The Fire Nation Palace rose from the cliffs like a crown of black stone and gold, its tall banners stirring lazily in the ocean wind. Even after the war, the place still carried an air of intimidating grandeur that made most visitors straighten their posture without thinking.
The Gaang didn’t bother.
Katara walked at the front with determined strides, Aang just behind her, Sokka trying to look official and failing spectacularly, and Toph strolling along as if she’d been invited personally.
The palace doors opened before they reached them. Someone had clearly been watching their approach.
A young woman in formal Fire Nation attire hurried down the steps and bowed deeply.
“Welcome. I’m afraid Fire Lord Zuko is not available to receive visitors today.”
She spoke with rehearsed calm, but her eyes darted nervously between them. It was the look of someone who knew exactly who they were, and exactly how impossible it would be to turn them away.
Katara didn’t slow down.
“That’s not a request,” she said evenly. “We’re informing you that we’re here. He’ll see us whether he wants to or not.”
The woman blinked, caught off guard.
“I.. of course. If you could wait here, I will inform..”
“We’ll come with you,” Sokka added, already stepping inside.
Toph smirked. “Relax. We can wait just be fast.”
The poor woman looked like she might faint. She bowed quickly and rushed off down the corridor at an almost undignified pace.
They waited in the grand entrance hall, the silence stretching long enough to make Katara’s chest tighten.
“He hasn’t written in a month,” she said quietly.
Aang nodded. “That’s not like him.”
Sokka crossed his arms. “Maybe he’s just buried in paperwork. Running a country sounds exhausting.”
Toph tilted her head slightly, sensing the subtle tension in the building. “Yeah. That’s not what this feels like.”
Footsteps echoed rapidly down the hall.
The woman returned, slightly out of breath. “Please follow me.”
No formal announcement. No explanation. Just urgency.
They were led deeper into the palace, through increasingly quiet corridors where servants stepped aside and guards bowed low.
The deeper they went, the more the cheerful noise of the palace faded into uneasy silence.
Katara exchanged a glance with Aang. Something was wrong.
They stopped in front of a tall wooden door at the end of a secluded hallway.
“This is Fire Lord Zuko’s private apartment,” the woman said softly.
She bowed once more and stepped away.
No knocking. No announcement.
Aang hesitated for only a second before pushing it open.
The room beyond was dark.
Heavy curtains blocked the sunlight, leaving the space lit only by faint gray light leaking through the edges. The air felt stale, untouched.
Plates stacked on every surface. Cups left forgotten. Papers scattered across the floor. Blankets twisted into tangled piles. Clothes draped over chairs like abandoned thoughts.
It wasn’t the mess of someone busy.
It was the mess of someone who had stopped caring.
On the couch in the center of the room sat Zuko.
Cross-legged. Motionless.
Something small was bundled in his arms.
He looked up slowly as they entered.
The sight hit them all at once.
His hair was unkempt. Dark circles hollowed his eyes. His clothes hung loose from a body that had clearly lost weight. His skin had the pale, washed-out tone of someone who hadn’t seen sunlight in far too long.
He looked like he hadn’t slept.
The moment the door opened fully, Zuko’s head snapped up.
His body reacted before his mind did, instinct straightening his spine, tightening his shoulders. Even exhausted, even hollowed out, something in him still tried to become the Fire Lord again.
“What are you guys doing here?” he asked sharply.
His voice was rough, like it hadn’t been used properly in days.
Before anyone could answer, he pushed himself slightly more upright, adjusting the small bundle in his arms without thinking.
“The Fire Nation is currently being managed by people I trust completely,” he said quickly, almost mechanically. “I’ve delegated everything. I’ll return to my duties soon, I just..”
Katara cut through his words like a blade through cloth.
Her voice wasn’t loud. It didn’t need to be.
“That’s not why we’re here.”
For a second, there was only silence.
Aang stepped forward gently. “We haven’t heard from you in over a month.”
Sokka nodded. “Not a word. That’s not normal, even for you.”
Katara’s eyes didn’t leave Zuko’s face. “We were worried.”
Zuko let out a short, humorless breath.
“You crossed the entire Fire Nation because I didn’t send a letter?”
“Yeah, well, you can laugh but you look like you’re one bad gust of wind away from collapsing. And that’s the blind girl telling you this”
Silence hit the room like a weight dropping.
Like he was seeing them for the first time in weeks instead of just reacting to their presence.
His grip on the bundle in his arms tightened slightly.
Then… something in him cracked.
Then the sound came, raw, uncontrolled, pulled straight from somewhere deep he had been forcing shut for weeks.
He sank forward slightly, still holding the bundle, trying instinctively not to drop it, not to break it, not to lose anything else.
Katara moved instantly, crossing the room in a few steps and kneeling beside him.
But she didn’t touch him yet. Not immediately.
And then the words came out in pieces, each one heavier than the last.
Toph’s expression went still.
Sokka stopped breathing for a second.
Zuko laughed once, broken, disbelieving.
“She died giving birth.”
“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.”
His grip tightened again around the baby in his arms like it was the only stable thing left in the world.
“I can’t do this I can I just can’t il not strong enough.”
His voice rose slightly, then broke again.
“I keep thinking if I just.. if I had done something differently.. if I had been there sooner..”
Katara placed a hand on his shoulder.
“You couldn’t have stopped it,” she said softly.
Zuko flinched like he didn’t believe her.
“I wasn’t there when she needed me.” he whispered. “I didn’t even say goodbye. I can’t do it alone”
Aang shook his head immediately.
“No one handles this alone.”
Toph nodded once, blunt as ever. “Yeah, that’s kind of the whole point of us.”
Zuko gave a wet, broken laugh that turned into another sob halfway through.
“I don’t know how to be her father,” he admitted. “I don’t know how to do this without Mai. I can’t even look at her without..”
He couldn’t finish the sentence.
Katara squeezed his shoulder slightly.
“You don’t have to do it alone,” she said again, softer this time. “We’re here.”
Aang stepped closer, voice gentle but steady.
“We’re a group, Zuko. We don’t leave each other like this.”
Sokka scratched the back of his neck awkwardly, then nodded. “Yeah. Unfortunately for you, you’re stuck with us.”
A faint, shaky exhale escaped Zuko, almost a laugh.
But he was still shaking.
Still holding on too tightly to the small life in his arms like letting go would mean losing everything else too.
Katara didn’t move for a moment.
Zuko was still shaking, still holding onto the small bundle in his arms like it was the only solid thing left in a collapsing world.
His breath came unevenly, like every inhale had to be relearned.
Slowly, Katara softened her voice.
Zuko blinked, as if the question took a second to reach him.
For a moment, he hesitated.
His grip tightened instinctively.
Then, carefully, almost reluctantly, he shifted the bundle forward.
“Be careful,” he said immediately, too fast, too protective. “She’s, she’s small.”
Katara nodded and gently peeled back the edge of the blanket.
Inside, a tiny baby slept soundly, her face peaceful in a way the room around her was not. Small fists curled near her chest, her breathing soft and steady.
For a moment, even the heaviness in the air seemed to pause.
Aang’s expression softened instantly.
“She’s… really small,” he whispered.
Then he tilted his head slightly, studying her more closely.
“…She looks a lot like Mai.”
The words weren’t meant to hurt.
Zuko’s breath caught sharply.
For a second, he didn’t respond.
His eyes stayed fixed on the child as if looking away would make everything collapse.
Then, quietly, his voice broke through again.
His throat tightened immediately after saying it, like even that simple truth was too heavy to hold.
Katara adjusted the baby gently in her arms, careful, instinctive.
Zuko didn’t let go completely, his fingers hovered near the blanket, as if he was afraid even this moment might slip away.
A silence settled again, but this one was different.
And then it all came out.
“I don’t know what I’m doing.”
His voice cracked immediately, but he didn’t stop.
“I’m exhausted all the time. I haven’t slept properly in days. Every time I close my eyes I think I hear her crying, and I just.. I can’t.. I can’t tell if I’m doing anything right.”
He ran a hand through his hair, fingers trembling slightly.
“She wakes up constantly. Every forty-five minutes, sometimes less. And I keep thinking I must be doing something wrong, because I can’t get her to sleep longer, I can’t.. I can’t fix it.”
His laugh came out sharp and broken.
“And I keep telling myself I should be able to fix it. Because I’m supposed to be Fire Lord. I’m supposed to be able to handle things.”
“But I can’t even handle this.”
“I barely leave this room anymore.”
He gestured vaguely around him, like the space itself was closing in.
“Everything here… everything reminds me of her.”
His throat tightened again.
“Mai’s things are still here. She is everywhere. I can’t move anything because it feels like if I do, she’ll be even further away.”
He pressed his lips together, struggling to continue.
“And if I stay here too long, I can’t breathe.”
“But if I leave…” he swallowed hard, “if I leave, I have to be Fire Lord again.”
Zuko shook his head slightly.
“I can’t do that right now.”
His voice was almost a whisper.
“I don’t know how.”
“I keep thinking… I wish my uncle was here.”
That sentence landed heavier than the others.
His shoulders dropped slightly as if saying it physically hurt.
“I would give anything to hear him tell me what to do. Or even just… sit there and say nothing. Just being there would be enough.”
“I’m not strong enough to be alone again.”
Honest in a way Zuko rarely allowed himself to be.
His gaze flicked down to Izumi again.
And something in his expression shattered a little more.
“I miss Mai so much it doesn’t even feel real,” he admitted.
His voice broke fully now.
“I keep looking at Izumi and I can’t, I can’t separate her from Mai in my head. Every time I look at her, I just see everything I lost.”
“And then I hate myself for it.”
“I sit here holding her and I should be happy, I should be grateful, I should be…”
He shook his head violently once.
“But I just end up crying.”
His voice dropped to something barely audible.
Katara’s hand tightened gently on his shoulder.
Aang stood a little closer, grounded and steady.
Sokka didn’t speak this time, just watched, unusually serious.
Toph exhaled quietly, softer than before.
Zuko let out a shaky breath.
“I don’t know if I can be what she needs,” he whispered.
“I don’t know if I can be a father.”
No one rushed to fill it.
Katara waited until Zuko’s breathing steadied a little before she spoke again.
“Zuko,” she said gently, still holding Izumi in her arms, “why don’t you take a shower?”
He blinked, as if the suggestion didn’t fully register.
“I’m fine,” he answered automatically.
Katara didn’t push immediately. She just adjusted the baby slightly, careful and practiced, as Izumi made a small sleeping sound and settled deeper into the blanket.
“You’re not fine,” she said simply. “You haven’t slept. You haven’t eaten properly. You’re running on nothing.”
Zuko opened his mouth to argue.
Aang stepped in softly. “We can stay with her. Just for a bit.”
Zuko’s gaze snapped up immediately.
“No! I can’t just..”
“She’ll be okay,” Katara interrupted, firmer now but still kind. “We’re here.”
Izumi stirred slightly in Katara’s arms, then settled again, unharmed, peaceful.
Zuko’s shoulders trembled faintly.
“I don’t like leaving her,” he admitted quietly.
“I know,” Katara said. “But you also can’t take care of her like this.”
Then, reluctantly, Zuko exhaled.
It sounded like surrender.
But also like exhaustion finally winning.
“I’ll be quick,” he added, almost defensively, as if he needed to justify it.
“You don’t need to be quick,” Sokka said, surprisingly soft. “Just… be a person for a bit.”
Zuko gave him a tired look, but there was no real bite in it.
Before leaving, he hesitated again at Katara’s side, watching Izumi as if memorizing her face.
“Don’t let her cry too much,” he said quietly.
Katara smiled faintly. “We’ve got her.”
And finally disappeared down the hallway.
The second the bathroom door closed, the room changed.
Not magically. Not instantly.
But gradually, like air returning to lungs.
Katara shifted Izumi carefully into Sokka’s arms.
“Wait.. me?” he whispered.
“Yes you,” Katara said.
Sokka stiffened. “I’m not, I mean.. what if I drop her?”
“You won’t,” Toph said immediately.
“That’s not reassuring!”
But Katara was already moving.
“We should clean this place up a bit,” she said, looking around at the chaos. “And get him food.”
Aang nodded. “I’ll order something.”
Toph cracked her knuckles. “Finally. I was starting to think royalty lived like this on purpose.”
Sokka carefully adjusted Izumi in his arms, staring down at her like she was made of glass and diplomacy.
“…She’s actually kind of cute,” he admitted after a moment.
Katara glanced at him. “Don’t get used to it.”
“I’m not.. I’m just observing.”
When Zuko came back, hair damp and clothes changed, the room didn’t look like a disaster anymore.
Less like a place someone was drowning in.
He stopped in the doorway.
For a second, he just stared.
Izumi was asleep in Sokka’s arms, completely at ease.
Sokka was sitting awkwardly stiff, clearly terrified to move but trying his best not to show it.
Katara was sorting food onto plates.
Aang was quietly setting things down on the table.
Toph was sitting with her feet on a chair, pretending she wasn’t helping but clearly having moved at least three things.
“…You didn’t have to do all this.”
“No,” Katara said simply, “but we did.”
Like he wasn’t sure he was allowed to take up space here anymore.
Sokka immediately adjusted his grip on Izumi.
“She’s been good,” he said quickly. “Didn’t explode or anything.”
“That’s… reassuring,” Zuko muttered, sitting down slowly on the couch.
He stared at it for a moment.
Like he had forgotten what that felt like.
The room stayed quiet, but it wasn’t empty anymore.
There were small sounds. Soft movements. The warmth of shared presence.
At some point, Zuko leaned back into the couch.
And that was all it took.
His head tilted slightly.
For the first time in weeks, his body stopped fighting to stay awake.
Katara noticed immediately.
She didn’t say anything.
Just quietly shifted a blanket over his shoulders.
Aang looked at him, then at the others.
Sokka gently adjusted Izumi so she was more comfortable.
Toph smirked faintly. “He’s out.”
Aang watched him breathe evenly and whispered, “We’re not going anywhere.”
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I hate how I tried to not spoil the baby things it’s badly done but I’m too lazy to rework it so here get the gaang not talking about the fact Mai is pregnant when it’s THE thing they should talk about like « HEY HE DIDNT GIVE US ANY NEWS AND LIKE A BABY IS COMING » come on guys
Also why early teen me loved angst so much JESUS I DIDNT HAVE TO KILL MAI (she was my favourite character at the time so even weirder)