sad.lost.old.soul

and

Let Go

if you can no longer feel and see that you're enough for someone anymore...it'll give you peace of mind and teach you self love.

I am in love with the idea of love. --- of course who doesn't feel that way when they think about it, right? Who doesn't wanna fall in love someday? Being in love with someone is the most exciting chapter of our lives. It is the story we look forward to write the most.

My heart is too scared to fall in love on the idea of love, again. --- we all have our own love experiences in this world, some are unique, some are hidden, and some lead to misfortune. From what I've experience, I learned that we fell in love with that person because of the idea of love we are thinking about them. It is our thoughts that makes them in-lovable. We ignore red flags, we pardon everytime, and we tolerate bad habits of a person. Which should be not. And that's what happened to me, giving me so much trauma to ever experience it again.

What I want is to fall in love in the idea of life. --- life is too beautiful to not be in love with it, for as long as you try and try to see the brighter side of it. Love if just around the corner, sometimes you think you need it but no. Life is the most important and it is what we should be in love with. We got our family, friends, and nature. Realizing that, gives me assurance that I'll find beautiful things in the world despite the deepest scar my heart has.

My intention in writing this is not to make you believe in me. This are simply my thoughts on the kind of life and situationship I am at the moment. It's been more than 3 months since the painful break-up I experienced, but the freeing one.

When I am sad inside because my inner child becomes weak and forgetful.