Aieon

My life will not end at the hand of fate but instead by my own.

Blaming myself for letting myself get walked over and giving into their every demand. Ended up alone because I was too forgiving and can never see their fault in their mistakes, but only mine.

I’m tired of being trapped inside my head. These bad thoughts just won’t go away.

With every passing day, I’m finding it harder to keep living.

After every goodbye with you, I keep thinking of the day we’ll find home in each other.

The weight of the world – past, present and future is getting to me. When will this black cloud looming over me float away? When will this depression fade? When will I start feeling like me again? When will I be happy?

I would steal the stars for you, would you do the same?

You’ve broken my heart, shattered it into thousands of little pieces. And I can’t seem to find a way to put them back together again.

Why do I keep pushing you away even though you’re all that I want?

The mind is a dangerous place.

I want our bodies to fall and melt into each other; our hearts becoming one.

And here I lay alone, dreaming of your gentle touch; for you to hold me against your body again. With your arms wrapped tightly and longingly, with your hands that fit perfectly in mine, with my head resting on your heaving chest, two hearts beating as one. Being so far away from you is something I will never get used to.