened to meet up after work. In the morning, the large man had gotten a ride to work with the intention of finding his own way back to his apartment, however, plans changed and he decided to wait out his time before he moved on to another establishment. Ignis had his own mind elsewhere, absently swirling the liquid in his glass and looking as though he were mesmerized by it. Neither of them spoke, the revelation that they were likely dating the same woman far too troubling for words. The shock of it had Gladio drinking while Ignis remained withdrawn, looking for a way to unravel this carefully. It was a delusion he wished to place himself in, unwanting of this situation and its truths.
The glass slamming down on the table interrupted his thoughts, emerald hues breaking their connection with the clear liquid and finding that of his friend. Gladio had often expressed his interest with the girl and it was easy to see that his mind had already begun to fester an anger that Ignis was certain he himself repressed. The Shield conveyed his emotions in a much different manner, anger on the outside to deal with the pain that truly stung him. Ignis was much the same when it came to holding everything, likely a side effect from living their lives for their liege.
"What's her name?" asked Gladio.
Ignis sighed, knowing that as soon as he said it out loud that there would be no avoiding the truth. It would do them no good to live like this anyway, giving the man the information that he required. The look on his face was all the confirmation needed, Gladiolus finishing the drink in his hand and ordering another. Ignis followed suit, wishing to dull his senses in order to push the pain he felt away. It was silly to think that he could run from it instead of facing it head on, to think that he even wanted to but matters of the heart were far more complicated and he allowed himself to fall deeply this time.
"The best ones lie," grunted the Shield in disgust.
"Are we certain this is, in fact, the same woman?" mused Ignis, "From what you've told me, the likeness merely ends at three things."
It was a loose thing to cling to - and completely out of the norm for him, however, his mind was swimming. As much as he knew it was futile, some part of him wished that it wasn't true, that his love life hadn't just blown up in his face. Gladiolus grunted again, downing the glass before rising to his feet. Ignis quirked a brow in his direction, impressed with how well he was holding himself after witnessing his consumption.
"Let's go."
The large man jerked his head, turning his back and making his way out of the restaurant. Ignis followed him, curious about where they were going. Surely Gladio didn't plan on driving in his condition? No, instead they were on the nearest subway, going away from the Citadel and their homes. The look on his face, Ignis had seen it before when something greatly disturbed him about Noct. With no explanation by the time they got on the second train, the man was unable to contain his curiosity about their destination.
"Where are we going?" asked Ignis calmly.
"You'll see."
After a short ride, they were back at surface level and came a few blocks to another bar. Music blared from the inside, a live band that drew in customers waiting to gain entry. It was called Andalus and Ignis had never heard of it before, however, it did look like the sort of place Gladio would frequent on his spare time. Getting in wasn't an issue, Ignis following his friend to the front of the line, who nodded at the bouncer and stepped through the dark, wooden doors. It was far larger on the inside than it looked, people rubbing against him on their way around and pushing past in order to find a place for consumption. Gladio stuck out like a sore thumb in his height which made it easier in case they got lost. Once they made it closer to the bar, Ignis understood exactly what they were doing here, his heart sinking.
"That her?"
Ignis saw his girlfriend tending to patrons. It was a busy place and had the music not been blaring in his ears he was certain that she would have spotted them - though she did keep looking in one spot frequently with longing. Glancing over at his friend, it was obvious that this was the girl he had also been courting, meaning there was no way to deny the truth parading in front of them: they had been dating the same woman.
It was uncanny, the two men worlds apart in mannerisms, interests etc, and yet, they managed to fall for the same woman who showed hardly showed any signs of likeness. How could this happen? And for so long? Surely there was an explanation, however, the fact remained that they were lied to, deceived in one of the worst ways he could imagine possible and it was a bitter taste.
Exhaling deeply, the music died down and Ignis finally answered.
"Yes."
...
As soon as you got back to your apartment, you slammed the door and locked it. Pulse still erratic, you were light headed from rushing and the lack of food, likely dehydrated after the vomiting. Gladiolus and Ignis didn't leave for a while, and every time they came near the bedroom you were terrified despite that you were locked away in the bathroom. When they did finally exit the apartment you found it hard to move, body quivering while you remained on the floor. It wasn't for at least an hour before you felt it was safe to leave, gathering up your clothes to wear and then bolting out the first chance you got. The whole way home was a blur, going through the motions until you saw the safety of your building. Ironic that this disgusting place was where you sought haven.
Collapsing on your bed, the weight of what you had done was heavy upon you. This was likely the closest you had come to being caught and you knew that this couldn't go on much longer. The warning signs were all there, you needed to stop being so stubborn and do the right thing or it was going to blow up in your face. You were a terrible person for continuing this and it served you right for how you felt right now.
The vibration beside your head cut through your thoughts, persisting which told you that someone was trying to call you. Instead of rushing to get it, you didn't bother to look, unwilling to interact with anyone socially today. Even Douchebag next door banging some random girl he lured into his bed was hardly enough to register in your mind. When your phone stopped your eyes squeezed shut, desperate to sleep in order to think coherently.
It didn't stop. Eyes burning, you groaned before reaching for it, squinting at the brightness of your screen and looking at what was so desperate for your attention it couldn't wait. Messages and missed phone calls greeted you, from Gladio, Ignis and Lexie. Seeing the names of the boys made your stomach drop and you tossed the device away in disgust. It didn't last long, your curiosity getting the better of you and opening up those waiting messages. A sad smile formed on your lips, reading the text from Ignis first and then Gladio's.
The large man was hoping you were okay, suggesting that he was happy to take care of you if you happened to not make it home. You must have slept at some point because it was near lunch time and he had managed to send you a very detailed list of the things he was going to do when it came to you being ill. You were almost to embarrassed to read it, and you were at home by yourself in bed. Gladio had such passion it made your heart melt and you only hoped that you were able to keep him stimulated in the ways that he needed. It was like a fire that never died and you didn't want to snuff out the flame with your poor actions of how you were treating him. Leaving him to find someone that could make him happy was the best option, you loved him so much you wanted the best for him and you weren't it.
Ignis was simply greeting you in the morning as he always did. It wasn't a long paragraph, just simple words to brighten up your day and make you smile before bed. You always tried to tell him that he didn't have to do anything for you, that you were capable of feeding yourself, however, he always insisted that he enjoyed it. Surely the man couldn't love to cater to everyone's needs all the time? At least you could fight him on cleaning up and make him coffee that had his eyes lighting up. The longer you stared at the screen you noted another message coming through, looking for an opening in order to spend some time with you. Ignis was like a flood, sweeping you off your feet and carrying you to a distant land that left you so full of love you could hardly comprehend it. That man deserved the best in the world and you could never give it to him. You loved him so much, you knew that you had to give him the chance to find someone else, someone that would be much better than you ever could.
Rolling over, you hugged one of your pillows tightly and began to sob into it. You were such a monster for what you were doing, the full extent of what Elise had been telling you finally hitting you in the face. This was wrong on so many levels but you had pushed it aside because you wanted to spend as much time with them as you could. Now it was getting to close and you knew that that the only way to end this was to stop seeing them, as much as it was going to break you. The thought of their pain if they found out what you were doing was unbearable, and they were too good for you to do that. No, it was better if you ended things, today, once and for all.
Reaching for your phone, you ignored the messages from them and went straight to Lexie. Of course, people had bailed on her and she wouldn't be able to cover the event going on tonight. Wiping your tears, you told her that you would be there, knowing that you owed her a great deal. Tomorrow you would meet with Ignis and get the dirty work done, and then later on in the night would also cut Gladio loose. There was no more running from this, it was getting dealt with.
Exhaling deeply, you composed yourself as best you could before jumping out of bed and heading straight for the bathroom. You were a mess, but getting ready for work would take care of it. The tasks at hand were distracting, but not enough to keep your mind off what you were preparing yourself for. No amount of makeup could hide the fact that you were depressed, however, this was a good thing that you were doing and you just had to keep telling yourself that.
The neighbour was having another round with whatever weird girl he managed to lure back to his place and you found that to be the perfect time to head out. The shift you were covering didn't start for a few hours but you wanted to be early enough to try and prepare for the influx that you would be facing tonight. Depressing music was what you were after but you decided on something more uplifting in order to try and get your head in the game. It failed, songs that you danced to with Ignis cropping up on the list more often than it needed to. Honestly, where was it when you were actually looking for it?
The train ride to work was quicker than usual, likely because you weren't on a time crunch. Running into Andalus, Lexie was extremely happy that you showed up when you did and quickly you began work. Another girl had called in which meant that you were going to be short staffed tonight and have no time to hear yourself think. Perhaps that was a good thing, however, you were having trouble keeping your personal life off your face. A couple of hours in and the Glaives entered, as well as enough people to fill the place up. A lineup began out the door as the band began its first song. It was going to be a long night.
You were trying to be positive about your shift, attempting to exude the same amount of energy as normal. Lexie likely knew that you were still in your same predicament and the last thing you needed was to bring that all to work. Even the Glaives appeared to have trouble cheering you up, something they noted but you waved off as exhaustion. It wasn't exactly a lie, the sick feeling within you still lingering from early on this morning and the lack of food you indulged yourself in contributed to that same nausea. The night had been busy enough that there wasn't a lot of time to think about your situation, nor answer the phone on the breaks that you didn't take since there was no time. This was one of the busiest nights you had worked in a long while and it was almost hard to keep up with insufficient staffing.
The music played loud, making any conversation with your patrons near impossible. Absently your gaze wandered to the side of the bar where Gladio usually resided when he was here. Part of you wished to see him, that familiar comfort he provided, however, it was wrong to wish for such things and that was why you were avoiding both of them in the first place. It was getting too close and you needed to stop it before you seriously hurt them. If only you had done something sooner, but now it was far too late.
As the night progressed it didn't appear to be slowing down. With no moment to sit, you were gathering up the garbage in a desperate need to get outside for breather since it was heating up inside the bar. Three bags in either hand, you grunted at the weight as you made your way out the doors, careful not to rip any of the bags. Dropping them with a sigh, you flung off the top of the dumpster before tossing each bag in one by one. When you were finished you slammed the lid closed, exhaling deeply and readying yourself to return to your shift. The music played loud enough that it could be heard out here, quiet enough though that your thoughts weren't jumbled together. It was a nice reprieve and you wondered when you could go home and drown out your exhaustion.
"Barista by day..."
"Barwench by night."
Your heart stopped as soon as you heard those words. It wasn't even the sentences that got you, it was the voices, one after the other as if they were together in the same place. Turning to see confirmed your worst fear, the thing you had wished to avoid the most. Gladiolus and Ignis stood before you, the Shield with his arms crossed appearing to contain the rage he wished to unleash at the revelation he made. The other man was better at hiding his emotions and yet, you were able to see the crushing blow you delivered when you faced them, leaving no other explanation for what was going on here. Both men were far enough away that even if you were to walk to the door they still couldn't reach you. Tears had long since welled up in the bottom of your eyes, each second agony as you looked between the two men. This was it, there was no more running from it. This had to happen here and now.
"I had hoped that my suspicions were false."
"Ignis..."
The tone of his voice cut into you like a knife, but the worst of it was the way he couldn't even look you in the eye. Your bottom lip quivered before the tears fell, finding it hard to breathe as you continued to look at him.
"Told you, Iggy, the best ones lie."
Gladio's sneer made you visibly shrink, shifting your gaze over to him and feeling your heart break into millions of pieces. You truly were the scum of Eos and he made sure that you knew it.
"Gladio... I..."
"You what? Like playing games with people?"
"No, I-"
"Then what?!"
The man's voice echoed and you visibly flinched. That look in his amber hues, they weren't just angry they were hurt and this was one way he expressed it - not that it wasn't justified, you completely deserved it. This was too much at once, the words you wished to speak failing with every attempt. Now your body shook with your sobs and as much as you wanted to run you found it difficult to move. Your eyes flickered between both men, desperate to do something more than you were.
"Please, explain yourself."
Ignis, polite as always and restrained finally found your face. Those sharp features pierced right through you, making you swallow before claiming your bottom lip. Gladio's rage made it easier, but this calm and collective nature only provoked that sinking feeling in your heart. The guilt that had been eating away at you since you first found out about this messy situation no longer repressed itself away, the wall shattered by that emerald gaze. Even with him as vexed as he was, you still found that he was offering you the courage you needed to finally come clean about what happened and why. You truly didn't deserve either of them.
"I..." you shook your head, fists clenched at your side as you tried to gather your thoughts. The only thing you could do was tell them the truth, "I never meant for it to happen this way-"
"Yeah, right," scoffed the Shield.
"Gladio," warned Ignis.
You were grateful for the interjection, even if it was harder to have to explain the insane thoughts that were going to pour from your mind. Honestly, you'd much rather they yell at you for doing this to them and then walk out of your life, but you didn't deserve to get off that easy.
"I met you both around the same time, maybe even the same day, I can't remember exactly," You began, "It was a time in my life when I was just starting to come back out of my shell, the void I stuck myself in after everything that happened with Connor. I didn't even notice that you were hitting on me," you looked at Gladio, "I figured you just wanted that quick lay and it would be over. Playing that game with you brought me out of that rut I was in and I never would have guessed it would come this far. And you," you shifted your gaze to Ignis, "Coming in for all of that coffee I didn't think much of it. You're so perfect the thought of someone like you wanting anything from me was insane."
Again you averted your eyes. The memories of all the time you spent with each of them flooded you all at once, making you tense. They were all cherished, even if stolen in deception and you wished that you could go back. The problem was, you'd likely do it again up to a certain point, selfish in your desires for each of them. You were a monster. Wiping the tears from your cheeks, you exhaled deeply, composing yourself enough and facing them once more.
"I didn't actually put together that I was dating either of you until it was too late," you dared not shrink beneath the Shield's scowl, "Things with you were so casual and you didn't strike me as one to settle down with one woman. As much as I wanted to keep seeing you, I knew that actually dating you was unlikely so I didn't acknowledge the fact that we already were," Ignis was next to meet your stare, "I could never wrap my head around you. I knew that you were too kind, probably to the point that you get hurt and I convinced myself that I was far from your type anyway. Things with you were much slower and when the idea of actually dating you came to mind you were distant and didn't really show much of an interest in me until I began to understand how reserved you were.
"Lex and Elise were the ones to point it out to me. I was so caught up in my world of delusions I should have seen it," you shook your head, "Nothing had gotten too far, I could still fix it without hurting either of you. I had intentions of leaving one, but..." a choked sob escaped you, still looking between the two of them, "By the time I worked up the nerve it was too late. I fell in love and I could never choose between you."
"It ain't that hard," snarled Gladio.
"It is!" you cried.
"More of your lies."
"The only things I lied about were my work schedule and about seeing each of you behind your back, that's it! Everything else was true! I love you-"
"Bullshit!"
"I do!"
You whimpered before them, finding it difficult to continue. This was the hardest part, explaining your actions and the reasons for what you had done. After that you had to live with it, knowing how you wronged two of the most incredible people you had the privilege of knowing. None of this was right.
"I do love you, I love both of you so much. The biggest obstacle, the reason I let it get to this point was because of how deeply and even it was. I never thought it was possible for this to happen, but I'm torn, divided in a perfect balance that makes me incapable of leaning on one side over the other. You're both so perfect, so I opted to leave and I had every intention of doing it but... it was so hard."
The weight of your words made your legs wish to tremble beneath them, silence following your last one and enabling the tense atmosphere to claim you. Neither man spoke, nor looked you in the eye and you found yourself catching sight of your feet. Clouds above you finally decided to weep, matching the distress faced by all of you and you knew that there was nothing else left.
"I know that none of this excuses me for what I've done," you said softly, "I'm a shitty person for doing this and I can only blame myself for letting this happen. I'm sorry that I hurt you and I'm sorry that I couldn't be who you wanted. I truly hope you just forget about this and find someone you deserve. You're both amazing and beautiful people, and I've wasted enough of your time."
Biting your lip, you glanced up quickly - only to be met with those same looks. What did you expect? There was no way for this to end well and it was foolish of you to think otherwise. Exhaling another quivering breath, you wiped the last of your tears away, and the rest of the rain that began to drench your forehead.
"I... I have to get back to work. I know it means nothing, but I love you and I am sorry for the pain I've put you through."
You didn't give them a chance to reply, forcing yourself to move. The door slamming behind you echoed loudly in your ears and you fought with yourself to keep more of your tears at bay.










