Little Secrets

Dear person I hate, you have hurt me to where it doesn't hurt anymore. to the point where when i hurt myself i still dont feel the pain that i should.... i hope you're happy Dear person I like, you may not know this but you help me in ways that you dont even realize Dear ex boyfriend I never meant to hurt you. Are we kidding out of everything you could have said to me those where the words you chose. I am sorry that you're so pathetic. Pathetic enough to chose those words even though you have a book that's published. Pathetic enough to cheat on me with your ex-girlfriend. pathetic enough to answer that video call. Like what in the actual fuck were you thinking? I mean, did you really think that i would've forgiven you. no i wouldn't and i never will. I am going to give you a life lesson. NEVER FUCK WITH A PYRO! I still want to burn you alive... you and that whore. Dear ex bestfriend, Where did you go? why did you leave me i thought you cared.. you helped me with so much. now you ignore my calls, now you hangup now im blocked. Why. Why did you leave with everything i gave you. Dear bestfriend, thank you for staying and dealing with me, for dealing with my fucked up life. thanks for under standing and for not leaving when things when to shits thanks for always asking if im okay thanks for being that person who i can talk to when things are fucked the person i can make fun of but doesnt get mad when she tries to get back at me and i dont understand. thanks for having things in common with me. thanks for introducing me to totoro and manga and anime thanks for teaching me things at 12 am on the morning of your birthday. thank you for being you. I will ALWAYS love you. Dear Santa, i havent always been the best of children but as of now you can see that i am forced to try. thanks for the presents in 2017 they are fun. but some advice for this year..... bring more stuffies! Dear future me, dont fuck up Dear past me, thanks for doing what you did even though it lead me to a shitty place. but without your fuckups i wouldn't have met the people i have and things may have been a lot worse..(you never know) Dear person I’m jealous of, i am not jealous of you. you only think i am but really you're jealous of me because right now my life is finally on the possible road to perfection Dear person I had a crush on thanks for teaching the things that i dont want to look for in a potential boyfriend Dear boyfriend i know that right now our relationship is complicated but im happy that its with you and with no one else because ever since you became apart of my life i have smiled a lot more than i have when you were not apart of it