no thoughts, head empty /nc

I know what you want/so come and get it, I want it too/I will not give in, you must earn this/hurry up and break/break/break/I can't do this much longer/I will not be the first to become weak to our fate

I don't remember/just barely/How did this happen/what did you do/I must have told you/I surely haven't what do I look like, someone with a spine? Did you just not listen/I remember the first/What happened after/why didn't this stop

Just a little bit longer/let me play pretend just a little while more

I wonder/I doubt/that you know the difference between love and like, because I don't like you/I love you, but you are everything to me/I wish things could be different

They are replacing me because I fucked up/I'm not enough/why are they doing this/I thought they loved me/didn't you say I was worth staying for/am I not good enough for you/I know I'm not good enough but you said you loved me so why are you leaving me

Need someone to take the choice from my hands/but I need my autonomy because I'm my own person, I need someone to force things on me and take them away/but I will be crushed and die from the pressure as I drown

I don't have issues/I am superior to everything and everyone/I totally don't have a god complex/this is why I need to have depression

Don't want to be theirs/need them to be mine, be my fledgling/I'll be your master/your elder/your teacher, I do as I please/you will please me

Please obsess over me/leave me alone, continue to stalk me it's how I know you love me/stop looking at my blog I hate you I hate this I hate all of this

No thoughts/head empty but not stupid/cute, more I can't bring myself to care no matter how much I want to/I swear that I'm trying/I don't know what's wrong with me/please tell me again/I want to remember/please let me remember