Ugly Lamp

Hello I just made this blog to vent

I’m not sure what the point is. I can’t think about anything without feeling crazy. Sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me. If I didn’t have Dot I think I would have done something bad by now. I’ve tried so hard to be good but I feel like something is too wrong with me. I don’t deserve any of the good stuff. Most of the time I’m alone. And when I do have company it doesn’t help. I feel more alone, and need to cry.

Are all men the same?

I feel like absolute shit

I love Gabriel I want everyone to know I love him so much and soon everyone will know I’m so proud of him he’s so wonderful and I miss him so much aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh

So the cool thing about fucking up is that you hate yourself for a hot minute but you’ve gotta keep moving otherwise the creepy crawly thoughts come in and we hate those thoughts they don’t help us you gotta kick them out and you do that by moving you just gotta keep moving and doing and then you don’t feel the bad stuff anymore because there’s no time for it you just gotta keep moving!