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If u message me about being a mommy account i’ll tell you to kill yourself

I don’t post anymore because i hate this community and wish i could have the abdl part of my brain removed but being the sad lonely person i am i just load up tumblr for some cheap dopamine

my life has progressed and idk if i’m better of or worse or in the same place

but i’m thinking of making a return

sorry to burst your bubble but uk college is not the same as american college, i have done the equivalent of flunking the last 2 years of highschool so i have no chance at university (or american college) and with how i am with deadlines i would just fail and end up in debt

you’re not gonna be proud for long, cause unlike all of you i know where my life is rn and i know that im not a good person so i stand by what i said about myself

yk id rather they just never happened at all to be honest, and im a virgin, i wont lie i only said yes to the last person who “wanted to date me” because id heard that “she was easy”, but she wasn’t just “easy” to me i thought she was sweet and to this day she’s still one of the best looking people ive met, but girls who do cocaine are always psychopaths so i can’t say im surprised she got bored but i was so desperate to lose my virginity cause all i hear my friends tell me is “once you’ve had sex it makes sense to pull girls” and they even tried getting me a prostitute when i was in amsterdam but i said i “wanna lose it to someone special” which just ain’t the way of the world

Its not your fault and it never will be your fault just for HAVING something in you that you resent and hate. Life is far too short for such things. It doesnt define you fully nor will it ever. I know its all limp-wristed, I cant say much, but I truly believe that it takes a little shove to climb and ascend.

i’m sorry for everyone i’ve been a dick too

i wish great things for all the people who genuinely do want to help me, and i hope you find a good place to channel that but i am not a good person, i dont know how long it will take everyone to realise im a shitty person but for the last segment of posts i’ve been writing my thoughts as i think

i don’t expect people to genuinely reach out cause i don’t see myself as worth helping

and what shocking facts would you like?

how about the fact i grew up with an abusive dad, and that i woke up in the night to him abusing my mum multiple times while i was less than 10, how i’ve blocked most of my childhood from my memory, and how i was made to go to so many events for my whole childhood cause “it will look good for when you get a job” that i got completely burnt out from doing any outside events so i hate going out and being social

and can’t forget then failing college twice so i can’t even get a sustainable job, so i’ve been working at a fast food place since i was the legal age to work and all i think about while im on shift is killing myself

and don’t start on relationship pasts cause we already know how toxic i am, never once successfully asked someone out, it ended with rejection every time, if i’ve been asked out it ended after the first or second date, they never told me what i did, they just gave the old “it’s not you it’s me” as an easy way out

matter of fact a story on why i don’t ask people out, i went to maccies once when i was about 14 with a mate and 2 girls came over and asked for my snap, me being 14 and having never dated successfully i was very happy and we eventually met later, one asked if i would date her and i said if i got to know her i would. they then started berating me and followed me for a good 20 minutes just harassing me, recording me, telling me they were gonna get their guy friends to batter me, so that killed my self confidence in a heartbeat

hope you liked my rant

maybe, maybe not, i’m not posting again so there’s no downside to tarnishing my already below standard reputation

i’d say it would fix me but that’s a selfish assumption

wtf kind of question is this

genuinely what provoked this