Just Another Vocaloid Translyricist

Both born behind darkened city walls, cast away Stenches and smoke filled-streets crawling up to the gates The colours of the grassy plains? Still not known to this date.   “Even though we’ve always stayed here waiting for help Only the tyranny grows in power and wealth” And that was what you said with a smile   People weeping low, and Gunshots piercing cold, but Staying alive is what matters most   Mixed with breaths of white You told me in a whispering voice- “Time to run.”   Back then we would dream about What children always dreamt Thinking that outside this cage exists- They must be somewhere Love and warmth meant for us   Finally flew across The windows shut and latched But we’ve lost count of how Many dreams like this we’ve had   Long long ago, stored away in this memory of mine You proudly showed me a picture scratched up with lines That silly drawing of your design Product of a child’s mind   But now I’m lured forward by your wave in the light Froze in my steps, staring as it comes into sight The plane from back then, taking flight.   Sirens from afar, and Cops lined up in arms, all Signalling to fire at where you are   Through the rotting rooftop Gaps between the walls– I see you Fly across   Back then we would talk about What grown-ups never dared Saying we’ll one day escape the cage To look down at this Trash-like town from above   Rust-coated pedals Pressed down with all your might As you break away from Reality, holding tight   Warning lights turn on, all From an unknown cause- Alarms are flashing red and wouldn’t stop   With no look of fright, you Still kept on rising up in height With a smile   Engine’s overheating but No matter what becomes Of this body that has taken flight, It stepped out into The greatness of this blue sky   “To perish in the flames If that’s the end I’ll face I’ll still gladly believe it’s A worthy price to pay.”

So look, the season full of sighs has finally arrived And the wind tunnel in my heart is opened wide My head is filled with beautiful memories from a-far Like it’s about to burst apart Neither the left-brain line, nor theories well-defined But flowing out of everywhere I knew Over the pounding rain, it softly whispers “I am missing you.”

There something within me I feel it all along We’re living in a world that slowly falls apart each day You’re smiling in my view But I longer see --------------- Please take the me that broke apart And stop my breath today I can’t break free It’s all different and changed Even truth has been Freeze ------------------ The broken and the yet to break The madness and The ones still sane Amidst them all Searching for you ------------------- I’m standing and the world crumbles around me Fading away until you can’t see Stop searching for me, There’s nothing you can find Stop staring at me ------------------- Who sketched this world and threw us all in I can’t bear it to see you hurting Just please remember That I did once exist Alive as I have been.

There on the balcony of a stylish cafe The order of the featured pancakes And don’t you forget, tag it right away A proof of your identity There on the timeline, posted, page refreshing My post,collecting all of your “likes” And all the views and comments, they’re so satisfying Somebody help me out, help me out Bound up by the wifi signals in a chain as I’m Acting out, a glorious show So lonely is my life What is the voice behind this aimless battle I’m fighting on against? But without knowing why, post into the world! Once in a while I’d Swipe on the screen, refresh the page And smiling at the comments “oh, god, I am so jealous of your life” It’s not even something I’d care Those words of lies and flattery, sickening Please give them all to me Somebody help me out, help me out Bound up by the wifi signals in a chain as I’m Acting out, a glorious show So lonely is my life I think I’ve known already long ago that no one’d ever care What’s there inside my mind, the way I truly am. Dressed in costumes, praising the world Throwing away what I am I’m drowning in these, so many to keep, those shallow friendships all like Chasing the daily fashion, ever changing Trending memes and topics and vines What was the happy life that I’ve once dreamt to see? Somebody help me out, help me out Bound up by the wifi signals in a chain as I’m Acting out, a glorious show So lonely is my life What is the voice behind this aimless battle I’m fighting on against? And never knowing why, I wander on- No way out, No way out And if I stay here nothing ever will change Beeping noise, inside my head The notification light! This body modified, infected, corrupting with disguise You know that all I want, is someone who would care That’s all...I want... Ahh...

Tracing on a page with broken words and countless crumpled paper drafts So I guess that tomorrow I’ll be waiting for a letter coming from the past But the address remains undefined I don’t even know what I have in mind So should I just, keep all these feelings here with me? -- How does it feel to say “I’ve never thought that I’d grow up to be like that”? Even up in the sky, the gods are pointing at me as they laugh- Please shut your mouth a little, can’t you? Just leave and go find something better to do Crying bitter tears, feeling nothing but sadness falling through -- With cynical eyes, blinding yourself from the love Is this “Terrorism”, locking yourself in a room? All this time I’m singing out a song, no, crying out my thoughts and if, you say all of it’s just a mistake all unwound Then take a bullet heavier than the words And shoot it down! -- Retaliate on everything they’ve done, it’s all up to you! To take back all the long abandoned dreams, the goals and ambitions that you’ve lost, I’ll bet my heart on this resistance! All the times you were laughed at, pay back all at once Is this what everyone would call a coup d’etat A battle fought, over time we’ll see who falls back The night of rebellion at last. -- I used to think that writing songs would make a difference in the evils and the bad. No guilt or awkward feelings, just a silly little idea that I had Yelling “Domination of the World!” Then suddenly taking the words back Any idiots like that, they would only still exist in the past. ---- Voices of the crowd, sneering, and scorning aloud Is this “Terrorism”, trapped by fears both old and new? All along i’ve been rejecting them- wait, no, running away and if, this is the final chance that’s left for me to play out my life on this terrible stage Well sorry I’ll pass! -- Retaliate on everything they’ve done, it’s all up to you! To ignore all the people always insulting and jeering at you Crying for help from my heart, mayday! All the times you were laughed at, pay back all at once Sprung from the corner of the room, intifada! With no soldiers nor a leader we’ll defend The night of rebellion at last. -- And even though I’m worn out from the fight, I’ll take back what was mine Your heart is something that should only belong to you, and life is Only life if you can make it shine! Even if you will trip and fall, or give in to a halt These thing are all proof that you’ve once tried to move on! And this is why, those who scorn are the least deserving But even so, still the earth will keep on spinning. Is that so, Is that so, please tell me once more!

Look at you, with that gloomy face and smiles that you lack Always being mocked, why don’t you ever fight back? “One day you guys will see!” Although you’ll never be Holding onto knives and weapons you were meant to keep Let us make a promise to each other from this day on Tear off all the labels on your back all along Even though each day, has always gone to waste It’s too early to just throw it all away And the me, waiting here all alone today Standing in the last stop of the train Tomorrow I’ll, still be trembling and waiting right here Give my welcomes to the stubborn and dense headed master puppeteer Doesn’t matter if in many years, cars fly up in the sky Doesn’t matter if as time goes by the robots could reply Before you say it’s easy, the words you had from the start Please can you help me fix it,  this gouge inside my heart? If the missiles and the bullets soar across the sky above If that’s  only how this “happiness” of mine can be resolved Being kind is all I have to strive on Wonder if that’s how I would prove myself… Even though they’d always tell me “look ahead and carry on”, I stare into the darkness where i know I don’t belong Doesn’t matter if you’re here, or if i’m alone and scared It won’t change for me all the isolation and despair Voicing words of death, as I sing along Even though they look down on the thoughts as sick and wrong But to think again, these words that I speak For all those thoughts, pointless and vain, they’ve all been lost, no matter what I do- I can’t find them anymore! The present me, just like I did everyday Sucked back into the land of the games And tomorrow will be great if it never came As I hear the noisy whistle in the distance coming from the final train. So what if we say that “love’s burden”, brushing off our faults? Would you not help feeling guilty of the cruelty and the flaws? What would you think of me now? Don’t you think I’m beyond help? Well if you could just shut your annoying little mouth! If the missiles and the bullets soar across the sky above If that’s  only how this “happiness” of mine can be resolved Being kind is all I have to strive on Wonder if that’s how I would prove- Being kind is all I have to strive on Before my heart grows numb and all the words are gone

Hey, what if- You could give up everything that’s close to you Would it be… So much easier to smile and carry through? There’s something hurting again deep inside my chest I’ve had enough, so just give it a rest Hey what if- You could throw away the memories that you had And live on Free from all the tears and hardships of the past But all these fantasies will never be achieved I’ve had enough, so please don’t let me see... No matter, how I try my best to be close to you I realize, that my heart’s the only one of it’s own The misery, the agony, I’d rather give you my everything Tear it into shreds, rip it in your hands, whatever you choose for my suffering No matter how, I cry out, struggling with tears, swollen eyes and plead You’re here with me, holding onto me, so close as if you would never leave. That’s enough for me Hey, what if- All the wishes of mine, one day they’ll come true I think I’d Notice that I want the same things as you do But in reality it doesn’t quite exist for me So if you could have it, that’s all I need Even if, I am loved, so dearly only by you I realize, that my heart’s the only one of it’s own Just stop it all, please cut it out, put all of your gentleness to an end Nothing explains, it’s all in vain,  I really don’t seem to comprehend It hurts so much, all the pain and such, please tell me softly with words alone. I don’t understand, and I never can, don’t vanish and leave me on my own The misery, the agony, I’d rather give you my everything Tear it into shreds, rip it in your hands, whatever you choose for my suffering No matter how, I cry out, struggling with tears, swollen eyes and plead You’re here with me, holding onto me, so close as if you would never leave. That’s enough for me Hey what if- Someday I could have a true heart of my own? How would I Set off on a quest to find it all alone? I hear you speak to me, a smile on your face “What you’re searching for, it’s right here in this place.”

It’s simply for the good of everyone, So we’d all become rich at last      If we can tie tie tie delusions to the world Go on and buy buy buy the future that you hold Please don’t deny-ny-ny, desiring what you crave The pain is mine mine mine, let’s face it bold and brave      Although we buy buy buy, we cannot buy our dreams  They tell us lies lies lies, it’s all a phony scheme. Say “thank you very much”, I think it’s all enough. This crumpled piece of card, does it belong to me?      Here, take all of my money, all my filthy bags of gold Throw them away with all the dreams I hold.

The part of my missing memory, It’s building up to such a terrifying quantity The only thing that appears to be clear This recollection of mine seems to have disappeared   Time and time again and again, No matter how I try the end is all the same Even though your face emerges every time /Not a thing about you ever really comes to mind   Rings on the globe line up one after one Circling ‘round their path and chasing the morning sun We don’t need a track to lead our lives Spending our time following the unknown and the night.   Time and time again and again, No matter how I try the end is all the same Rolling off my eyelids light drops of rain And leaving soft, hollow sounds to die away   Would you be satisfied, living like this and always An ignorant life spent and, not knowing anything? If I told you how I’m, troubled, unable to sleep Would you just laugh at me and turn away to take your leave?   If I’m to count within me each basic feeling And all the warmth that you had given me have vanished without a warning Byebye, I guess we will never meet again This strange sensation is unstoppable, spurring out from my mind   There’s no way one can laugh when they’re A fool as helpless as I   Just like a donut, glazed and baked The emptiness of the core will always remain There’s no way to prove, with all my might The fact that you’ve really existed in my life   Time and time again and again, No matter how I try the end is all the same Lying on the bed like every night Clutching the sheets, chasing nightmares from my head If our thoughts, all alike, would flourish and never die Will I then calmly accept the truth and be satisfied? Clenching onto the past, I swear I’ll stop looking back Just give me something firm to hold on till the very last   If I’m to count each feeling that has been long lost And I’ll forget, the voice you’ve given me, and all of the melodies sung Byebye, I guess we will never meet again This strange sensation is unstoppable, spurring out from my mind   The tears pour down the visage of A fool as helpless as I   This emptiness in my heart, hollow to the core Isn’t that proof of your existence, all the days that we’ve shared before? Nothing that I’ve tried has yet stitched this up complete, It keeps tearing my heart apart and I can only yield to defeat   If I’m to count within me each basic feeling And all the warmth that you had given me have vanished without a warning Byebye, I guess we will never meet again   And in the very end I suddenly hear Your last whisper to me   Slowly I take a step, breathe in And open my eyes to see   Open my eyes to see Open my eyes to see   Your name came to my memory-