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NOT spoiler free.Β contains triggering subjects: missing persons, age gaps mentions, + more. please read and reblog with caution.
β iβm guilty for loving him/her/them. and for hating him/her/them. for killing him/her/them.Β β
β iβm guilty for loving him/her/them.Β β
β iβm guilty for killing him/her/them.Β βΒ
β if you search her/him/them room, youβll probably find it.Β β
β youβre not lying.Β β
β i didnβt see you.Β βΒ
β i saw a woman/man living freely. not in a basement.Β β
β it didnβt make sense for a missing person to be in the living room making a call.Β β
β have you kissed someone significantly older?Β β
β are you daring me to?Β β
β iΒ think because of our friendship, itβs where it all went wrong.Β β
βΒ Β youβre officially a missing person. the police are looking for you.Β β
βΒ Β friendship happens between two willing parties.Β β
β given the power dynamic between you, i wouldnβt call it that.Β β
β i can fix this. iβll go home. iβll tell them..Β β
β iΒ donβt know. i told you iβm not a good liar.Β β
β i need your help.Β β
βΒ Β you kinda made it open season when you gave her/him/them a black eye!Β β
β why did you do it?Β β
β iΒ didnβt have a reason not to believe her/him/them.Β β
β i donβt care! you abandoned me!Β β
β why isnβt she/he/they running faster?Β β
β then why would you send this letter?!Β β
β iΒ will die trying to protect you from everything.Β β
β thatβs a pretty big commitment at sixteen.Β β
β itβs a little bit of a stretch, donβt you think?Β β
β iΒ know, just β¦ call it a motherβs/fatherβs intuition. i feel it in my bones.Β β
β youβre so smart, youβre open, and youβre bold.Β β
βΒ iβm glad, and surprised that we can just sit here together like this. β
β iΒ want to believe you, butβ¦Β β
β i saw you with my own eyes.Β β
β i followed you that night!Β β
β why are you doing this?Β β
β youβve built a fortress around yourself for good reason.Β β
β you deserve kindness, [name:optional.]
β being on your side cost me my job, my reputation, my family as i once knew it.Β β
β can i confess something?Β β
β i used to really dislike you, like a lot.Β β
β i donβt hear that very often.Β βΒ
β secrets are scary because everybody has them.Β β
β well, sleep tight. donβt let the bed bugs bite.Β β
β our parents have been basically married for a decade and weβre pretty much strangers.Β β
β talking might help. i can listen.Β β
β a therapist is not a sister/brother.Β β
β iΒ donβt go hunting without arming up first.Β β
βΒ Β you are actually trash, [name:optional]!
βΒ Β really? what? no mocking whatsoever?!Β β
β iΒ need to ask you something, and you need to tell me the truth.Β β
β how many times have you been inside this house?Β β
β i got addicted to the rush of it.Β β
β i donβt know whatβs going on but, iβm here.Β β
β you can say that i pulled away from you but you pulled away from me too.Β β
β iΒ donβt understand where all this rage is coming from.Β β
βΒ but if you want to talk, you know where to find me.Β β
β god, you sound just like her/him/them.Β β
β iβm so sorry. i jumped to conclusions and i didnβtβ¦Β β
β youβre embarrassing yourself.Β β
β as i very clearly stated, i donβt want to speak with you in this moment.Β β
β did you see her/him/them?Β β
β i just donβt know what to think.Β β
β you know i would never lie to you. i would never lie to you, okay?Β β
β you know i would never lie to you.Β β
β [name:optional], i hope you rot in hell!Β β
β you are getting out and dancing with me this time.Β β
β if anyone can hear me, itβs [name:optional].Β β
β that feeling is called guilt.Β β
β leave her/him/them alone.Β β
β youβre my new favorite person too.Β β
β youβre like my favorite person, maybe ever.Β β
β i was raised to be afraid of disappointing anybody.Β β
β christmas was truly the first time i really afraid of him/her/them.Β β
β making me doubt myself is so much worse.Β β
β you look awfully young to be an assistant principle.Β β
β you donβt know what youβre saying.Β β
β i think you should call the cops on me.Β β
β i think iβd be the prettiest girl in all of jail.Β β
β really nice smile, by the way.Β β
β i still donβt get why coffee smells so good yet tastes so bad.Β β
β i feel like i just disappeared and she just took my place.Β β
β i feel replaceable and itβs not a good feeling.Β β
β how did it happen?Β β
β iβm not sure you really want to hear about that.Β β
β so thatβs a no, then.Β β
β thereβs not a magic pill that fixes things.Β β
β we can do the work.Β β
β i believed everything you said.Β β
β i did everything you asked.Β β
β the moment that i questioned you, you tore into me.Β β
β you raised me to be blindly obedient.Β β
β my whole life, you have been toting me around like one of your purses.Β β
β why did you bring her/him/them down here?Β β
β hardly anyone knows who i am and i love snacks.Β β
βΒ iβm going to be less like myself and more like what you want me to be.Β β
β can you not see how cruel that is?Β β
β can you not see how you ruined my life!Β β
β you didnβt even want it!Β β
β you stole what was basically my trauma journal and shared it in a courtroom.Β β
β we are just a few months away from the trail.Β β
β youβre not giving the impression that youβre the wronged party here.Β β
β i am the most hated person in the nation.Β β
β and you want me to be more like her/him/them?Β β
β we all want what we canβt have even if we have to change ourselves to get it.Β β
β there are some moments in life that changes forever.Β β
β you really like her/him/them, huh?Β β
β can you please just give me a minute.Β β
β itβs never going to be normal again.. is it?Β β
β you know, i canβt even remember when it ever was.Β β
β whatβs happening to you.. i canβt even imagine.Β β
β i have no one. i have nothing.Β β
β [name:optional] isnβt who you think she/he/they is.
β we have evil living among us. right beneath our noses.Β β
β good aim. iβm impressed.Β β
β itβs a pretty lame and embarrassing first impression.Β β
β okay, well, iβm not leaving until you tell me.Β β
β why didnβt you say hi?Β β
β look, i know what iβm doing.Β β
β are you still on my side?Β β
β your memoryβs been shaking since the trauma.Β β
β donβt you think itβs possible you didnβt see what you think you saw?Β β
β itβs kind of hard to tell which way is up these days.Β β
β i need to tell you something that is a long time coming.. you were right.Β β
β we kissed and i lied to you about it.Β β
β you deserve the truth.Β β
β iβm really really sorry. i really donβt know what else to say.Β β
β do you want to hit me?Β β
β thatβs the nicest thing youβve ever done for me.Β β