While I haven't been posting anything on this Tumblr since the beginning of the pandemic, I would like to update you guys.
First, I applied for a full-time position for the first time in my life and I have also gotten interviewed for it! Boy was I a nervous wreck. After a week, I was told that I didn't get the job and why that was and how I could broaden my skillsets. It didn't really impact me much, I understood why but I was glad that I was given an opportunity to interview.
Then a month later, I graduated from college! Yes, December 2021. It felt rewarding, and I absolutely got emotional considering I have had many doubts and was the first person in my family going to college and now graduated.
Since then, I have been still working at the same place, and I am not complaining, I do love my job. But to tell you the truth, I do feel like I'm a little behind on life, seeing my peers moving on to bigger things and I am here stuck. I have been job hunting, and still am, but I haven't applied to anything since the interview. I haven't found something that 1.) really attracts me, and 2.) something that I feel like I'm qualified for. Maybe it's fear, I don't know.
At the same time, I try to not beat myself up about this too much. I also try to remind myself that everyone blooms in different ways and at different times. With that being said, I've spent time on coffee dates with my friends, driving around, journaling, and attempting to read for fun. All of this is happening in between the shifts I work. Not going to lie, but it's not the ideal lifestyle. However, I am trying to enjoy this time before I get a full-time job InshaAllah. I don't know why, but I keep having hope that something good will pop up just like the position I interviewed for.
As always, Alhamdulillah. 🤍✨
Any advice is welcome. I'd love to read them.
