those random posts.

Let's have a blind friendship..

On my last phone call with my dragon we once again talked about our future appartment... And we already started making plans on how to handle the household chores.

I never before have been excited to do chores. But just imagining cleaning the windows together with her, or taking her hand as we go grocery shopping, or helping her carry the trash cans down the stairs, or telling her "i got this" when we carry the chairs out of a room to mop the floor, or taking our (OUR) dishes out of the dishwasher and making fun of her because she needs a stepping stool to get to her favorite cup and we both know we could just place it lower but we won't change it, or really just sitting next to each other in our living room and her encouraging me to eat more while simultaneously trying to keep her plate from my stealing hands...

I just. I can't stop imagining the most disgustingly domestic scenes and becoming giddy with happiness at the thought.

We would finally have a place we both could call our own and i know it will break my heart when she moves out and I stay in our empty appartment... But the happiness we can have together beforehand is absolutely worth it.

She can teach me how to see the appartment as a home, and i can teach her...

I can teach her to trust in someone when she feels like falling to pieces. She can teach me to strive to be netter than Good. And i can teach her that there is not a thing to be afraid of as long as she knows where to ask for help. She can teach me how to care for myself and i might only just be able to teach her that she deserves every good thing in the world and then some.

I know it will only be temporary, but we can learn how to dance together. We can cook and bake and be merry together. We can have Christmas and Easter and Halloween and a Night at the beach and the mass on Sunday morning and a couch that belongs to us both and a TV that we can fight over the remote for. We can learn how to sing together and how to have fun. We can open our appartment to our friends and make it a home for all of them too.

I was never as happy about the prospect of putting in the work as i am at the thought of the appartment that will be ours for a year or two. We can be happy.

And i am so excited for it to come to pass.

Never been so excited for the uncertain future as i am at the thought of sharing it with her. It's temporary.

These days, surrounded by the heavy dark clouds.

Peaceful and cool, with the tip-tip sound.

Rain falls all day and night.

And so am I,

Falling with each drop

Drowning deep into my sight

Cursing my fortune

Praising my strength

And....... letting things go.

Cause I know......

I know i can't change the destiny.

What is meant to be, will be.

I can't go beyond my interest

The interest which was chosen for me.

And so on..... the heavenly days are passing by,

In the dark when the shadow lurks.....

Men fear its a ghost...

Women fear its men...

In context of India, after several Rape and Burnt case..

#justiceforpriyankareddy