the opposite is the complement.

I feel like I'm taking this stage of life for some adulting mastery. Getting into deep cleaning my bathroom, getting interested in macros, honing my cooking skills and recipe library, gardening more boldly. Life can be hard so let's just take some small steps without pressure. I keep forgetting to eat my sprouts these past few days. Oh I'm working on my sleep too. I've always been doing these mini things to improve myself. But now, I think I'm doing it without the same pressure or force to optimize. I'm just doing it with curiosity. No need to stick with a streak of days necessarily. Anyway, I'm sleepy.

Im kinda curious about body recomposition. Just curious at least to build up a bit of muscle on purpose. I keep my body fat kinda low because I'm not a fan of fats tbh! So my muscles pop out accidentally sometimes. Especially my arms and booty. Once, I saw my abs. But let's do it on purpose huh? I also wanna figure out how to sustain myself when I'm on a consistent exercise routine. I always feel more tired when I am. I'm doing okay so far. 4 days in or so. Booty and arms already emerging.

sza is diagnosed asd. so so sure about lana now 🤷🏾‍♀️

music is so embarrassing in its composition to me unless it's passionate. there's the 'cheesy to passionate' spectrum. that's why pop music feels so empty. that actually applies beyond music. it's why my cutie is the most beautiful guy ever. he does everything with his full chest. his full heart. i never saw him half-ass in my life. and im so happy that after so many years, i found a genuine friend in him.