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padahal sempat redup setelah perpisahan kita

Jariku menggeser satu-satu potret tawamu

bibirmu yang tak lagi terkatup

cangkir kopimu yang tak lagi sendiri

kini bisa kuamati

hatimu sudah ada yang mengisi

“Apakah kau cemburu?” tanya kawanku di jendela pesan yang penuh dengan kata-kata usang kerinduan

Aku menggeleng yakin

karena tak mungkin

melanjutkan cerita yang ujungnya hanyalah kemustahilan

Senyummu yang bahagia

sudah cukup mengirimku tanda tamat

tak ada sesal yang memberat

kau berarti, namun geliat senangmu jauh  lebih kuingini

meski

bukan

Dear You

Do you know how much time I count to see you?

We have our own life

Trying to grab our dreams

Spreading our wings

In every night I see your pictures

I find myself smiling

But, just a second later, I’m almost bawling

You sent me a short chat

Asking my day, giving me your cooking pictures

Only a week later before my departure

You made me want to stay here, then

running to your house

Hugging you as my home

“Are you missing me? Missing our days to be together in one place?”

I asked you again, maybe countless times

Please, don’t be annoyed

I’m just a man who is crazy over your existence

Our moments were running in my mind

You typed

I waited

A moment of silence

You typed again

I was nervous

“You can feel it through my text, my cooking pictures, and how we stare at the stars outside the window while talking each other.”

Aku manusia biasa.yang menanti dari sahara keterasingan

Aku bukanlah dewa.yang dapat seenaknya

terbang membentangkan sayap cakrawala

Tapi kekuatan hatiku luar biasa

karena mampu menopang kalut

atau menahan hujan embun mengalir melalui mataku

Lalu kapankah?

Dia akan segera terjaga.dari tidurnya

yang sudah satu dekade lamanya

Semoga ketika ia kembali

sepotong kenangan tentangku

Old song replayed in the corner of the bar

when you promise to see me after the rush hour

I notice that this song settled in the soft place

of your heart

It is funny

I am so flustered by this song

why is it replayed in this night?

I have made a long playlist

to give you a new memories

not to celebrate the old one

Everyone is clapping and singing

except me who is still thinking

Then, you touch my nose

smiling

“How can you daydreaming?”

You are here, standing besides me with the old song is sung happily

Those fingers are yours

carrying mine to dance

You change the CD and turn on my favorite chorus

“I need a new song to make my best time with you.”

then my doubtness

Heartbeat invited us

Made me saw you

Made you looked at me

Because of love

Even the beat skipped

I hold your hand tighter

You hug me warmer

Because you give your heart

Because

I

Love

I'm fragile

Upset every morning till night

Cold

Wanna hold

On your arm

You call my name

My heart skipping ashame

What to do?

I want to melt

To your voice's rythm

That past scar

Had been erased

Throw it to the Far

Cause your simplicity

Wiping my tears

Sun rises up

shining above

the heat summer on your soul

Longing to you

similar with the mountain climber

Ignoring the dark scariness

to welcoming dawn

A wise person says

if the darkest night

is the sign before the sunrise comes

I don’t know the meaning till

I meet you in a long breezy autumn

Losing some faiths in love and

suddenly you come with a big wide smile

Well, the wise quote is really true

Your charm

lead me to the edge of day

no wasting time

A few month passed

I walk through the road

when I tease you often

from the red light until it becomes green

Do you now?

Every morning is the new misery for me

I pack up my backpack, driving my car to the street, sitting on my office desk

Just for missing you like a jerk

I never believe in your confession

Your journey just to find me?

Nonsense

But after you tell me about your departure

I start losing my sanity

for sure

So a phone calling from you

Erasing all of the void

I go home earlier

Driving my vehicle faster

Your tall shadow and your shy smile are floating in my thought

I'm almost running out of my breath

Parking my blue car and checking my face on the mirror

Suddenly my mind is freezing, death

"Are you waiting for me?" you ask

No explanation

I run

I smell your fragrance, giving a chance for me to taste your existence

"Stupid, bogoshipposo, I miss you, my King."

Jalanan basah pagi ini menggoda mata,

sayup-sayup seperti perempuan penggoda

di sudut kelam kota

menuntut untuk tunaikan tidur yang tak cukup

Sepanjang jalan

orang-orang jarang tersenyum

jalanan basah menodai kendaraan

pakaian lembab sisa hujan semalam

Seperti jalanan yang tak tahu kapan akan kering

mungkin pula dengan jalan hidup kita sendiri

kapan akan berujung

pada masing-masing belahan hati

Bukankah kita sudah merindukan

Apa kabar?

ingin sekali kuucap padamu

sebaris tanya itu

ragu menjadi hantu

Sudahkah kamu jatuh cinta?

kelu jika saja benar ada seseorang di hatimu

aku tak ada hak menghalangi

kisah kita telah ribuan hari tertutup rapi

Maka ketika sepenggal saja

ada namamu

di jendela pesanku

meski jika kita dimiliki sosok yang baru

ingatlah

aku begitu merindukanmu

One day we walk near the sunset

You hold my hand and playing your fingers around mine

But I catch a fear in your eyes

“What are you thinking?”

Your deep eyes is blinking

“I want this day will stay longer,”

I stare at your flowing hair

Before I touch it, you make a move, sweeping my head calmly

But I feel your worry

“It may be possible, or...”

Your teary eyes start to float

I remember the day we laugh

I’m reminded of the day we were bickering

They day when you hug me firstly

“Impossible to see your face everyday...” you say.

“Today is ours. Possible. I’m possible to recite your name every single day.”

“But tomorrow?” Again. Your word is on hold

“This minute I’m yours. Tomorrow will be the same.”

You’re mumbling my last sentence

“How if...”

Your lips is sealed

I kiss your lip to stop your ‘what if..’

Your breath becomes heavier

It’s still summer

I know the day could be hotter

But my heart is pounding, cold

You call her as a Sun

Every time you walk through the gate

You will count how long and how many days

Since the last day you met

Missing the light in her eyes

Imagining the rainbow in her laugh

Feeling the bless

The journey is still far

No one can predict the pain

Even your scar is hurting

You still sing your pray

To get the sunrise

In her pretty face

Don’t worry

The sunset is eternal

Like your touch

Like your kiss on her forehead

Staring the orange beauty

Jejak mayamu kembali

muncul di pemberitahuan layarku

Tak ada sapa

Hanya jejak

Remah hatiku menggeliat

namun

Sebentar saja menguap lenyap

Kini

Hatiku patuh pada perintah

Sampai nanti

Waktu itu kau belum tahu

betapa menyiksa jarak yang tidak hanya satu depa

kau menunggu dengan setia

ikat rambutmu bahkan terikat di pergelangan tangannya

Pagi menjelang

berganti petang

Hidupmu yang biasa, sesekali peluh mengalir di malam sepi

Seolah kau melupa, tetapi ada hampa tiada bisa dipungkiri

Maka ketika

suara itu menyambutmu di gerbang rumah

Kakimu tak butuh aba-aba

Tanganmu tak butuh ditunjukkan arah

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