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I should have known, it was too good to be true.

Motherhood… One of the greatest love a mother will ever know, is the love of her child. As a newish mother of a one year old King, I can truly say, I never known a love like this. One so pure, authentic, unconditional. To think, I carried life for 9+ months and this tiny human is my own. I relate this back to God and his unchanging love for us…how special is it that God allowed a mother to know first hand the experience of creating life and the opportunity to nurture a soul. Motherhood is love.

Me 

In addition, I’m not sure there is a way to prep for the upcoming hills, because they are sometimes random and uncontrollable. Just remember never to quit, because life is beautiful & for all the bad moments, there are good ones waiting right around the corner. 

There is no fairytale romance that exist in today’s world. It’s sad to say. But I have given up on love. I refuse to wait around for a man to sweep me off my feet. I am tired of kissing FROGS and no Prince emerge. Again, it is a sad sad world we live in. 

They say that feeling broken is like a shattered mirror unable to fit the pieces together. However, when you begin to recognize the brokeness is where healing begins and the pieces come back together on their own. Well I believe in a different image, let’s say that you put the pieces as close together as possible... there is where you find the new You! The You that has scars and jagged edges. The You that is Obscure. The You that doesn’t fit so well together but still makes a whole.

When the going gets tough the tough gets going. Its a cliche but very fitting for times where there feels to be no hope. Hope for today because joy comes in the morning.

I learned you can’t be angry with God because of your situation or you trials that he's putting you through and not believe in him at the same time. You must choose to have faith in every situation. I am not saying this is easy and He sure does give some hefty battles sometimes that even break us down to the very core of our being, but we have to remember it is done in love. He wants to be the reason for your joy. So in every situation both good and bad you must remember that he is in control and he does not make any mistakes. His will is perfect for your life and you will if patient reap the blessings. 

In order to have change, each individual must educate themselves and make changes within themselves first. It begins inwards and pushing out the boundaries, not standing on the outside and expecting things to get better.

Abraham Lincoln

Lastly, live your life to the fullest because you never know when the moment will come that you will no longer walk the earth. One of my childhood best-friend,  life was taken too soon along with my sisters best friend on October 30th, 2016. Tabitha “Tabby” Cruz, 20, was full of life and was going to have a bright future with plans of becoming a veterinarian, she was an amazing friend and even though we did not get to see each other as often, whenever we did it was like nothing changed. We could talk forever and it would feel like we caught up with whatever we missed in our lives. Omani Free, 18, although, I knew her only for a short moment in time she will forever be the innocent friend of my sister who made me laugh whenever I was around her. Her soul was as pure as they came. Both were taken so abruptly and their loss impacted so many lives. They will forever be missed. 

Remember, we  are all created in His image. So speak love, not hate. Cherish each life as if it were your own. Walk around with your eye closed, not in the literal sense but figuratively blind- in order not to judge another man or woman by the color of their skin.

Carrie Underwood 

For the new year, lets worry about our own happiness, lets laugh a little harder, enjoy your favorite things and most importantly leave the people, things, or behaviors that make you unhappy in 2016. Live for you and no one else. ✄

I am a philomath. 

I lay awake at night and think of you. Each precious moment we shared, each tear cried, each obstacle we over came, each laughing moments that left us breathless. An abundance of love poured into another human being. Subsequently, I don't think I will ever love as deep. And the sad truth is, I never want to try. With each moment I loved you, I gave you a piece of my heart and now that I am without you, I am left with a void. I think I can conclude that, LOVE INDEED SUCKS! It sucks the life out of you, the independence, the want to ever be alone. My heart bleeds for you till its nothing more than a mere shriveled organ whose beat shall forever be disrupted. 

Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility