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You guys know how often people try to split the trans part from the man part? Was thinking about how annoying it is in a different way. When I see other trans guys start to pass a bit and get deeply guilty about women walking quickly away, or moving to a different seat on the bus, or not wanting to work with them, the comments are always full of other dudes listing what they do to accommodate or seem friendlier or smaller. And my jaw is on the fucking floor. Because then I remember that most men and mascs on Tumblr are somewhat androgynous five-foot-zip white boys. And this isn't a shot, I love y'all, but it's relevant. Because my first thought when a lady does those things, is: okay racist bitch, I get it. Because for most dudes on this site, transition is the first time they've had multiple instances of women moving away dramatically or purse clutching or pulling out a taser/knife/pepper spray even though you live in the same building or on the same block. I grew up with these things, with women and sometimes men assuming the worst about me simply because I possess both melanin and a resting bitch face. Even when I was a girl in ankle length skirts, and now still when I'm an adult man. Now, back to the division. Because what you hear in most ostensibly progressive online spaces is that, well, you're a man, so it's actually very fine and alright for people in general, women, all trans people, to treat you with suspicion. However, this same behavior is not acceptable in leftist spaces, supposedly, if the recipient is trans or a person of color. That's a clear cut no, of course. Unacceptable bigotry. And honestly it pisses me off to have to see even other trans men/mascs on here posting that they totally understand why people treat them awfully now because men are just terrible in general supposedly , and then right after that post about how supposedly they're against racial profiling and/or how silly the idea of trans people being a threat in bathrooms is. I would just like people to pick one and stick with it. I don't get to cleave myself into parts that fit neatly on either side of an oppression pissing contest. I'm just a guy, trying to live as one whole person. Pissed off and fed up.

the wisdom ive learnt is that becoming part of a friend group 1) takes a long time and 2) involves a lot of feeling awkward and left out at first. there’s nothing terrible about this but if you grew up chronically lonely or have any kind of trauma relating to social isolation this likely feels Really Wrong and activates danger signals. but both fortunately and unfortunately it’s just how becoming close to new people works most of the time

another thing that was not intuitive to me as someone who grew up an autistic loner: basically everyone on the planet is starved for connection all the time and almost everything people do is an attempt to reach out to another. most seemingly illogical interactions and behaviours can be explained by this. you have to take as many of these invitations as you can. even if you're wrong you still attempted to bring more warmth into the world

in class and we were told to pull up chatgpt on our laptops to experiment with and the guy in front of me pulled up a deli menu and started looking at sandwiches

its fun to remember we can use the big text if we want. bonjour motherfuckers. i'm posting loud as hell now.

hey everypony. can you direct me to the nonfiction birding books. thanks.

Trace amounts of Monica in my life

A statistically insignificant level of Monica in my life

My life manufactured in a facility that also processes Monica

Remember when joining fandom as a younger person meant lurking for a bit and figuring out the vibe and etiquette instead of coming in on day one and calling people weirdos for liking weirdo shit in the weirdo factory.

who turned them german mid tag ?

how do you know they were transformed midday?

every time you make art of any kind, a stat that is not visible to the player goes up. also, this is the most important stat in the game

does singing in the shower count as art

does a strong as fuck ice mummy have ice powers

arts degrees r so funny because you go in class and theyre like What Is A Poem? we dont know for sure... and then moral of the story is we don't know what a poem is. and then the worst part of it is that theyre right