as you may or may not have noticed, i've been hiatus for most of the month now. and i disappeared because of personal reasons, and one of those reasons being that i felt i needed to reflect. here are some things that i've learned and realized during my reflection time.

this is quite personal to me, but i wanted to kind of have a heart to heart with you guys and im sure that someone is probably struggling with what i mention in this post so i hope this is comforting...💬🎀

WHY I FELT STUCK IN MY LOA JOURNEY ;

i was literally doing the most and it felt like such a chore at the time. i would force myself to affirm in ways that felt unnatural, i was letting myself get bullied by the 3D, even though i KNOW i dont have to do a thing. i was putting way too much effort in the wrong way.

Another year older

still no wiser

They told me that

I'd never make it this far

Yet, here i stand waiting

to fall over

again.

If one doesn't get you

the next one will

Repeat perfomances

grow stale very quickly

So sit beside me as

my head caves in

again.

Blow out the candles

before there's a wind

So many candles

as the forest grows dim

Where will I be

at the next year's end

Another year older and none the wiser

again.

Roper: "Well I'm certainly wiser"

I get the impression that Roper actually experienced some personal growth during his time in his “hell hole”. At least in regards to hate, revenge and forgiveness.

damn

it's so good. There's such an atmosphere of foreboding that I don't see very often in war shows. Band of Brothers really doesn't have this until you get to them being in the plane for D-Day, but that also makes sense. And here's my thought on why

Every sense of foreboding, worry etc about our main trio going off to war is NOT from them. We know from memoirs that Leckie and Sledge didn't really feel such a thing in the states- many young men like them seem to have been excited, eager to fight and go on some grand adventure for glory (and for the Japanese, revenge). Because Band is from the perspective of all of the men themselves- whether officer or enlisted- it keeps away that foreboding feeling until the guys are actually in the plane and about to go into battle. Which makes sense and seems realistic, I think.

The only people who are worried are the PARENTS: Mr. Leckie, Dr. Sledge and his wife, and Mr. Basilone. They are the adults, and these are their CHILDREN that they know may not be coming back. Sledge's is probably the most overt with the heart murmur thing, but we do have some very subtle touches with Leckie and Basilone. Additionally- for sure with Sledge- many of these people are OLD ENOUGH to remember the FIRST WORLD WAR- they may have even witnessed it firsthand (depending on when the Basilones immigrated) or fought in it (like Dr. Sledge and maybe Mr. Leckie, although I'm not sure on him).

The Pacific's main theme is the brutality of war, and its effects on those who fight in it. Having this overall sense of foreboding makes the audience feel nervous- plus, gives foreshadowing to what the reality is going to be, and comes full circle to the end.

This end of course, has Sledge with PTSD, Leckie changed (probably with PTSD too I'm sure), and Basilone gone, leaving the lives of his family/wife changed forever.