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Barty and the weird stray dog he practically adopted as his emotion support

(The dog is Sirius, who wanted to see how his little brother was doing, but was kidnapped by Barty my-father-never-wanted-me-to-have-a-pet-nor-to-be-happy Crouch)

(That's how he knows so much about Barty in Canon (I think?))

Your triggers are socializing, decision-making, and tight clothing. Don't do too much of any in one day.

The first thing to go is the mask. You will slip into a more authentic version of yourself ... whether you want to or not.

You will start feeling fatigue, and smiling will be more difficult, but the high of novelty dopamine during whatever you're doing will drown out this initial signal.

Without further warning, you will go into shutdown mode. You will get quiet and straightfaced. You're much too polite to tell someone. (btw people can tell that you hate being there, you're not slick)

You will feel trapped ... like the Animal. Like you must get out. Possibly pacing around the enclosure.

When not moving or unable to move, your mind will be scurrying from wall to wall trying not to accept the fact that it is in fact Trapped

When Trapped starts to sink in you have an hour tops. Your fidgeting will increase and stimuli will begin causing you pain. This is when you stop being Polite and start being Assertive because the next thing to go is your speech.

Words become difficult, but not impossible. They take more effort but you don't really know what's going to come out. If you don't end this now, you will have to choose between saying something you do NOT want to say or being silent.

If you continue to push past the blaring alarms going off in your head, People begin Asking Questions, especially "are you okay." Stop lying to them.

Processing words that are spoken to you becomes nigh impossible. This will frustrate you and push you deeper into the meltdown. Request space and quiet with the words you have left.

You cry without speech OR spew venom uncontrollably during meltdowns if you tip past the boiling point. You shrivel like a prune or explode like a volcano. It depends on the trigger.

You mostly say things that hurt people during the volcanoes. You hurt your own feelings. Unfortunately, all of it is true. None of it is productive ... but it must be purged.

and that’s exactly why i love wolfstar intimate connection so much. in my mind, remus has a healthy, grounded understanding of sex—like, he actually gets it. he knows that it’s not just a physical thing but something tied to connection and emotion and he definitely understands how to give and receive pleasure

regulus didn't even last five days. '

im dying

the only cure is rosekiller headcanons from the loml (you)

A little late lol sorry hopefully you didnt die I was so bartylily pilled today

• barty suicide baits evan when they fight

• evans way of saying I love you is that admist his stoic emotionlessness he might glance Barty's way with soft eyes.

• it makes barty practically foam at the mouth.

• Barty wants to steal evans shoes because his are always super nice

• evan gives barty a lucky rabbits foot

• when barty scrapes his knees evan bandages them

• barty draws on evans hands and he pretends to hate it but he actually loves it

• barty makes sure not to kill spiders. For evans sake.

• barty went vegan for evan

• evan kinda forced him actually because barty cant cook for shit and its always been evans job to keep barty alive

• all rooftops belong to them at night

• they explore abandoned buildings

• barty makes those fuckass still water tiktoks

• evan always keeps the weird bottles of medicine and stuff from abandoned hospitals and threatens barty with them

• barty always complains to evan that he thinks hes gotten a disease (which, according to evan is impossible because evan is a top notch professional in cleanliness)

• barty has to change clothes before he comes into evans room. Barty likes to put on a show to which evan does not give a shit (hes sweating inside)

• evan is VERY intrigued by the mechanics of bartys body. A little too curious...  They've tried EVERYTHING. Evan is out there doing routine checkups on this guys just to see what makes him tick.

• evans favourite is blowing air on bartys nipples to watch how he reacts. (Sorry ill stop I was gonna keep this tame lol )

•  clean freak evan x DISGUSTING barty

• barty has always been so dirty to me like he is just SO GROSS (I have freaky thoughts im keeping them locked up arent you proud)

• evan with insomnia who watches barty sleep x barty who also has insomnia and literally cant stop the blush of being watched while pretending to be asleep. Evan thinks its funny because he obviously knows bartys not sleeping.

• idk everything about rosekiller involves bodies they just wanna be in each other's skin.

• they watch movies all night long. Old westerns, the type you talk through and make out during. Something about rosekiller in front of an old box tv glowing in the darkness.

• barty is constantly jumpscared by evans cat because it just pops out of nowhere. Hes convinced its out to get him (the cat just likes him a lot)

• evan imagines bartys guts and paints them anatomically correct. Its a love language

• evan keeps a picture of bartys eyes in his wallet. Thats where the soul is, in the eyes.

• they do drugs in their bathroom because what else is there to do. I imagine they listen to the radio, just random static sometimes, and they sit on the floor basking in each other's quiet.

• evan makes bat houses for the conservation and barty likes to watch him work. Its peaceful and barty needs peace in his head.

• evan gives barty roses (did I say this before? I feel like im repeating myself a lot)

• barty always thinks of evan when he sees seeds in the ditches. Evans an avid seed harvester.

• evan collects glass bottles and barty just wanders the sides of highways looking for nice ones. Evan doesnt have the heart to say he wants SPECIFIC types of bottles. Vintage ones found buried or washed up on beaches. Hes still treasures the ones barty brings him of course.

Evan notices, he approaches lily and asks her to hold barty while he goes to the washroom.

I just like the idea of Remus’ sweaters being passed around