i learned love shouldn’t be earth shattering or electric, filling you to the brim with butterflies and excitement.

yet he is both. the comfort and the craze.

i learned love is like that of a cat; you must earn it and one day when they choose to sit by you and rest their head upon your leg, you know.

Yes. they love you. no frills. The excitement is initial, but replaced by the chest filling, world engulfing sensation of peace and the only thing i can describe as real love.

selfless and selfish. I would give anything for you and want everyone to know this love but i want you all to myself.

I always thought i knew what it was to fear the loss of love but what i really feared was loss of one’s favor.

For you my dear, i fear not getting every moment. The thought of a short life with you is terrifying yet wonderful. It would be filled with you and our moments but i know it will never be enough. 20 years or 80 i will crave you in my life.

you are truly home. you give me peace, the tranquility to rest.

i was afraid of the butterflies but realized there was not a flutter of fear no rapid beating floating focus attention here now please—

but rather the gentle hum.

you would never make me fight for attention or affection. you give it all willingly. your presence calms the rapid rotation of my thoughts and i just somehow float down river and find myself gazing at you.

I’ve always gazed at stars and I know i look at you the same way i do them. I think the stars somehow seek to tell us the past present future. They whisper in the night and the trees echo their siren song.

I learned how to listen finally. I heard the secrets of what was and is to be.