Doc Clouds 👨‍⚕️☁️

Better days please

Can I just tap out?

For the past 2 days, I’ve been listening to music again after months of not being in the mood to. Familiar songs now feels different, makes me feel uneasy and new songs causes mixed emotions. Maybe, I think, I chose to avoid feeling these feelings before. Idk. Is it the songs or they are just being an outlet of the feelings I’ve kept in for so long?

And there’s the sudden silence, so silent that it leaves an empty shell filled with the discomfort of ringing sound in the background. Kept listening and listening to it, but none. I can’t hear my favourite sounds anymore. No more laughs, cries, screams of joy/excitement/anger/annoyance, breath sounds, heartbeat, sound of my hair when carressed, and especially the voice, which used to complete my every days.

In a world full of uncertainties, you’re the only one I’m certain about.

Grabe yung energy today, sobrang bigattt >.<