DEATH; that’s all that remains— he breathes it, lives it, every moment of every day since he was a child. it is in his blood now, in his bones, and stains his flesh. had he been so foolish? to wish for some measure of normalcy? was he so wrong to try? these are the questions that plague his present, and just like the ghosts, they never let him rest. when he closes his eyes, it is all he can think about.
and this… this is the catalyst for everything thereafter. he knows not to what end he must relive the memory once more, but he watches, and he does not look away. the stench of smoke and decay condenses the air, veiling the fields in a thick and evil fog. the fire spreads, catching everywhere it creeps, the tormented screams of those unable to escape its reach fill the hazy sky. a haunting symphony, one that haunts you, and never lets you go.
amidst the clamour, a young boy, filthy and alone, wades through a sea of bodies. from afar, dimitri watches in silence, an emptiness becoming him. it does not matter what he may scream into the devastation, his sadness and frustration, the open wounds he has to bare… the song remains the same.
♚ : there is nothing here. not in the literal sense, but the figurative: nothingness, nothing, no one - at least in the sense of someone whole that she can identify via those inimitable ten desires that every human possesses. perhaps her first assessment is not accurate in that sense; even the spirits of the dead still have their dreams, after all. no, this is yet different, and the man who stands before her watching this ruinous scene of dread nothing is hollowed out and filled with something else. miko can feel - no, can hear that much, if little else.
perhaps it is sadness then, that fills the void that lies ahead. grief. suffering. there are countless dead, and as many dying. the stench of death is overwhelming, and if she focuses on it too much, miko finds it stifling her hearing. even so, as she takes a step closer to the man in the smoky haze of this death-filled landscape, she wonders: what survives through this? nothing. who lives through this and comes out whole? no one. even in her lifetime, she’d never witnessed such utter devastation directly. the battlefields she’d seen were nothing like this.
the man stands and watches, his back to her as she approaches. what is there to say? silence speaks volumes, but the chance of being misunderstood is there all the same. she doesn’t have it in her to keep quiet anyway.
‘some stories cannot be changed no matter how much we wish for a different ending - this is a tragedy that you cannot rewrite, i’m afraid.’ it is not intended to be a harsh or callous statement, but this horror to which she’s played witness - she must understand it. and if, perhaps, she might help the young man whose existence feels like little more than a hollowed-out mask with no one behind it. that terrible swarm of negative emotion does not allow her much hope. still: she tries. it is the duty of a ruler-come-saint-come-hermit to at least try.
‘what happened to you here? i hope i am allowed to ask that much.’ even if there is no response to be received.