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you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.

there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.

you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.

your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?

someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.

there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.

you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember. 

 a joke on tumblr can’t tell you if you have adhd,  BUT:

 a lot of the described above are symptoms of adhd, like losing time, being distracted, losing things, forgetting in general, talking too much, so on and forth

 these things are only a symptom/issue if they actively disrupt your life

 they can also be symptoms of something else. things that can mimic/are similar to adhd symptoms, especially the ones described above:

dissociation

trauma/ptsd

anxiety and depression, which can cause memory loss

autism

executive dysfunction, as a whole

and a number of other conditions that cause memory loss, distractibility, sensitivity to rejection, time blindness/losing time, etc.

 if you relate to a lot of these to an intense degree and it’s causing you distress, YES see a doctor. if you just think it’s funny, thank you i worked hard on it.

my eating disorder has been a lot of things —

a slow and deliberate suicide, a way to numb

myself up until I couldn’t feel a thing, a distraction

to the real problem;

the real problem is not the body I inhabit or

the ways in which it haunts me in my sleep.

it’s not the way I look, fat on my hips & thighs

that rub together with each step, acne

littering my peach pit skin;

the real problem is that my mind is cracked into pieces.

it is broken in all the places where it should be glued together;

shaking when all is calm & screaming

when there is nothing to fear.

replacing food with air like caloric value is nothing more

than a number & fat content is content with being empty when

in reality, it’s the food that helps the body thrive but

the eating disorder exists because I never wanted this body

to thrive, in fact I’ve always wanted to destroy it.

can you understand this? this desire

to end the thing which gives you life; this desire to

destroy that in which is continuously creating you?

you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.

there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.

you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.

your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?

someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.

there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.

you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember. 

you awake and lie in bed. you plan a detail to-do list in your head. excited, you step out of bed only to feel the motivation drain off of you like oil from a duck’s back. the bed calls to you like a siren to a sailor

did you lock the door? if you check, you will have locked the door. if you do not check, you will not have locked the door. if you check and have locked the door there is a reasonable chance you will accidentally unlock the door. there is no way to win this game.

you are hungry. you eat nothing. you are not hungry. you eat everything. the moon laughs at you.

you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.

there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.

you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.

your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?

someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.

there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.

you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember. 

you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.

there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.

you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.

your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?

someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.

there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.

you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember. 

you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.

there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.

you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.

your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?

someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.

there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.

you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember.