R.

Anger.

An emotion that consumes me twentey four hours everyday of the week leading up to months, leading to years, which then leads to the rest of my life. Of course its an emotion that we all have but to you it may be just a short term into which I applud you for, though not everyone is quite as lucky as you.

"R. if you are just venting then just say your angry and move on."

If you see this as a vent then be by guest but you'd be a fool. Once again the door is right over there, so either leave or Shut up.

Anger an emotion that builds up inside you like a bomb once reached to a point of annoyce or patience. An emotion that is destrctive in ways that can cause harm to you or to others as the emotion clouds our judgement. It is struggle for those who only feel those emotions on a daily and nothing more nothing less, a "short fuss" if you will. Again those who can quickly regain their anger and calm themselves with ease are lucky, for they have kind hearts and think with logic or see prespective of others. Well I am one of the unlucky ones on that ladder,

"R. you're still not making sense, I don't think this is a deep tho-"

Quiet! For everything above just listen.

I understand if this seems out of place, but it is a thought from my head nonetheless. I am filled with rage that is hard to control, snapping at something or someone by just a single breath. This emotion, this emotion that builds at a constant rate no matter the situation no matter the outcome will always lead to harm to others just by voice, just by words, just by actions as well.

Smiling doesn't always mean I'm happy, it decives everyone that I'm not dangerous, that I am not a big bad wolf told in fairy tales. It is a form of trying to show that I am kind, that I mean no harm, that I won't bite and you don't have to run and hide in fear. That you don't have to run away from me or from anyone that always have that rage.

Everyone has anger, has rage inside of them. But this emotion isn't easy for those that feel it everyday without a sense of peace, and if and when we do get that peace that break from that frustastion well just like how quickly anger leaves you, peace leaves us just as fast. We may not control our anger, we don't like the destruction that we create or can create just as much as you do. But you are only human when you have all emotions controlled; while those that are only feeling one well we still are just on a different scale.

I have fangs that I bare out towards you in a warning, I don't enjoy it but at least a warning was given before bit you.

You shouldn't be ashamed if you snapped or bit at someone, we are different and need a bit more support than others. So chin up, you are still perfect just by being you.

Now if you excuse me, it seems I have made a mess and my suit and hands are now stained in red.

Desire.

An emotion that we all carry inside of us throughout our lives. An emotion that can grow and become something that creates self-destruction or destruction towards others.

"R. Where the hell are you going with this?"

Just stick with me here if you want to leave the doors over there if not then quiet.

Desire is an emotion where it grows inside of us the more we ignore it, the more we negelct it, the bigger the issue becomes as it claws its way out wanting that need. Well we all know where this can lead but at the same time maybe not. Desire leads into temptaion but not all desires are that pleasure. A desire is something that we are not willing to do while a temptaion is well you know the rest I don't need to explain it.

We are stuck with the thought that that is what desire is but that is just temptaion. Two completely different things that comes from the root of desire. Temptaion or in easier terms "your fanstasies" is what people see as desires but in truth its not. "R. your losing us." Just stay with me here.

Desires is reality is what you want in life and for yourself that is not as physical "activites". Desire is something that we want to do that we feel is prohibited or frown upon others or those close to us. We create this self fear of wanting that but in truth your the only one stopping yourself.

The term "Making a Deal with the Devil" can go hand in hand as to making thoses desires come true but not having that guilt or shame in the mix. It is an emotion that can be molded, manipulated to help someones gain. An emotion that can very well lead into your downfall in life if not tended to yourself rather than relying on others.

Desire is something that you yourself can control but if you let others take control of it then well whos to say that no one warned you. I did just now. So you choose either let that emotion consume you or tame it control it. Cause just that any other human emotion there will always be an outburst on how you feel.

Now if you excuse me, your desires are a waiting your decision.

How I view Myself

(14/1/24)

I swear if there’s any complaints about how messy I am on that board I’m going to put fur everywhere Frenchie. /j

How I view A.

(14/1/24)

Europe cheers for your return, Meine Dame.

Trouble no more, I’m a free man—

Shackles gon’ fall off the these feet and—