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But today, something hit me.

Maybe I’ve been praying the wrong prayer all along.

Instead of asking God to take my life, why not ask Him to show me how good life can still be? He’s God, nothing is impossible with Him.

So this time, I’m praying, Lord, show me how amazing life can truly be. Surprise me. Remind me why it’s still worth waking up each day. Show me the kind of joy that makes me want to stay.

I needed a government affiliated physician for my medical result, and since applied pa rin ang 4 days of work here, naabutan ako ng cut off.

Good thing I have friends in some agency, doc said I can just bring it to his place for the signature. I’ll just drop it off there anytime para mapirmahan. Thank you, universe! Thank you po, doc!

And random pics sa gallery:

Thought I could replace my rice intake with oatmeal for the meantime. It’s Day 4 now and I’m getting used to the texture. Day 1, halos masuka-suka pa ako kasi texture talaga yung kalaban ko when it comes to food.

I eat twice a day naman, okay ako sa fluids intake ko since I like tea and warm water. I don’t drink soda also. Hindi naman perfect yung diet ko. I can never give up my sweet coffee and bread. Pero so far, I’m happy naman that I’m not starving myself.

Hindi rin naman goal na maging sobrang strict. Just trying to make a few better choices and see what works for me. Four days pa lang naman, but I’m surprised that I’m actually sticking with it.

Day 1 - Oatmeal + nuts, chicken (i realized i don’t like mine sweet)

Day 2 - Oatmeal, fish

Day 3 - Oatmeal, scrambled eggs

The delay used to frustrate me because deep down, I believed I was capable of doing well in the opportunities I was pursuing. I couldn’t understand why I had to go through so many rejections and closed doors when all I wanted was a chance to prove myself.

Looking back now, maybe there were things happening behind the scenes that I simply couldn’t see at the time. Maybe some opportunities were not meant for me, no matter how badly I wanted them.

Then one day, when I had stopped overthinking it and was simply focusing on the life in front of me, it finally happened.

✨I got hired.✨

A new chapter begins. A chance to learn, grow, and become better than I was yesterday. I know there is still a lot to figure out, but today, I am grateful.