A documented dive into my love of Power Rangers (especially Ninja Storm), and my journey into creating a cosplay for my fan-made character. (Probably some other sewing/cosplay related content too).
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Why I think Dustin Brooks is a walking talking case of Imposter Syndrome
And why I think his greatest fear is bigger than just "falling and getting hurt."
To start, I have thought far too much about the fears depicted for Tori and Dustin in "Eye of the Storm." On the surface, they might seem a bit shallow compared to Shane's fear of being the family disappointment (especially Tori's fear of having her hair cut, but I could go off for a bit about how many women tie their identity to their hair, and how Tori canonically struggles with having her femininity recognized amongst her friends who view her as more of a tomboy). But I really do think there's reason to believe that they're representative of something deeper. And for Dustin, it goes all the way back to the first episode.
Dustin, canonically, knows he's a space case, and knows he's considered a goofball. It's not just other characters who bring it up, to his face, repeatedly, but he himself as well. It's made most clear in "All About Beevil," but we'll get there. In the very first episode, "Prelude to a Storm," when seeing Sensei as a guinea pig for the first time, Dustin almost immediately responds with "did he just explain why and I just missed it?" even miming as though something just went over his head. Then a few episodes later, in "Looming Thunder," when Dustin is late for training, he scolds himself. "Why do I do this to myself?"
In "Tongue and Cheek," when Shane confronts Dustin for letting his sudden fame as a ranger get to his head, Dustin gives a defensive but earnest explanation. "For the first time in my life I'm not just the goofy one. I'm getting respect and I'm not about to walk away from that."
Dustin knows how people perceive him. He might try to brush it off, as he says in "All About Beevil," "As long as you're a good person, that's what really counts," but he clearly internalizes a lot of it. And it doesn't help that in the same episode, his good nature and faith in others is tested and abused.
Now just imagine, for a moment, that there's one place where he doesn't feel like a goof, or a screw up -- on a dirtbike. He's the self-professed "motocross guy." He's also good -- really good. Good enough that Cam trusts him to look over the specs for the Tsunami Cycles. He can also hold his own on a 125cc with Hunter and Blake on 250's, the latter of whom is good enough to score a factory ride with a team owned by (in show) one of the greatest racers in history (Roger Hannah, who I suspect is named for motocross legend Bob Hannah, and possibly also for another legend Roger De Coster), and is later compared by industry press to (real life) legend Jeremy McGrath. It's worth noting, that in "All About Beevil," Dustin complains about not being able to beat the brothers, despite finishing less than 3 seconds behind them (let's just ignore the fact that it's the same exact footage from "Looming Thunder,") and when assured it's because he's on a less powerful bike, he ignores this and starts blaming himself for not setting up his bike well enough, and then even entrusts his bike to a complete stranger for further improvement. (As one does).
So when Dustin is attacked by Eyezak in "Eye of the Storm," the fear he's forced to endure depicts him in his motocross gear, in an eternal state of falling, with the inevitable impact being what he fears most. "Don't let me fall! I can't get hurt!" This fear is later reaffirmed in "Down and Dirty" when Blake expresses surprise that Dustin would participate in the freestyle demo, citing Dustin's fear of getting hurt as it would keep him from racing.
Still seems like a pretty surface-level fear, right? A lot of people fear falling and/or getting hurt. Except maybe Dustin ties his worth to how well he does at racing. He's the goofy one, he's the space case, he's the motocross guy. People don't question him when it comes to motocross. He's not good at a lot of things, but he's good at this. Take that away, if he falls and gets hurt, if he can't race, what does that leave him with?
Well, he can play the saxophone... but it's definitely not what he's know for. In "Shimazu Returns, part I," Shane hypes up Tori's dancing, and Tori hypes up Shane's singing, and Dustin has to hype up himself, "hey and me? Sax Master Extraordinaire!"
No, he's the motocross guy, the dirtbike racer. And it's so much a part of him that he later (in "Down and Dirty") becomes considerably stressed over whether or not to give up racing (something he's good at) to pursue freestyle (something he's passionate about).
What does he do without his identity as a racer? Who is he? A goof? A space case? More importantly, what's he good for? He can't exactly hang his hat on being a secret ninja, or on being the yellow ranger. Well, not publicly anyway, and even anonymously, we saw how well that worked out. He tried, and it went to his head, and he was reminded that being a ranger means being part of a team.
Despite this, he seems to question his position on the team. In "General Deception, part I," when Tori pulls over to help someone in distress, Dustin points out "last time we stopped on the side of the road our school got sucked into space." And just five episodes later, in "Storm Before the Calm, part II," when things are looking bleak, he brings forth the thought "you guys ever think if we hadn't been late to class that day, we wouldn't even be power rangers." It's the very last episode of the season, and Dustin still thinks about that day. He still doubts his role as ranger. Sure, they were late because they were helping an older couple with their broken down car, but does that matter when they were given one last chance at the school and they still didn't prioritize class? He views becoming a ranger as happenstance, something that happened because he and his friends screwed up, because they were who remained, not because they were the best choice. Are these thoughts that keep him up at night after hard-won battles?
Dustin walks around with his head held high and with a positive attitude. Everyone knows him as easygoing, kind, and forgetful, among other things. He runs into battle after battle without hesitating. But every now and then Dustin lets something slip, and it usually goes unnoticed. So he keeps going, keeps carrying on to be the best that he can be. But inside, he's always afraid of falling.
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I finally made the belt, and so this cosplay is finally officially done!
The belt buckle could definitely be better. Thought about trying again with foam, but I'm feeling too lazy to get that done before next Saturday. The belt has a buckle in the back to get it on and off, but I also used some hidden velcro to make it size adjustable, and I accidentally placed the velcro so that it only adjusts to a larger size. So I need to add more velcro if I want to be able to make the belt smaller. (Hopefully one day I'll need to... one day...)
So this is about a year's worth of work (off and on). I've remade parts of it, some parts multiple times. I've gone long stretches of time ignoring it. Other stretches of time leaving it out just so I could look at it. There are some things I wish I'd done different. But overall, I'm pretty happy. This is the first time I've really challenged myself on a sewing project. It's also the first time I've ever taken my time on a sewing project, and it shows. So often, I used to rush through projects because I was convinced I could get them done quickly, then I'd get frustrated and start cutting corners. (*coughcoughbeltbucklecough*). I'm just glad the hyperfixation on this project never really gave out.
The first time I made them, I used a fabric I'd found at Joann's before they closed. For whatever reason, I was convinced I needed a patterned fabric for this part of the suit, and it was the closest I could find to what it should look like.
And it was all well and good, especially from a distance. But the more of the suit I completed, the more I wished it looked more accurate. And it took me an embarrassingly long time to realize that it should have been a layer of mesh over silver fabric.
So attempt two happened. And all in all, it's the most show accurate in appearance. But it was really difficult to wear. It didn't have the stretch I'd hoped for (those swatches I'd ordered were deceptive). And honestly, I think the silver fabric was a bit too shiny. The limited stretch and extra shine combined also just made the fabric look horrible on my already plus-sized limbs. In addition, I couldn't really get the pants to stay up (though that I think was in part because of how I constructed them). And the worst part, was how little the material breathed -- not ideal if I want to wear this for hours at a convention.
So that leaves attempt number three. I found this silvery-gray spandex, pretty much the same exact fabric as the purple part of the suit. I went to go buy more of the mesh, but at the time, Mood Fabrics was updating their website, and I couldn't get into my account for a few days. So I bought something I found on etsy instead, convinced mostly by the promise that it was super stretchy. (It is).
It looks less accurate, and it does bug me, but it's infinitely more comfortable than either of my previous attempts. And I just have to keep reminding myself that 1) I'm not competing, so accuracy isn't all that important, and 2) this is a non-canon, fan-made character, who is an "extra/special" ranger, so she can look a little different. Right?
Anyway, I'm planning on going to a convention at the end of the month. I already bought my ticket. And I hope that I don't talk myself out of it. (Driving to new places... finding parking... eugh).
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I made a wearable helmet to go with my ranger cosplay.
I'd been toying with this for a while now. I just wasn't happy with the one I'd made previously, and I really wanted one I could wear.
Is it perfect? No. Is it sloppy? Very. Is it missing a back because it was the only way I could put this thing on, and I was too lazy to figure out a way to make it reattachable? Yes. But who needs cosplay photos from the back anyway?
I'm so much happier with this than I was with the old helmet. For one, realizing that I could add a crease to the gold frame made all the difference in getting the foam to form to the shape of the helmet better. I also acquired a fox stamp for the emblem on the front, so that I didn't have to use a button that looks more like a squirrel once painted.
I got a little sloppier with sealing the seems and sanding (especially since I don't have the tools needed for that, nor a well-ventilated place). Also got a little lazier with the paint job this time around, and I'll forever be fighting the battle of getting the right shade of purple.
But I am just so much happier with this. It looks so much more like I envisioned, in large part thanks to the piece I commissioned. And I can wear it! I can wear my full cosplay and wear a helmet, and pretend that it has the retractable visor that Ninja Storm is known for. (And that totally wasn't me just being lazy about not wanting to figure out how to make a visor I could see through).
Maybe one day I'll be able to pay someone to make me a quality 3d printed version, one with a visor, and a back... but until then, I've got my EVA foam helmet, that honestly, I'm pretty proud of. Especially for a sudden, hyperfixation fueled project.
I figured it I'm going to a convention this year, in cosplay, having a bag would be a good idea. And I figured it'd be an even better idea for it to fit the theme. So I stitched together some patches and sewed them onto the bag. One side is the ninja academy symbol. And on the other I put my ranger's symbol (so that if I somehow lose the bag at the convention, everyone will know who it belongs to).
Been planning on re-making the pants for my power rangers cosplay. Started toying with the idea of going with a different silver fabric, which would mean also remaking the sleeves, which would mean needing to buy more fishnet/mesh fabric.
Went to go log in to my mood fabrics account, because that's where I bought the fishnet/mesh, and they updated the website today... whole new look... and I can't log in. Keeps telling me my email and/or password is wrong. I'm not getting the password reset email I asked for hoping that would bypass the problem...
Now I've turned to etsy, and found possibly a better silver fabric. But I might have to resort to unpicking the stitches of my previously made sleeves, and hoping I don't ruin them in the process. (Or I take the chance on a similar looking fabric on etsy).
That'll teach me to get reliant on a single store. I'm more going to mourn all the fabric I'd had saved in my wishlists.
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Oh yeah, also thinking of remaking my helmet. Not just thinking... I bought some air dry clay and jewelry wire... going to try to make a version of the helmet that I can wear, and with the face visor open (the way that Ninja Storm does it). I cannot for the life of me manage to get the gold frame on the helmet look right in foam, but maybe if I sculpt it with clay?
The bodice looks so much better on me with boning. I used large/thick zip ties. But I did order some ridgeline boning to use on the next one. (Haven't received it yet, so I may or may not commit to it).
When the pattern says to use only one layer of tulle, use only one layer. I got a little overzealous, thinking I could double each row of tulle for more opacity. But it just became very difficult to work with, and made the skirt way bigger than what I wanted. But, given my red and black test skirt wasn't as gathered, I probably won't need to double up these layers to get the effect I want.
However, when the pattern says to sew the back seam before attaching to the basque, ignore it, because it's so much harder to work with it this way. Next time, I'll sew the back seam up later.
Tulle is very slippery when lying on laminate flooring. That same flooring hurts to land on.
So, yeah. This was just the mock up. I have fabric for the bodice on the way, though I already have two fabrics for two other bodices I can also make. Helena tutu is priority though. I think I'll make the back sections a little wider. But overall, I'm happy with how just this test turned out, so I'm feeling a little confident.
I don't pick the hyperfixation. The hyperfixation picks me. So the purple ranger has taken a seat on the back burner (belt still unfinished), as has Dante. And Act III Maelle isn't even in the room with us yet. And I've been focusing on my Helena inspired tutu.
First I tried a pattern I got off of etsy from an actual tutu maker, so I thought it would be legit. It is, far as I can tell, it just wasn't what I was hoping for. For one, the largest size was too small. And I figured it would be, but a part of me was thinking I could make it work with some sort of modesty panel in the back for the hooks and eyes. But I was kidding myself. I'm too fat for their largest size, it doesn't even fit the front of me right. And I just wasn't a fan of how it looked anyway.
I'm also pretty sure I put the back on backwards, but the notches were identical, and lined up whichever way I tried.
(All of these pictures are just using spare fabric from my stash, by the way.)
Then I tried the McCall's pattern I had. Better, in that I like the way the front looks with the center seam. But even the size I thought would fit was too small (and actually the same size as the other one, just about). Also, way too short for what I'm looking to do.
So I tried the largest size, and I added 5 inches of length to each panel, and I'm much happier with it. At least the length anyway. The back barely fits, and by barely I mean, it still doesn't really fit (at least, once I turn in the ends), but I think I can get away with that modesty panel this time, and then nix it if I loose some weight.
And the skirt I'm wearing is for reference for where the red waist band would go, and where the tulle would start to fall.
(Also note, this is far from finished. It's lacking the boning, and the facing along the top).
That being said, I'm wearing shape ware under this latest attempt, and I'm looking at myself in it, and thinking... wow she's wide. So, I'm second guessing if I want to move forward with this project while looking so... wide, in all directions. Especially with the horizontal waist band. I mean, maybe I could do a version where the red follows the pointed hem of the bodice, (which kind of looks better) and have the tulle flow out underneath (as the pattern intends), but that wouldn't be accurate. But I'm also not making a 100% accurate Helena dress, it's supposed to be a Helena inspired tutu. So I guess it could be different.
But ya girl is wide, so lemme think about this for a while.
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I made the 1/4 size dress form in the hopes I can use it to figure out how to make something for an E33 cosplay somewhere down the line. (Dress form pattern here).
But instead I decided to work on a Helena inspired tutu. I'm planning on making one me-sized, but I really wanted to try to make one for the dress form so that it would have something to wear. (It's not done yet). (Tutu bodice pattern here. I printed it at 1/4 scale).
Because I have the drawing talent of a seashell (i.e. none), I commissioned this art of my oc ranger/cosplay character. The artist, Swiss, can be found on instagram, and also on etsy. Definitely check them out if you want some art of any of your oc's.
I absolutely love this image. Cosplaying the character was fun, but seeing it in this form? I don't know, I can't explain how much I love it. Look at her! This is how she should really look. (Not like me). And that helmet? Amazing. I could never really get it to look the way I envisioned it, with my crude redraw of the blue helmet that I'd been using as my profile picture being the closest. Somehow, with just that as a reference, Swiss managed to nail how it looked in my head. Like, finally this girl looks like she could stand with the rest of the Ninja Storm rangers.
Now, I just have to figure out how to remake my foam helmet to look like this.
Because initially, my plan was to have my purple ranger have a sort of armor. After all the "lore" is that her morpher was modeled after the Wind Ranger morphers, but using parts salvaged from the Samurai Ranger morpher, so it has to have elements of both. And especially with her being a sixth/extra ranger (I guess technically seventh, but green isn't active in this lore), she's gotta look a little extra special. That's why there's extra gold trim. That's why the helmet has a pointed gold section like Cam's. That's why I wanted her to have armor, like Cam.
But I cannot for the life of me figure out an appropriate armor that looks like Cam's, that doesn't cover the image on the chest, but also doesn't look too much like the shoulder pads on the Thunder Rangers.
And then I started thinking about how her helmet is kind of more like Cam's when he's in Super Samurai Mode, rather than his regular mode. And you know what? He doesn't wear his armor in Super Samurai mode. So maybe... maybe she shouldn't have armor. Maybe this isn't just me being lazy. Maybe this actually makes sense, lore-wise.
Remember when I said part of the reason why I wanted to remake part of the suit was because I didn't think the fabric breathed that well? Well oh boy, is this new fabric worse. But, it looks more show accurate, so there's that, I guess.
It also has way less stretch than the previous fabric. So it barely fits. (More incentive to lose those pounds, I guess). Also, there's like, no traction between the pants and the shapewear I wear underneath, so the pants keep sliding down, even though they're super tight. Go figure. Maybe I can find some of that elastic stuff that's actually on the inside of the legs of my shapewear that's supposed to keep it in place, and sew that to the inner waistband.
Anyway, with the legs/arms remade, I'm very close to finishing this cosplay. Still need a belt, belt buckle, and the white neck piece to be "done." Still need to hem/finish the edges of the arms/legs. I'm thinking about remaking my helmet to make it wearable. And maybe some armor if I can ever figure out a design for it.
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In which this thing just keeps getting more expensive.
After dragging my feet on it, I finally made the pants. (And they have pockets!) But it was after making them, that I decided, I have to remake them.
I mean, they're fine, technically, but I'm not happy with the fabric. When I originally decided to start working on this cosplay, my only option for buying fabric was Joanne's. Or at least, it was the only place I'd bothered to look. And the day I found the perfect purple fabric, I also found a cosplay-specific fabric that looked closer to what I needed for the arms and legs than anything I'd ever found before. The label said "chain print knit," and I knew it wasn't right, but I thought it would look good enough from far away.
And, yeah. Kind of. But it took me far too long to realize that the arms (and in the case of Tori, legs) of the Ninja Storm suits are actually two layers, one of a silver-y spandex and one of a black netting/mesh. (And not, in fact, a silver fabric with a grid pattern printed on it. Dumb me). Also, this fabric is kind of thick and doesn't really breathe. Great in that it seems resistant to fraying, but not so great for a potentially long day at a convention. So I bought some fabric swatches to see if I could make it work, the right way, and unfortunately, I can.
(Looks better in person, I swear. And even the netting stretches).
I say "unfortunately" because it means I decided to spend the money to buy the fabric, so that I can remake the arm/leg layer. Thankfully, they were actually super easy to sew compared to everything related to the purple fabric.
I also tried making some gloves. Not technically hard, (although the first time I somehow managed to sew right side to wrong side without realizing it until I tried to pull on the glove). But I was not happy with the fabric I'd chosen. They just didn't look right. They also kind of smelled weird. So I decided to just buy a pair of power ranger specific cosplay gloves off of etsy. I'm a little annoyed knowing that that's another piece of the cosplay that I didn't make by hand, but I think they were worth it. And tonight I finished the hand guards. Just more of the fabric wrapped around stiff felt, and velcro'd to the gloves.
Feeling closer and closer to an actual power ranger now.
The only thing is that I think I have to abandon the detail on the bottom cuff of the arm bracer. I sewed the pieces with the intention of gluing them on with contact cement. But apparently, this fabric doesn't glue. I tried sewing them on, but the layers are too thick for my machine, and for my patience with a hand needle. I also tried using sticky velcro, which did stick enough, but the added height looked awful. The more I think about it, it's probably better without the added detail. No matter what I did, it looked kind of worse and more amateur with it applied. So you know what.... she's a sixth ranger. She's special. Her arm bands look different intentionally.
These arm guards, or cuffs, or whatever they're considered, have been stressful. I thought I knew what I was doing going in, learned very quickly it wouldn't be that easy, but then they turned out fine anyway. Somehow.
They're not perfect. I couldn't find a plasticky/leathery material in the shade of purple I needed (or anything close), so I'm using the spandex of the suit. It's not ideal, but I think it still works. Sewed two panels together and slid in some foam for structure. Then added the trim to ends.
They close with velcro on the opposite side, which took me a while to figure out. That was probably actually the worst part. Learned the hard way that attaching velcro to only the stretchy fabric does not for a very secure closure make. There went my attempt at hiding the stitches. Toyed with the idea of using a zipper, but since I couldn't find one the right length, I went back to the velcro, and while I didn't take a picture of the opposite side, I assure you, it looks pretty decent, and not too unlike the official show suits. Thankfully I found a thread that matches almost exactly to the fabric anyway, so it's not too offensive. (And I mean, could you even tell that I did a stitch in the ditch for the trim? Tell me that doesn't look clean).
For the left arm, I essentially sewed some long button-holes and cut through the whole thing so I could thread the straps of the morpher through.
I am just so happy with how these turned out. They've been giving me grief for a week now. I still have some detail to add to the bottom of the cuffs, but that's mostly a matter of covering some rectangles and attaching them to the wrists, so probably more glue than thread.