What Is This Shit?

often my answer was a soft i don’t know. an i-got-tired when actually it was more like - i couldn’t. i just couldn’t. it feels like everything is covered in snow. don’t you know that i’m mad at myself too? i want this stuff just as much as you do. i want to live in a clean house with good food and have an okay job and know i’m not disappointing the people i’m coming home to. i don’t like missing opportunities and having to scramble in a panic about last-minute things.

i’m a fully grown adult. she is posing for a pic on insta. if you want a life like this, go out and get it. it’s 2pm and i haven’t eaten breakfast. i am staring at the space where i should be working. 

https://twitter.com/ACLUMN/status/1269738051498106880?s=19

one of my friends sent me this, and people thought i was CRAZY for preferring lowe’s over home depot. i’ve worked at lowe’s for a while, and let me tell you, they 100% pass the vibe check. they’re offering full time, paid 2-week sick leave for the virus, tuition payback, health insurance, and other benefits to all employees, not just full time. they offered us hazard pay and unlimited overtime to help employees make ends meet when their family members were laid off. we have a self-made, black CEO, Marvin Ellison, who started out working as a cashier making minimum wage, then went to school and got his masters degree, and worked his way up. we have community projects every year to donate labor and resources to build things like shelters, parks, and infrastructure, and we have a good time doing it. on top of that, they’re very diversity-driven. in my store alone, we have veteran, disabled, black, lesbian, gay, bi, and trans employees, and not ONCE has anyone been made fun of, treated differently, paid differently or even misgendered. and yep, we did donate 25m to minorities.

(Cont) a split second could mean death. Then teach you how to profile but "we dont profile" wink nudge. So you show up see a man bent over a woman when someone calls, says they heard screaming. React. Guy is raping her. Nope. She was having a seizure. He was her helper. Friend of mine attacked him. Easy mistake when they teach you that. Friends quits bc of guilt. Me? Always got reamed bc I didnt give out enough fucking tickets. Fuck that. "Find curfew breakers. Find lapse insurance." (Cont)

(Cont) I would sit in parking lots running random license plates while all my coworkers ride on people's asses in the middle of the night to trick them into speeding. Its not about upholding the law and arresting criminal. You're a fucking snitch, trying to fin ANY lawbreaker bc you can't be lazy. Then you see some fucked up shit. Little girl goes missing. Find her in a creek, head cracked up on a rock. Animals picked at her for a few days. You get desensitized or you can't do the job. (Cont)

(Cont) so you get numb to screaming and dead bodies and girls crying about boyfriends raping them or you go nuts. Me I thought well this small town they donr have Real Problems so they make me chase down 15 year olds with a cigarette to hand over tobacco tickets. I won't do that so the other guys relentlessly bully me for being a pussy lazy PoS. I go to city with real problems. Same damn thing. "Search for criminals! If you dont find enough you're lazy!" We aren't sitting around til you (cont)

(Cont) til you break the law we are looking for it even if its dumb shit. And then you go someplace big and tell you to look for suspicious things. Blackddues in nice suits are pimps. Black dudes in nice cars are dealers. Black women are crazy and best their boyfriends. Latina lie about being raped to get revenge. That's just how it is. So you say hell no. They eat you alive. If you need therapy you're a pussy. Hostage situation, black dude with knife holding a woman. I talk him down. (Cont)

(Cont) Guy gets arrested. I get pulled into the office and yelled at for NOT shooting him. Saved his life and hers and I got in trouble. Had to file paperwork. Didnt make any friends because they ront trust me. Cops will do drugs on weekends then arrest people for doing the same so they get their "quota" (which wink nudge dont exist). If a cop does something bad and you do the right thing and "rat him out" they will harass you. Found myself relocated when I testified against another cop. (Cont)

(Cont) Go to a different place. Same fucking shit. Cops get paid shit, taught to react first based on assumption, taught to specifically assume racist shit, taught to go OUT of their way to FIND shit, get thrown into an atmosphere of bullying if you dont comply, then get desensitized to shit. If you're a good cop, You won't make it , bc you can't come out of that shit safe. I quit before I was forty. I'm fifty now and work in a mine. Fuck cops.

Ps - former cop - using my niece's tumblr bc she showed me this, which is why I'm using anonymous. Not trying to harass anybody.

Copying anon’s follow up messages above to have the whole story in one place.

DO NOT BOYCOTT LUSH NORTH AMERICA!

Lush UK and Lush North America are different!

Lush UK is owned by Mark Constantine, the guy supporting cops.

Lush North America is owned by Mark Wolverton and Karen Delaney-Wolverton and they support Black Lives Matter. This is their Twitter which is full of BLM content and info about allyship, etc. right now.

This is their homepage:

They sent out this letter to their employees and posted it online:

“What’s happening is very dangerous in a way similar to the dictatorships we had to endure in South America, Trump is shielding himself behind religious symbols while trying to seduce people to vote for him in the name of freedom, when it is precisely their freedom that leaders like him plan to abolish.”

“I think Americans are not aware, or don’t have the experience, to realise what it means for the military to be out on the streets in charge of domestic security. In Latin America, unfortunately, we do have a lot of experience with how that can lead to an authoritarian regime irrespective of the fact that Trump was democratically elected.”

Ana María Careaga and Miriam Lewin (Argentina)

“We are convinced that America – a beacon of freedom for many worldwide – has the ability to directly focus on healing and peace and achieve an outcome that prioritises respect for and promotion of fundamental freedoms for all Americans”

“When communities are confronted by both resilient structural violence and attacks on their bodies, violent responses will occur”

Naledi Pandor and The Nelson Mandela Foundation (South Africa)

“Trump is himself the problem. Beneath the surface, Trump is a white supremacist”

“Trump is tearing apart America. He doesn’t need to send the troops. This will hurt the US’s international image. All of this is about the fight for justice, rights and equality. Whether it is Hong Kong or the US, people need to differentiate between violence and the fight for justice.”

“You can see an absolute absence of moral legitimacy in the activities of all great powers, from Putin in Crimea to Trump in Minnesota. When Trump was showing his hypocrisy and arrogance in the Minnesota issue, Chinese nationalists got more legitimacy to say ‘never criticise us again about Hong Kong’.”

Sun Xingjie, a journalist based in Beijing who asked not to be named and Liu Yi (China)

“Trump’s discourse over the protests in the US is a really significant stimulus for Bolsonaro. In a way I think it strengthens him in the Brazilian conservative arena. For him Trump is an inspiration.”

Luís Francisco Carvalho Filho (Brazil)

“Trump is using the pandemic to position himself as a God-given saviour coming to avert an imminent catastrophe. His re-election, should it happen, will be considered – not least by him – as a clear indication that the time is right to push on with his radical, populist rightwing agenda. If that prediction is right, then Covid-19 will come to be seen as not just the bringer of death and recession in the US, but also as the forerunner that paved the way for the destruction of US democracy.”

Cristóbal Rovira Kaltwasser (Spain)

“I fucking love this photo. Where stood the statue of a slaver, stands the raised fist of a proud black man. Share it wide.

Bristol isn't erasing history. They are making it.

How shameful it would be to have to tell your kids and grandkids that - when this happened - when the greatest movement for civil rights swept the world and tore down idols to slavery and inequality and made Western society a better place at last - you stood against it.

Finding #AllLivesMatter on someone's old facebook wall will be like finding Nazi memorabilia in a dead relatives attic.”