Wip

The room is quiet, boiling sun bleeding through the windows as you sit on the edge of the cot. Your eyes tiredly gazing at the floor, nose busted as your brother paced the floor lecturing you.

“I’ve told you! I’ve told you a million times not to do that, don’t put yourself between me and them!” He hits his chest then gestured towards the closed door as he looks away from you with a scowl.

“They were beating the shit out of you, Max…i couldn’t just stand there and let them do that!” You argue, looking up at him with a glare, annoyed by this whole conversation.

He glares back, harder than before as he crouches down to your level. You’ve never seen him this angry, especially at you and it has your attitude ebbing away.

“And now you have a busted nose and black eye because you didn’t listen to me…I can handle myself with these men. You can’t…” He stands and shakes his head, your reckless streak has been pissing him off.

And you stand as he dares say you can’t handle yourself, you damn well could and you both knew it. “I can handle myself…i don’t need you constantly hovering over me trying to protect me!” You yell at him, tired of being treated like a helpless fragile creature.

You knew how to fight, you knew when to run from one if you’re sure you can’t win. You are an aspirant, part of the brotherhood of steel and you had enough of how some of those guys treat your big brother out of their own jealousy. So of course you’ll fight for him, he would do the same for you.

But Maximus crowds your space, coming chest to chest with you and he knew from the way you step back that your scared and it proves his point…

“You’d be dead if it wasn’t for me, you’re gonna start a fight with the wrong guy and get beat to death, and they will beat you to death” He spoke lowly and you look away as he grabs your shoulders.

“I’m not hovering to make your life miserable, I’m trying to keep you safe because you’re all I have….” Those words made something twist in your chest, your eyes meeting his again and you sigh…

“I know, Max…I just…if you’re always protecting me, who’s gonna protect you?…” You ask those words in a quiet voice, hating that he was always thinking about others rather than himself.

He smiles slowly and pats your cheek, holding it as he shakes his head at your words. You were just like him, he could see you’d always worry about him no matter what. “I can protect myself…” He says and kisses your forehead.

You scoff and push him away as he starts going about his day. “Is that why you let those guys beat you up?” You retort and he rolls his eyes as he laces his boots.

“Shut up…” He replied before a knock at the door is heard and he gives you a look before standing and going to the door.

You make sure your chest compressor is on, being silent as you sit down, your elbows on your knees. Harnessing masculine treats and mannerisms came easy to you, especially since you grew up having to pretend around mostly men so you and Maximus didn’t get separated. He taught you everything he knew, he butchered your hair off and called you his brother ‘Marcus’ who everyone makes fun of. They call you runt most of the time…

Maximus opens the door and you watch as a squire announces that you are needed.

“Aspirant Marcus, your presence has been requested” you furrow your brows but stand, looking to Maximus who nods once but you can tell he’s nervous for you and you roll your eyes.

“What for? Who wants him?” You shake your head as he asks the questions and the other squire seemed annoyed he even had to be the one to fetch you.

“Elder Cleric Quintus” Maximus looks at you with furrowed brows and you follow the squire out…

The walk is quiet, you do feel nervous as hell. You clear your throat multiple times, trying to make sure your voice is masculine, manly. You know you’ll have to speak…

Once at Elder Cleric Quintus room, the squire opens the door for you and you walk in, seeing the old man sitting in his chair.

“Ah…young Marcus…come in” You hear the squire shut the door behind you as you step into the room, lowering your head.

“Elder Cleric Quintus…” You greet with a deep but wavering voice, eyes meeting his once more. “If this is about the fight between me and a few of the aspirants…I-i can explain—“

“It is about your fight…now sit” You sit immediately and your heart is pounding out of your chest. You swallow thickly, watching Quintus as he eyes you.

You didn’t know what your punishment would be, or if you’d be fighting a much stronger opponent or not. But you are terrified and it must show on your face because he speaks on it.

“Don’t fret…Im impressed with your agility, your courage and bravery to take on five other aspirants twice your size…” You sigh in some relief and nod as you try to relax in the seat.

“May I ask why I’m here then?…” Quintus nods softly and pushes some things around on his desk.

“You have the strength and courage to be a squire…” Your eyes widen at those words, the thought of ranking up to squire is an exciting one.

So you stand and look at Quintus with wide eyes, your nose still busted and eye black. “I’m ranking up to squire?…” You spoke In disbelief and Quintus only nods.

“Clean up…it will be set in stone in two hours…” You smiled at that and left his room, going back to where you knew Maximus was probably pacing with worry.

You burst through the door and shut it behind you with a grin. “Max! I’m gonna be a squire!” You announced happily and the worried man looks at you in disbelief now.

“What?…wait…your ranking to squire?” Maximus practically scoffs and gestured at you. “You! The smallest one of us who hasn’t even hardly been out there!” He points behind him, gesturing towards the wasteland. “Your becoming a squire before me?!” You sighed as your excitement has been stomped out with your brother’s jealousy.

“Thank you for being happy for me, max” your voice drips with sarcasm as you walk over to a bowl of water and start cleaning your face.

He scoffs again and shakes his head. “You’ll die out there! How am i supposed to be happy about this!?” You dry your face and hands off and turn to give him a deadpan look.

“I can take care of myself, max…you’ve taught me how to fight and when to run from a fight I can’t handle…” You try to reassure the man but he sighs deeply and runs a hand through his hair.

“This is stupid…” Maximus mumbles and you punch his shoulder. “Ow!” He rubs his arm you punched with surprising force.

“You’re stupid!” You retort and he gives you a glare…

You two had a brawl after that, to which he won a few times till you took some low blows and hit him where the sun doesn’t shine…

It’s been four days since you’ve become a squire, a few other aspirants ranking up as well except your brother which pissed him off even more.

You’re preparing for your very first expedition with your knight, Knight Gerald, a real asshole that’s a bit reckless and it makes Maximus all the more worried. Especially since every squire he’s had is dead…

But knight Gerald would be meeting with another knight and his squire, knight Dorian, a more level headed knight but still an asshole, one that needs help with something, you weren’t told the details about.

“Look, if he’s in a situation where he’s being shot at, beaten up or anything dangerous, anything, do not try to jump in and save him! Even if he’s begging for help. He has power armor, not you—

“Max! Calm down…” You snap, giving him an annoyed look as he rambled to you as if you’re a child and not an adult.

Maximus sighs and you can see the worry and stress eating away at him and you soften your expression and pull your coat on.

“I’ll be fine, you know I’m capable of taking care of myself. I’ll be back before you know it” You say and put a hand on his shoulder as he stares at you unconvinced.

“I’m supposed to always be by your side…I promised I’d always take care of you and i can’t do that when we’re apart…” He spoke and you pull him into a hug he quickly returns, his cheek on your head as he rubs your back.

“Please don’t do anything stupid…” He mumbled and you close your eyes and smiled some at that, pulling back to look up at him.

“I can’t make any promises…” You joke and he rolls his eyes and looks away from you.

“That’s what scares me” He retorts and pinches your nose as you smack his hand away with a scowl.

Then you hear an Aspirant announce it’s time for you to leave and you nod, Maximus following you as you walk towards where your knight stands…

You lug around the big bag of supplies for your knight, meeting Maximus eyes before you get in the transport, watching Maximus before offering a nod as the doors closed and then your in the air, flying over the desert and towards filly…

You felt a sense of excitement and nervousness, you’ve never been away from your brother for long, you were told this expedition would take a week tops. You sigh and watch the passing scene below, your knight in his armor bragging about some past battles he’s had, telling you about women he’s had and you stared at him with furrowed brows at the…odd stories.

Before you know it, your landing in a green wooded area, you follow your knight out of the transport and trudge through mud behind him.

“Knight Dorian should be this way, The fuckheads too stupid to even complete a simple task! Go figure…” Knight Gerald spoke, power armor making his voice deep and distorted as you look around at the trees and such.

Knight Gerald huffs at your silence and keeps talking. “Probably held up somewhere dickin around, jerkin off probably…fuck do you even talk?” You stared at your knight and nod once.

“Yes, knight Gerald, I speak when the conversation is interesting” You say in your fake masculine voice. Not masking how annoyed you are by this dick.

Gerald stops walking and turns to you, making you stop in your tracks as he shoves you to the ground roughly.

You grunt and land on your back, staring up at him wide eyed as he looms over you intimidatingly. “Don’t fuckin talk to me like that, little boy…” He puts his metal foot on your chest and adds pressure, your hands instinctively grabbing to push him away in a pathetic attempt.

“I could end you right now, like every other squire who had the balls to say somethin that fuckin stupid to me” He moves his foot and turns to start walking as you laid there breathing heavily and your heart pounds.

You swallow thickly and grab your bag again and follow him, You know he could kill you easily, but your fear mixes with anger and I knew found hatred for this bastard.

At the top of the hill you finally make it up, you see a makeshift camp, old tin stacks on a tree and a couple of logs as you see knight Dorian and his squire.

But your heart drops as you narrow your eyes on the squire, The same guy who beat your brother up then gave you a black eye when you interfered.

“Thaddeus….” You grumbled as you drop your bag as the two knights engaged in conversation about this mission.

Thaddeus looks at you while he cleans his knights weapon. “Marcus? What are you doing here man?” You scoff at that and shake your head as you look back at the knights who walk a distance off, masks lifted as they spoke.

“I’m a squire…came here to do what you and your knight couldn’t” You retort and cross your arms and he huffs at that.

“Uh, me and my knight is doing just fine! Actually and uh…we only paged for help because there’s a lot of mutant bears down there that did a lotta damage to knight Dorian’s armor and our stuff” He points behind him and then goes back to cleaning his knights weapons.

You roll your eyes but feel somewhat anxious about what he said as you sit beside him. “What’s a mutant bear?…” You ask and he looks up at you, forgetting you’ve been sheltered the most.

“It’s terrifying, I’ll tell ya that much…” He says and looks the weapon over before scrubbing at a spec. “And they’re big…you don’t wanna get close to them” He adds and puts the weapon in his bag similar to yours.

You nod slowly and let out a deep breath, “they sound interesting…” you say sarcastically and look around at the trees again. “When did you get ranked squire?…” you ask and he shrugs as his eyes go back to the knights speaking to one another in hushed tones.

“Uh…a day after you did” he says and you both awkwardly sit there and you dig your boot into the mud before reaching down and playing with it, only ever having seen sand…

The knights had left without your knowledge, it’s only when you hear some noise and look up from the mud in your hand you notice and furrow your brows.

“Uh…Thaddeus?” You ask and he looks up at you then follows your eyes to the now empty place your knights were.

“Oh shit…where’d they go?…” He stands up and you do so as well confused as to where the knights are.

You look around, seeing nothing but trees, hearing rustles of whatever creature lurked in the brush. “Knights?! Knight Gerald!?” You call out and follow Thaddeus who takes off down the little dirt path they had been on. You look around as he puts his hands on his hips.

“Oh…Golly, I think we should wait back at the camp for them” You looked at the path, seeing their footprints left in the mud, then down the hill where brush is tore through.

“No, we gotta look for them, they could need a stimpak or help with something!” You argue and look at Thaddeus who pulls his brows together and shakes his head.

“If they needed us they would be calling for us and I don’t hear anything” Thaddeus points out but the distant yells of the knights and growls of mutant bears is heard.

You glared at him and quickly run to grab your bag before sliding down the hill as Thaddeus watches with wide eyes. “Marcus! You don’t know what you’re doing!” You hear him let out a surprised yelp as he slips and comes sliding down behind you, knocking into your back as you huff and fall face first into the mud.

“Ow! Get off me!” You elbow him and he groans before getting up.

“I’m sorry! It’s not like I did it on purpose, I was trying to get back into camp” You froze, staring at the scene before you.

Thaddeus however is oblivious to the scene and wipes mud off his cheek. “You’re insane for even coming down here, man. The knights have their cool power armor to protect them and what do us squires have uh? Nothin—

“Shush!!” You shush him and put a hand over his mouth and pulled him behind a rotten log, eyes wide and heart pounding as you peek over your shoulder at the mutant bear eating knight Gerald’s face.

You were screwed, Maximus was right about everything and now that he’s back with the brotherhood and far from you, you’d die out here.

“Awwe no…now look what you got us into! You’re just as stupid as your brother” Thaddeus whispers and you shoot him a glare and put your back against the log, squeezing your eyes shut as you think.

Trying to think how the hell you can get out of this situation.

You open your eyes and look back at the mutant bear and then at Thaddeus. “How fast are they?…” you ask and he looks you up and down with a huff.

“I don’t know, i haven’t seen one move” His answer makes you roll your eyes and look around the area your in…down a hill, slicked with mud. You can’t climb back up because of how wet it is out here.

Your screwed.

“You think we can run that way?” You pull your head towards the left, going further down the hill.

Thaddeus looks that way and then chances a look at the beast only for his face to pale. “Uh…Marcus?” You instantly catch on to his horror and look over the log to see the bear mutant gone..

“Shit….where—

Before you can finish, a thunderous roar breaks the silence and you screamed, caught of guard and letting out a rather girly scream but you didn’t dwell on that and take Thaddeus hand and pulled him with you to run further down the hill.

The fall is brutal, the hill too steep to run down so you and Thaddeus tumbled, rolled, and practically rag dolled down the damn thing.

The bear is left at the top, continuing to eat its dead meal while you and Thaddeus laid on the muddy ground battered and sore. You tore your clothes, your jacket gone somewhere up the hill as jagged sticks and old bobbed wired fence tore it off. The back of your white tee shirt tore and now tented with some blood and a lot of mud.

“Ow….” You whined and laid on your back, staring at the sky as Thaddeus groans and sits up. His cheek cut as he rubs at it.

“Is it gone?…” he asks and you sit up, palms digging into the ground as you propped yourself up and look up the hill.

“I think so…I don’t see it…” You fell right back into your masculine voice. Hoping thaddues wouldn’t question your scream.

But as he sits up on his knees and looks at you, his eyes fall down to your chest and widen some, before his brows pulled together at the…well, lumps there.

You look at Thaddeus with confusion before glancing down and seeing that your chest compressor was broke during the fall. Your eyes widen and you look back up at him.

You couldn’t let him know that you’re a woman, he’d rat you out to the brotherhood for praise. You knew how he was, you can feel the panic slowly clawing its way up your chest.

“I-I-I….uh…um…I have tumors….those are tumors…” You say slowly and very unconvincingly, hands raising to cover your breasts. It was the best lie you could think of.

Thaddeus stares at you with confused bewilderment before nodding and looking away. “I uh…didn’t know you had those—tumors! That’s…bad” He slowly gets to his feet and you do the same, his eyes glued to your breasts as you knew he knows…

“Fuck…listen…you can’t tell anyone, Thaddeus, please…” You step closer to him and he nods slowly and finally looks up at your eyes.

“I won’t…” he says slowly and his eyes go back down and you cover them with your hands.

“Hey! Stop doing that!” You yelled and he closed his eyes, shaking his head quickly as he honestly didn’t mean to.

“I’m sorry! It’s just—I’ve never seen em before! Up this close anyway…Y’know?…and your shirts wet and muddy and—

You cut him off with a kick to the shin as he stumbles back and grunts in pain, your face feeling hot beneath all the grime and mud. You look down and see how your shirt truly was clinging to your skin making them more visible.

“Shit….” You mumbled and look at Thaddeus as he leans on a tree. “Look, we need to focus getting out of this area…radio back to the brotherhood and get them to get us and bring us back…” He nods as you explained the plan and he rubs his leg before standing upright.

“Cool, I’ll radio back to them once I find somewhere to do it” He spoke and you nod as you both start walking now, cautiously given the dangers you’re still in. Your body still sore and you follow Thaddeus as he leads the way.

“H-have you been out here before?…” You ask and he nods some as you both walk, getting further out of the woods.

“Yeah…I came from the shit hole, have you?…” He asks back and you scoff at how he throws it back at you and surprisingly not yapping to you.

“No…when I was out here I was way too young to remember it…” You say and he nods as you both come to a settlement of sorts, some rough people lingering outside a supposed saloon of sorts, you ignore the odd glances of people and Thaddeus shrugs his coat off and hands it out to you.

“Your shirts ripped pretty bad…” He points out and you glance down and see the chest tore in the middle, a hole in the side and you can’t climb feel the back is tore out.

You take the coat and put it on and nod at his surprising kind gesture. “Thanks…” You mumble and look around. “Do you have any caps?…” You ask and he nods his head while you both walk up the ragged porch and into the saloon where they offer drinks and a meal…

“Yeah, I have eight I think…” He answered while you both sit at a table in the corner, resting your aching bodies after the tumble down the hill.

You closed your eyes, your left one still bruised from the brawl you got in a week ago…

“I’m sorry…for uh…punching you in the face. It wasn’t personal, i actually meant to punch Maximus but you just jumped in out of nowhere” You open your eyes as Thaddeus spoke and you huff, somewhat amused.

“It’s fine…” you say and close your eyes again as he taps the table gently, awkwardly as he looks you up and down still.

“You’re pretty brave for a woman…not that women aren’t brave because they are! The women in the shit hole were braver than most men! But I’m just saying that a woman like you is brave…” He rambled and you open your eyes with a deep sigh as you sit up.

“Thaddeus…can you shut the hell up please?…” You say and he nods while looking down as he scratches at the back of his neck.

“Yeah…” Then the both of you sit in silence, quiet conversation from most in the saloon is a somewhat comforting sound as you try to relax.

This expedition was off to a horrible start, you felt like you’ve already failed as a squire. Your knight is dead, Thaddeus figured out your a woman…

He pats the table and stands as you open your eyes and look at him once more. “I’m gonna go see if they have a radio we can use…I’ll be back” Before you can say anything he goes to find the owner of this establishment and you sigh. Not liking the looks some people give you.

You wished Maximus was here, you felt exposed, less confident than you previously had been. You can survive on your own, you knew that but it felt like you couldn’t…

You see a group of rough guys looking at you and your brows furrow, you look away and try searching for Thaddues who was talking to the owner, smiling as he gets a radio and uses it up there. You glance back at the guys discreetly as they seem to be whispering something and eyeing you…

Shit, you don’t have a weapon. You look back at Thaddeus who is still using the radio and you go to stand only to be grabbed by the taller slender man, his teeth rotten as he grins at you with yellowish eyes. Definitely not healthy….

“Ain’t seen you around here before…must be new” He rasps out and you swallow thickly and try pulling away.

“Let go of me” You spoke in your masculine voice, not wanting him to know your a woman.

He laughs and only tightens his hold as his two friends surround you now. “Bet you got goods on ya…” He says and his friend grabs your other arm and starts dragging you out as you kick and try to get free.

Maximus showed you out to get free, but all survival instincts vanish as your brain can only focus on how to panic it would seem.

“Thaddeus!! Help—

Your shoved out the doors and your face lands in the mud that smells like piss and vomit, your stomach turning at the smell as you feel a kick land into your ribs and you groan in pain.

“Check her pockets and see what she has” The slender man commands his two goons who start trying to steal whatever you have and you thrash around and kick and punch at them only to have the leaders boot press your cheek into the ground as he steps on your head.

“Hey! Hey, hey, hey! Guys! What’s goin on?!” You hear Thaddeus step out and they momentarily leave you be but your face is still held down, one cheek in the mud your starting to question as sewage while the other has a boot pressed into it.

One of the guys huff at that. “Is this your friend?…” A rough voice asks and you hear Thaddeus clear his throat.

“Yeah?…I can get you some caps if you get off her” He pulls out a pouch with fifteen caps in it and you huff, the bastard lied to you.

The guys laugh and Thaddeus pulls out some metal gadget. “Hey! You can have the caps and this! It sells for about fifty caps” The leaded gets off you and you scramble to your feet as Thaddeus gives them their stuff and look it over.

You scurry behind Thaddeus who surprisingly took care of the situation instead of running away or leaving you to die.

The guys take their shit and leave and you wipe the mud off your cheek, spitting as some was in your mouth. “Thanks…” You say and look up at him as he shrugs and looks you over.

“You saved me from that bear, you could have ran and let it eat me or something but you didn’t…so I guess we’re even now” He says and you smiled some at that and go back to sit on the old porch.

“Did you get the radio working?” You ask him, still wiping at your mouth with your arm. The damn taste stuck in your mouth, you can only imagine what the hell was in the mud.

Thaddeus nods his head as he looks up at the grey sky. “Yeah, I got in contact with the brotherhood so as long as we stay here they’re gonna get us…” You nod and look him over now. His cheek still cut and some dry blood there now.

“So uh…you really won’t rat me out will you?…” You didn’t trust him, even if he did just get you out of a situation.

“No, I won’t rat you out…” He says again and you sigh deeply as you wait for the brotherhood…

But hours pass, night falls and you’re still waiting. Thaddeus up and pacing as he stretches his legs out acting sitting for hours.

“Thaddeus where are they?…” you ask with annoyance as you were tired and wanted to be clean and tell Maximus everything that’s happened.

He sighs and puts his hands on his hips, “well, since it’s dark out they might wait till the morning to come…we can get a room or something to sleep in till then” You stand up with a scoff and shake your head at him.

“We don’t have caps, where the hell will we stay?” You question with attitude and Thaddeus takes his boot off, dumping at least ten caps out.

You stare at him with wide eyes. “Where the hell do you keep getting those from?!” You question and he scoffs some.

“My stash! This is really the last of it though” He says and picks the caps up as you walk down the shit path to another place. “We can buy a room for the night…” He says and you follow him inside and see an old man glaring at you both.

“The hell you two want?…” He asks and you observe him, he looks just as grime ridden as everyone else, face wrinkled and scruffy with white hair as his eyes are narrowed in a unfriendly way. his customer service horrible.

“Me and my friend need a room for the night…sign says nine caps” Thaddeus puts nine down and smiles at the man.

The old man grumbled and snatched them up before pointing at a wooden door behind you both, you furrow your brows as it looks disgusting in the room.

But you both walk in, it’s small, a bed and dresser in it. You kick your boots off and eye the bed with disgust. “It looks like someone died here Thad…” You say and he shrugs and takes his boots off and sits on the bed you’d both be sharing.

“Yeah, someone probably did…but it’s better than the ground” He says and you nod slowly even if you thought otherwise and take the jacket off, the underside of your breast visible and Thaddeus stares at it with wide eyes.

You don’t even notice as you walk to the dresser and look it over, seeing it empty and you sigh.

“Shit…oh no…” you hear Thaddeus mumble and his eyes are squeezed shut, he instantly throws a pillow on his lap and you give him a look of concern.

“Are you okay?….did the fall earlier hurt you bad?” you ask and he shakes his head frantically as he keeps his eyes closed and you walk over to sit next to him and he scoots away some.

“No! No..uh…just uh…put the jacket back on?” He said and you give him a confused look.

“Why?….” You say slowly and he huffs and as his eyes fall on you pleadingly, but feels his situation getting worse as your cleavage is visible from your ripped your shirt.

“Just please put it on…” He looks away again and swallows thickly as his eyes squeeze shut.

You were beyond confused and grab the coat and slowly put it back on. “Are you okay?…” you ask him again and he nods and sighed deeply.

“Your uh…um… ‘tumors’ just…make me feel weird” He knows the brotherhood teach absolutely nothing about situations like this. They educate on sensible things, important things but this not this.

So the confused look you give him makes him sigh deeply again as he looks at you. “It’s weird, I’m being weird….” He says and shakes his head as he stares at the wall. “You ever hear the stories the guys talk about? The knights?…” He asks, and you nod slowly getting an idea.

“The ones about kissing and stuff?” You inquired while he nods and sighed again, his situation not going away.

“Yeah…” he says and you slowly start piecing it together. You heard stories about kissing, some of the knights laughed and bragged about screwing people but Maximus always steered you away from that topic. Especially when they said something about their cocks exploding.

You stare at Thaddeus and scoot closer again but he doesn’t pull away…

“Do you like…wanna kiss or something?” You ask and he stares at you with wide eyes as he looks your face over, he found himself oddly attracted to you more then he was before.

He nods and discreetly pushed the pillow down more in an attempt to get his erection in control but it only makes it worse…

“I don’t know how to…” He admits quietly and you scoot so that your legs touch and you nod knowingly.

“I don’t either…but I guess we’ll figure it out together” You stare at his face as he does yours and you don’t move…it’s awkward and he clears his throat.

“So my mouth just…” He leans in and you do the same, your noses touching as you pull back and tilt your head some and place a quick peck on his lips. Too quick to actually feel.

He leans in to peck you again but longer and you let him. His lips felt soft…and he pecks you again and again as you slowly hold his jaw as you too keep slowly pecking.

He doesn’t know if it’s right, but you kept doing it and that was enough to have his face flushing red.

It has your heart pounding, heat pooling in your belly as your eyes close and you two kept pecking each others lips. His little mustache tickles your skin as you too start taking longer to pull back with each kiss, his lips staying on yours longer as he groans into it.

“You’re making it harder to get rid of this, Marcus…” He pulls back with furrowed brows and looks at you. “Wait…you’re a girl…is Marcus even your name?…” He asks and you let out a soft amused snort at that, face hot from just having your first kiss with him.

“No…” you say and tell him your real name, his eyes soften as he whispers it quietly.

“Can we kiss again?…” You smirk some and start kissing him, instinctively doing whatever feels right or nice…which is currently how your tongue ends up with his, his whimper music to your ears as you feel heat blooming between your thighs.

Thaddues just let you lick around in his mouth, his tongue not doing anything because he wasn’t sure what to even do…

It’s a foreign feeling, almost overwhelming as you push his pillow away and get on his lap before he can even object. “Wait!—oh…” He moans as you sit on his bulge, his hips twitching up.

“Don’t tell the brotherhood I’m actually a woman and I’ll keep going….” You don’t know where this sudden spark of boldness came from but you feel it, especially when his hips jerk up.

“I swear! I won’t tell anyone! I won’t even think about it!” He says quickly and you feel his hands land on your hips, pulling you closer as his eyes closed and he slowly rolls his hips up into yours.

“Oh my…oh shit that’s nice…” He rambles out as you feel your heart beating faster and you let him control your movements, your own hips grinding down and you feel sparks shooting up your spine.

“Thad….” You whisper his name, a soft moan escaping your lips as you felt yourself getting wet from this, especially when you feel him move, a twitch?…

“Oh…shit wait, wait, wait…don’t move!” You stop instantly and furrow your brows as he pants and stops moving as his face is flushed red, lips parted as he moans quietly.

“Is everything okay?…” you ask quietly and rub his chest, feeling his heart beating as fast as your own. Your body buzzing with arousal while between your legs feels like molten lava.

“Yeah…too okay…like, like I’m gonna explode y’know?…” You nod slowly as he spoke between breathes as you rubbed his chest.

“Is your cock gonna explode?” You ask, genuinely curious as this was all too knew for you.

And you feel his hips jerk up as his erection twitches again. “Don’t say that! Not right now…oh shit…” He lets your hips go and puts his palms on the bed on either side of him.

You furrow your brows and slowly start moving, grinding because you need some friction, knowing he needs it too. Thaddeus lets out a beautiful sound, a moan and whine, his eyes closed as he starts bucking up.

“Shit, shit, shit…fuck!” His hips twitch as he fists the sheets and moans out, you feel him convulsing beneath you and his back hits the bed as he whimpers and pulls you off his lap. His trousers having a wet patch where he just came…

“I’m sorry…i-I didn’t mean to do that! You made me do it…” He rambled and pants before groaning and dropping his head back on the bed. “Awwe man…now my pants are sticky and gross…” He says, as if they’re not caked in shit and mud already.

You move off his lap and still feel an aching sensation between your legs as you fold your legs under you and look at him.

“They’re already dirty….” You point out and he nods before taking them off, his underwear and shirt still on. Your eyes locked in on his boxers where you can see he’s still hard.

He looks at you and blushes deeply as he grabs the pillow to cover himself but you snatch it. “Thaddues…?” You say and look at him inquisitively.

He hums in response and can’t even look at you right now. “Yeah?….”

You only ever heard some knights talk about this, using words like ‘use my cock’ or ‘that whore made my cock explode!’ And then the one you remember hearing the most from knight Gerald ‘we did sex and that bitch rode me like a rocket!’ So you slowly crawl back on his lap and he furrows his brows now.

“Can we do sex?…” You ask and his eyes widen as you ask, knowing what you mean and he swallows thickly.

He starts nodding eagerly and your already taking your pants off, your panties wet as you take them off as well and watch him laying on his back watching you with a red face and big blue eyes wide.

He nearly whimpered when you get completely naked for him, he can’t even believe you’re real and this is actually happening to him…

You take his boxers off and you blush, never having seen a cock up close like this…he blushes even more and whimpered. It was five and a half inches at most, girthy as it twitches some when you just stare at him in fascination.

“Please…please, please, please…I need you…” He begs and you felt a new wave of heat rushing to your core as you take your underwear off as well.

You may be very inexperienced, but you heard enough stories to know what to do. So you straddle him again, and sit on his thighs as your hands are on his chest.

Your body feels warm, a buzz lighting all your nerves on fire in the best way possible as you look down at Thaddeus who has his shirt on still and doesn’t plan on taking it off. His eyes wide and nervous but pleading for something…

You scoot closer and can feel yourself getting hot, your face burning. You gently grind on him, your bare skin touching and you moan as he feels warm and hard under you.

“Holy—fuck….your…your so wet….” He spoke as if he was in awe of you, which he probably was as you just grind on him and get his cock all wet.

You let out a soft breathy sound and keep going, hands in his chest fisting his shirt as you gaze down at him with half lidded eyes and desire.

“Does it feel good?…” You ask and hope he feels as euphoric as you do right now, your hips slowly moving against him and he nods and whines.

“Yes! Shit yeah….” He was breathing heavy again and you moan quietly as he grips your hips. “Can I go inside you?…” he asks and gives you a begging look, one you found yourself not ever going to say no to.

So you nod and reach down between you both, Looking momentarily as you guide him inside. His tip slips in and you both moaned at how intense it was.

“Thaddeus!….” You moaned out as you slowly slide down, so wet it hardly hurts like you’ve heard it would…

Thaddues was flushed red and sweaty already as you gaze down at him. “I’m gonna explode again…ah..ah please…” He begs as you start moving, feeling a slight stretch but it felt nice.

You move up and down, repeating it slowly as the drag of his cock against your spongy walls was absolutely electric, intoxicating as you never wanted it to end. “This feels so good Thaddeus…” You say breathlessly as you look down at him.

And good god if the sight wasn’t breathtaking. His blue eyes blown with need, lips parted as he pants and whines when you move down just right, his chest heaves beneath your hands as you subconsciously start going a little faster.

You can hear the old bed squeaking, creaking as you both move together. Thaddeus was moving his hips up into you and pulling you down by your hips, his hips moving at an unsteady and almost desperate way as he pants.

“Oh yeah…r-right…right there!” His voice is higher in pitch and eyes closed as he fucks up into you quickly now.

You moan out as you grasp his shirt and let him keep doing those sloppy movements because it feels good, your walls clenching repeatedly as you felt yourself slipping closer to something absolutely mind numbing.

“Thaddeus….” You spoke so breathlessly and it has his head spinning, The pleasure becoming intense and his hands grip harder on your hips.

You are practically bouncing on him now as he lets out more noises of pleasure, your eyes closed and back arches from how incredible it actually is. Before you even know it, he’s tensing again as you felt the pressure that had been building up finally snap and you shake when you finally came.

It was intense, your eyes closed as you moan and convulse on Thaddeus, nails digging into his chest as your hips move in quick flicks, riding out the waves of pure pleasure.

“Holy shit! Ah!” Thaddues lets out a loud groan as he came after, his hips stuttering as he trembles beneath you, rambling sweet nothings and how good you feel…

Afterwards, You lay on his chest, heart’s beating wildly together as he rubs your back soothingly. Your blissed out, both of you are and as you lift your head and look at him, you felt a fluttering in your chest at the sight of him.

He’s actually cute…despite being an asshole to your brother and punching you in the face, his eyes meet yours, his a beautiful blue.

Shit, you can’t think like this about him, he’s a dick! Maximus will kill you!

You sit up and lay on your side, back facing him as he furrows his brows and props himself up on his elbows. “You alright?…i didn’t hurt you did I? Was it bad? Did I do something wrong?!” He starts rambling and you sighed and feel guilty for putting space between you two.

“No, you didn’t hurt me or do anything wrong…I’m just tired now” You say back and cringe at your own attitude and hear him lay back down and sigh.

“Alright, I’m pretty tired too…after all we just did” He chuckles awkwardly and lays down and puts his hands on his belly. “I should put my pants back on right?…” He asks and you furrow your brows as he basically talks to himself.

“I totally should…I will” He gets up and your turn to face him now and watch as he does so, groaning as he rubs at the crotch. “I completely forgot about that…” You shake your head and smile some, he was odd but you found yourself gazing at him fondly.

He grumbles about the mess on his pants before putting them on and laying back down, seeing you staring at him he blushes.

“I thought you’d be asleep now?…” He says and you shake your head and sigh.

“I don’t think anyone falls asleep in seconds…” You say and he nods slowly and lays back down on his back, hands folded on his belly.

You watch him get comfortable as he sighs softly and stares at the ceiling. “Everything was good for you right?…” He asks again and you can see he’s actually genuinely wondering if you enjoyed it as much as he did.

So you give in, snuggling to his side as you nod. “Yeah…it was good” He smiles some and puts an arm around you.

“Wanna do it again?…” He peeks down at you and you look up to catch his eye, feeling that familiar heat pooling in the depths of your belly.

“Yeah…” You say and he gets on top of you, kissing you very uncoordinatedly and sloppy but you love it, his messy kiss and little words mumbled in between.

“Dang it…now i gotta take my pants back off…” you can’t help but laugh at that a bit, watching as he fiddles with the buttons…

The midday sun bleeds through dirty torn curtains and you were already up, standing by the rooms dirty window and tightening your chest compressor that’s old cloth tied tightly, but it was better then nothing you suppose. Then you slip on an old button up shirt the old man who owns this place gave you, hearing the brotherhood approaching in their planes.

Behind you is Thaddeus, hair disheveled, a grin on his face as he puts his boots back on. Pleasantly pleased from a night full of pleasure.

You button your shirt and tuck it in and leave the room, Thaddeus making haste to get his shirt on before following behind you. You both walk outside and you see the brotherhood, a knight and squire surveying the area as they lead you both back, Thaddeus explains the whole situation as you board the transport…

The flight back to the only thing you know as a home is rather silent, Thaddeus giving you glances, staying silent about you being a woman. You felt glad he didn’t say anything, Both of you sitting opposite each other…

You don’t say much after what happened between you both, So when you finally get back you instantly start searching for your brother but find Dane, a somewhat friend you’ve made and see they’re foot bandaged.

“Where’s Maximus?…” You ask Dane, who shrugs as you look around the room now.

“He’s gone…” Your eyes widen at this information, hands on your head as you try and process that. Now you’re worried about him, especially with the beasts you know are out there now…

“What do you mean he’s gone? Did he rank up to squire too?” You huff and Dane shakes their head slowly as you furrow your brows. “He’s gone gone…” You felt your heart plummet and you know it shows on your face the shock and pain you feel.

“Knight Titus made the report this morning…they’re sending in a squire to replace him…” Dane adds and you march away, storming to Elder Cleric Quintus.

Max couldn’t be dead, he just can’t be. He’s the toughest person you know.

You hold back tears as you storm and kneel before Cleric Quintus. Who simply looks down at you from where he sits. “Marcus…I’m assuming you’ve heard the news—

“Send me. Send me to assist knight Titus…” You look up at the man who shakes his head, knowing better than to send you. You’ve just came back from a failed expedition…

“I already have someone in mind to send…I know this is glum time for you and you need to mourn in peace” He says and you stand and glare at him.

“Send me to assist knight Titus, please…” You add the last part bitterly, pain mixing with anger at how your brother died probably doing what he warned you not to do, protecting a knight.

Elder cleric Quintus stares at you and waves of the squire he had picked to assist Titus. “Very well, but given your emotional state and devastation…another squire will accompany you” You hear Thaddeus push past some people and raise his hand.

“I’ll go! I can help Marcus!” You glanced at him as he nods some at you before looking back at Quintus.

“Very well…you’ll both replace Maximus…” Quintus spoke the words as if it was distasteful to think your brother is actually gone, and he goes back inside as you nod and turn to Thaddeus who gives you a sort of sympathetic look.

But you ignore him and push past to get back into the transport…

You plan on finding him, to give him a proper burial and beating knight Titus to a bloody pulp for letting your brother die…it hurts to even think about him being gone…