I'm not flawed, just a little under-rehearsed.

I literally cannot stop thinking about Ilya cutting himself off from the people who want to be his support system. He's making excuses to Yuna and David, repeatedly missing dinners, he never goes out with the team anymore, he's ignoring Svetlana's increasingly persistent texts and calls. He's trapped in his mind. They don't deserve to have to be around him. He can't handle disappointing them. He can't bear to look in their faces and see pity. He still sees Shane when he can but it's not as often as he'd hoped and usually only for a few hours or maybe a night and he's been on the road for days now. Ilya is spiralling. He's barely been able to get out of bed for days. The house is a mess. When someone starts banging on his door, he tries to ignore it, wills them to go away, acts like he isn't home. They don't let up. When he eventually answers and comes face to face with Svetlana he can see frustration and anger melting away as she looks at his face. She takes him in. Neither of them says anything. He feels flayed. He feels too open, too vulnerable, too numb to do anything about it. The look on her face isn't pity. It's a bone deep sadness and that's his fault. He's hurting her just by existing around her. She shouldn't have come. She's the first to break the silence and all she says is, "oh, Ilyusha, it's bad," before stepping in and wrapping her arms around him so tight that there is no where he could go. So tight that it forces the air out of him. So tight that it feels like something in the vast nothingness he's been floating in.

AAAAA [explodes and dies but survives unharmed]

Lets dissect uncle to find his wish gland

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